liar
Sik World Lyrics

I gotta be real with myself
I need to face the harsh truth and stop pretending

I wasn't being real to myself
I was lying to myself and hiding from my true feelings

I still have scars that run deep
Emotional pain and trauma still haunts me

And I haven't spent any time healing myself
I have been avoiding dealing with my issues and healing myself

No one around could, feel what I felt
Nobody could understand or empathize with the pain I was going through

I felt stuck from putting fear in myself
My own fears were holding me back and making me feel trapped

I'm still gonna burn out steaming in hell
I continue to suffer and endure the consequences of my actions

God, acting like I'm not screaming for help
I feel like nobody is paying attention to my cries for help, even from a higher power

I gotta learn to
I need to start understanding and accepting certain things

Accept the fact that there's no one to turn to
I need to acknowledge that I am my own savior and support system

Accept the fact that the flame we have burned through
I need to accept that I have caused damage and burnt bridges in my relationships

I fucked up bad, knowing that I don't deserve you
I acknowledge that I made mistakes and hurt someone, and I don't deserve their forgiveness

So many problems that we could've sat and worked through
There were issues in the relationship that could have been resolved through communication and effort

Wishin' that I wasn't the one that had to hurt you
I regret that my actions caused pain to someone else

So blind to that I didn't see that from your view
I was oblivious to the other person's perspective and feelings

And now I'm stuck with pictures that I sit and search through
I am left with memories and regret that I cannot change

I heard you, moved on, and damn it, it's my fault
I realize that the other person has moved on and it is because of my mistakes

I'm sick of all the damage that I caused
I am tired of hurting people and causing destruction

I'm so sick of fricking living inside of my thoughts
I am tired of overthinking and being stuck in my own head

I'm blind to what I have and only see what I've lost
I cannot appreciate what I have and all the good things in my life, I only focus on my losses

I'm lying to myself when I say I believe
I am not being honest and truthful with myself when I claim to believe in something

The truth is I didn't even see it in me
I was unaware of my own potential and strength

I would only rhyme if I was feeling a beat
I would only create music when I felt motivated or inspired

When I should just beat this villain in me
Instead of just creating songs, I should work on defeating the negative aspects of myself

In rap's I'd be inner healer to me
I use music as a way to heal and deal with my emotions and pain

I had nobody when I needed to speak
I had nobody to turn to when I needed someone to talk to

Hated my life that had no meaning to me
I despised my life and felt it had no purpose or significance

I'm still dealing with these demons in me
I continue to struggle with my inner demons and negative thoughts

Thought I was found but, but the real me needed to leave, 'cause
I thought I discovered my true self, but I still need to work on myself and grow

I feel like I found me but I'm lost again, oh oh oh
I once thought I discovered who I am, but now I feel lost and unsure again

I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
I thought I could handle everything on my own, without relying on anyone for help or support

I'm a liar to myself
I deceive myself and pretend that everything is okay, when it's not

I'm a liar to myself
I continue to deceive myself and ignore my own issues and emotions