Shane is a dynamic and charismatic artist whose performances are jaw-dropping in their expressive power. His delivery follows that of slam poetry and his performances and personae are at the vanguard of the live poetry circuit in the U.S., Canada & the UK.
His written work has been well received in Canada & the UK. The initial print-run for his book Visiting Hours dwarfed the industry standards for poetry books. Visiting Hours was recommended as a Book of the Year 2005 by the Guardian and the Globe and Mail.
Together with Mighty Mike McGee and C. R. Avery, he is the co-founder of spoken word, "talk rock" trio, Tons of Fun University.
My Darling Sara
Shane Koyczan Lyrics
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isn't actually the failing use of my right hand
it's just another way to tell the time
and I'm ticking
so I've been picking myself up at bars
with a bottle in each hand
but I never give myself any play
I only make plans with myself for the day after next
I forget the context of why I asked myself out
in the first place
did I think I was going to score?
I let a stranger pour me one more
she says
my name is Sara
doesn't take much more than that
to start a relationship
My darling, Sara
cleans rooms for a living
giving her youth and beauty
to dirt and dust
understands more than most
that family must be the foot you put forward first
you must weather the worst together
but having never met her family
she places love above all else
then protests that I use the word love
too freely in poems
and I should really just say what I mean
and I suppose what I mean most is that
I'm trying
she's been buying me time
on a maxed out credit card
arms scarred from selling her own blood
to pay down the debt
tells me she doesn't mind going broke
just so long as I can give her a little sweat
she says
try
so I do my best impression
of a pen
and when every problem looks like a page
I commit ink to paper
the worth of the words that come out
determines my wage
I've been making enough
to pay her the compliment
of not quitting.
of not sitting
when standing is required
she only asks that I put the effort in
and in return she's willing
to pin a paper heart to her chest
then do her best impression
of a target
She tells me that effort
is the siamese twin of success
so when everyone else looks like a wrong answer
she says she'll settle for being my best guess
so we lie in bed like a mess
that someone's been meaning to clean
for the large part
of a long while
we lie there like a pile of dirty laundry
and how we'll ever come clean
is beyond me
so we don't
she says
it's supposed to be dirty
and if by the end you haven't hurt me
then you didn't try
so I do my best impression
of a surgeon
cutting purple hearts out of my own
use my veins like thread
then have hurt sewn to our skin like medals
because when the bleeding stops
and that dust settles
all we have are our wounds
to wear like decorations
upon our chest
Sara does her best impression of a war
tells me not to count my pride among casualties
because maybe faith means never keeping score
she says there's more to effort than just switching gears
and in terms of what one should give in life
sweat holds more value than tears
you have to try
and even though
the failing use of my right hand
means I'll never land a knockout punch
in the first round
life is composed of sound and fury
whatever noise is left in me
will be twice as loud when I try
so I plug myself into the idea of going the distance
and I amplify
My darling, Sara
has a throat like a vase
she sings her words into bloom
has voice like perfume
it's been sticking to my clothes
so everyone knows where I've been sleeping
she's been keeping me so close
you could use my body for evidence
pull her fingerprints as proof
that she's been on top so often
she's starting to look like my roof
but a real sexy roof
and she doesn't leak
unless you count the crying
she does that sometimes
worries that she's just a back up plan
My darling, Sara.
I've lived long enough to learn
too many choices can destroy a man
I will make no exodus
I'll be around long enough
to watch uncertainty bid us farewell
the echo our names into the crater
caused by the impact
of when our lack of conviction fell
you've never had to sell me on the idea
of absolute certainty in the trustworthiness of another
the first and only time you met my mother
mom said
"I like the way she looks at you"
and I echoed back to her
that I liked it too.
eyes like recycle bin blue
Sara looks at broken things
as if she can make them new
more than a few times I've caught her staring
caught her wearing
a smile reserved for those busy making plans.
Sara believes that distance is a fundamental
that can be side-stepped by a piece of string
and two tin cans
and I remember when my tin can rang.
they said
there's no family to speak of
so love is next in line
and there's not a lot of time but
she's asking for her boyfriend
in the cab to the hospital I feel my heart bend
as if bracing for impact
so I do my best impression of a man
and face fact.
it's supposed to hurt.
a doctor does his best impression of the truth
and spares me his attempts to skirt around the issue.
they can't stop the bleeding
and the failing use of Sara's heart
isn't actually
the failing use of Sara's heart.
it's just another way to tell the time.
My darling, Sara
I was holding your hand when you died
and even though the failing use of my right hand
prevented me from feeling you leave.
I tried.
The song "My Darling Sara" by Shane Koyczan is a tribute to a woman named Sara who enters his life and helps him through his struggles. The lyrics of the song focus on the common human experience of struggling with life, but with the help of someone special, finding hope and a reason to keep going.
The opening lines of the song, “The failing use of my right hand isn't actually the failing use of my right hand, it's just another way to tell the time,” metaphorically indicate the singer's awareness of his own mortality – the ticking of the clock – and his anxiety about how to spend the limited time he has. He eventually finds solace in Sara, a woman who works as a cleaner, but who understands the importance of family and the value of trying. She urges the singer to write, to try, to give effort, and to take risks. She becomes his muse, inspiring him to commit his thoughts to paper and communicate more honestly. They bring out the best in each other, however, it ends on a tragic note with Sara's death.
This song speaks to our anxieties, our fears, and ultimately, the power of companionship and love. It reminds us that life is fleeting and fraught with challenge, but that a single person can make an enormous difference in our journey. The song My Darling Sara was released in 2012 as a part of Koyczan's album called "Remembrance Year".
Line by Line Meaning
The failing use of my right hand
My physical limitations and shortcomings
isn't actually the failing use of my right hand
are not a true representation of my failure
it's just another way to tell the time
it is a reminder of how time passes
and I'm ticking
and I am constantly moving forward
so I've been picking myself up at bars
so I've been trying to cope by going to bars
with a bottle in each hand
drinking alcohol excessively
but I never give myself any play
but I never give myself any breaks
I only make plans with myself for the day after next
I only make plans for the near future
but by the time the sun swings back around into position
but by the time the day arrives
I forget the context of why I asked myself out
I forget the reason why I made plans
in the first place
in the first place
did I think I was going to score?
did I think I was going to succeed?
I let a stranger pour me one more
I let a stranger serve me another drink
she says
she introduces herself
my name is Sara
my name is Sara
doesn't take much more than that
it doesn't take much more than a name
to start a relationship
to initiate a connection
My darling, Sara
My beloved, Sara
cleans rooms for a living
works as a cleaner for a living
giving her youth and beauty
sacrificing her youth and beauty
to dirt and dust
to clean and maintain cleanliness
understands more than most
understands more than many others
that family must be the foot you put forward first
that prioritizing family is essential
you must weather the worst together
you must face difficulties together
but having never met her family
but since she hasn't met her own family
she places love above all else
she prioritizes love above everything
then protests that I use the word love
then complains that I use the word love
too freely in poems
too often in my poems
and I should really just say what I mean
and I should be more direct in my expression
and I suppose what I mean most is that
and I guess what I truly mean is that
I'm trying
I'm making an effort
she's been buying me time
she's been supporting me financially
on a maxed out credit card
using a credit card with no available credit
arms scarred from selling her own blood
arms with scars from selling her own blood
to pay down the debt
to reduce the debt amount
tells me she doesn't mind going broke
tells me she doesn't mind becoming financially unstable
just so long as I can give her a little sweat
as long as I can contribute
she says
she says
try
give it your best effort
so I do my best impression
so I try my best
of a pen
to write and express myself
and when every problem looks like a page
and when every problem seems like a written challenge
I commit ink to paper
I write my thoughts and feelings
the worth of the words that come out
the value of my written words
determines my wage
determines my income
I've been making enough
I've been making a sufficient amount
to pay her the compliment
to show my appreciation
of not quitting.
by not giving up
of not sitting
by not being inactive
when standing is required
when action or effort is necessary
she only asks that I put the effort in
she only asks me to try hard
and in return she's willing
and in return she's also willing
to pin a paper heart to her chest
to be vulnerable and open with me
then do her best impression
then try her best
of a target
to be a target
She tells me that effort
She tells me that trying hard
is the siamese twin of success
is inseparable from success
so when everyone else looks like a wrong answer
so when everyone else seems like the wrong choice
she says she'll settle for being my best guess
she's willing to be my uncertain choice
so we lie in bed like a mess
so we lie in bed in a chaotic state
that someone's been meaning to clean
that needs to be cleaned
for the large part of a long while
for a significant amount of time
we lie there like a pile of dirty laundry
we lie there like neglected and unfinished tasks
and how we'll ever come clean
and how we'll ever become better
is beyond me
I don't know
so we don't
so we avoid it
she says
she says
it's supposed to be dirty
it's supposed to be messy and imperfect
and if by the end you haven't hurt me
and if by the end you haven't caused me pain
then you didn't try
then you didn't put in enough effort
so I do my best impression
so I try my best
of a surgeon
to be precise and skilled
cutting purple hearts out of my own
removing emotional pain from myself
use my veins like thread
use my own experiences as inspiration
then have hurt sewn to our skin like medals
then wear past pain as a sign of strength
because when the bleeding stops
because when the pain subsides
and that dust settles
and everything calms down
all we have are our wounds
all we have are our scars
to wear like decorations upon our chest
to proudly display our experiences
Sara does her best impression of a war
Sara tries to be strong
tells me not to count my pride among casualties
advises me to protect my self-esteem
because maybe faith means never keeping score
because maybe faith means not keeping track
she says there's more to effort than just switching gears
she says effort is more than just changing strategies
and in terms of what one should give in life
and when considering what to give in life
sweat holds more value than tears
effort and hard work are more valuable than crying
you have to try
you must make an effort
and even though
and even though
the failing use of my right hand
my physical limitations and shortcomings
means I'll never land a knockout punch
means I'll never achieve great success
in the first round
easily and quickly
life is composed of sound and fury
life is full of noise and chaos
whatever noise is left in me
whatever energy remains in me
will be twice as loud when I try
will be more powerful when I make an effort
so I plug myself into the idea of going the distance
so I commit myself to long-term efforts
and I amplify
and I make it stronger
My darling, Sara
My beloved, Sara
has a throat like a vase
has a melodious voice
she sings her words into bloom
she speaks with beauty and grace
has voice like perfume
has a voice as captivating as fragrance
it's been sticking to my clothes
it leaves a lasting impact on me
so everyone knows where I've been sleeping
so everyone can see the influence she has on me
she's been keeping me so close
she's been keeping me emotionally connected
you could use my body for evidence
it shows how intimately we are involved
pull her fingerprints as proof
take her fingerprints as evidence
that she's been on top so often
that she has had the upper hand in our relationship
she's starting to look like my roof
she's becoming an inseparable part of my life
but a real sexy roof
but a very attractive and appealing partner
and she doesn't leak
and she doesn't have any flaws
unless you count the crying
unless you consider moments of vulnerability
she does that sometimes
she expresses her emotions through tears
worries that she's just a back-up plan
worries that she's only a secondary option
My darling, Sara.
My beloved, Sara
I've lived long enough to learn
I've gained enough life experience to understand
too many choices can destroy a man
having too many choices can be overwhelming
I will make no exodus
I will not leave or abandon
I'll be around long enough
I'll be present for a significant amount of time
to watch uncertainty bid us farewell
to witness uncertainty leaving us
the echo our names into the crater
the sound of our names reverberating in the void
caused by the impact
caused by the effect
of when our lack of conviction fell
when our doubts and uncertainties disappeared
you've never had to sell me on the idea
you've never had to convince me of the notion
of absolute certainty in the trustworthiness of another
of complete trust and reliability in someone
the first and only time you met my mother
when you met my mother for the first time
mom said
my mother said
"I like the way she looks at you"
"I like the way she looks at you"
and I echoed back to her
and I responded to her
that I liked it too.
that I also liked it.
eyes like recycle bin blue
eyes with a blue color similar to a recycle bin
Sara looks at broken things
Sara sees potential in damaged things
as if she can make them new
as if she can bring them back to life
more than a few times I've caught her staring
often, I've noticed her observing intently
caught her wearing
caught her displaying
a smile reserved for those busy making plans.
a smile reserved for those focused on their future
Sara believes that distance is a fundamental
Sara believes that physical distance is fundamental
that can be side-stepped by a piece of string
that can be overcome by a simple connection
and two tin cans
and two empty cans
and I remember when my tin can rang.
and I remember when I received a call on my end of the connection
they said
they said
there's no family to speak of
there's no significant family
so love is next in line
so love becomes the most important thing
and there's not a lot of time
and there's not much time
but she's asking for her boyfriend
but she's requesting her boyfriend's presence
in the cab to the hospital I feel my heart bend
as I ride in the taxi to the hospital, I feel my emotions change
as if bracing for impact
as if preparing for a difficult situation
so I do my best impression of a man
so I try to act strong
and face fact.
and accept the reality
it's supposed to hurt.
it's supposed to be painful
a doctor does his best impression of the truth
a doctor tries to give an honest assessment
and spares me his attempts to skirt around the issue.
and doesn't avoid the problem
they can't stop the bleeding
they can't stop the internal bleeding
and the failing use of Sara's heart
and Sara's heart not functioning properly
isn't actually the failing use of Sara's heart.
isn't truly the cause of failure
it's just another way to tell the time.
it's just another reminder of passing time
My darling, Sara
My beloved, Sara
I was holding your hand when you died
I was with you when you passed away
and even though the failing use of my right hand
despite my own physical limitations
prevented me from feeling you leave.
prevented me from sensing your departure
I tried.
I tried my best
Contributed by Thomas M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.