Ben Graham vocals
Luke Graham guitar
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Ben Graham vocals
Luke Graham guitar
Josh Johnson bass
Audie Grantham drums
There are few who place honesty and vulnerability as their foremost virtues in artistry. After all, rock n’ roll has been built on fantasies, imaginations, and the hype of cartoonlike demagogues. Yet, today, as the music industry itself searches for new voices, there seems to be a growing hunger among the public for something real, something beyond plastic personas and fake fluorescent skies.
The music industry is crying out for an honest voice. Since October has answered these cries with This is My Heart.
Neither pompous nor pretentious, this is not another of the endless parade of power-pop outfits or screamo clones. Simply put, this is a collection of heavy rock songs that have endless commercial viability and no agenda beyond connecting with the hearts of any and all who would hear them. Frontman and lyricist Ben Graham explains:
“It’s truth. It’s real life stories. And this record is a part of me. And probably a part of me that most people would never see if I could not put it to music, it’s honest. It’s just rock n roll. We love big melodies, we love harmonies, throw in a little screaming and that’s us. We are fans of that type of music and that’s probably why we play and write it.”
One need look no further than the band’s first rock single, “Disaster” for the crux of their approach. Though the guitars cut like knives and the opening vocal lines are delivered with ferocious firepower, there is a universal quality that is distinct and tangible in the first seconds of the track. A hooky, melodic verse gives way to a chorus that is...gigantic. Such is the case with entirety of This is From My Heart, though the other most notable single is their upcoming second “In This Moment.” Given the proper exposure these songs can sit alongside the heavyweights of the active rock world.
Lyrically speaking, Graham’s lyrics are as connective as the sonic qualities of the songs themselves. Visions of desperation, hope, and redemption are painted with primary colors against the sonic canvas, leaving the listener with no uncertain impressions. He speaks words of wisdom on learning from mistakes on “Disaster”: Thank God for disaster, disaster and tears. Thank God for my reason, my reason to fear. On “Guilty,” he pleads for heaven to release him from tainted memories: Guilt has got the best of me.
I’m holding on to almost nothing, wondering if innocence could ever lead to my forgiveness. And finally, on “Follow Me Down” he confides in the listener about his own battles with pride: My struggle is not flesh and blood now. This pride I loved is staring me down, constantly it’s taking me far away from the place that I should be. Graham does present an idea of his own perfection, but rather his need for salvation on every single track. Needless to say, these songs from hearts that have been humbled from real life experiences.
Though this is the band’s first label release, these four Bradenton, Florida stalwarts are far from freshmen. They sold over 5,000 copies of an independent release prior to signing to Tooth and Nail, and have toured extensively during the two-year stretch that has led them up to this point. Having shared the stage with Seventh Day Slumber, Pillar, Disciple, Decypher Down, and Underoath, they are more than prepared for the hundreds of shows that are soon to follow. Graham comments on their touring approach:
“I love the fact that the industry is shifting back towards the live show; you will not make it far if you cannot make a lasting impression with your performance. We feel more than prepared to meet this challenge--God willing--and are more than excited to show people what we can do.”
With the proper perspective and motivation on where their potential success lies, this band has something that few possess: brokenness. Where the proud and boastful abound, here are four men who know what it means to admit who they truly are behind any perception. They are men who know their destinies lie outside their own hands.
“We want to be successful enough to stay on the road and continue to do what I love. We want to stay as far away from all the politics and nonsense that comes along with industry. We don’t want to get bogged down with anything except our primary purpose and vision: To encourage people with our music. We would love to change lives along the way, and provide therapy for the listener.”
My Heart
Since October Lyrics
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Lately I've been noticing this angst just wont go
Wasted opportunities to heal our wounds
Faking that I am okay with the way I lost you
My hands are reaching I'd give anything to touch your heart to mine
(This I know) There's only one thing I can't let you know
And this is my heart
Why can't I tell you what I'm dying to say?
I'm killing myself with my only shame
Try, I try to understand why I feel all alone
Pride is all I've ever known and I'm not letting go
My hands are reaching I'd give anything to touch your heart to mine
(This I know) There's only one thing I can't let you know
And this is my heart
This is my (heart) Heart
When I'm with you
I'm not slowly
Did I tell you?
My hands are reaching I'd give anything to touch your heart to mine
(This I know) There's only one thing I can't let you know
And this is my heart
This is my heart (THIS IS FOR YOU)
This is my heart
The lyrics of the song "My Heart" by Since October explore the pain of losing someone you love and the difficulties of expressing your feelings to them. The singer is consumed with sadness and a sense of lost opportunities for healing the wounds of the past. They are struggling to come to terms with the fact that they can't let the other person know how they truly feel, and this is causing them immense pain.
The chorus of the song is particularly poignant, with the singer expressing their longing to touch the other person's heart with their own, but acknowledging that there is one thing they can't reveal. This could refer to a deep-seated fear of rejection or simply the inability to articulate their true feelings. The repeated line "This is my heart" emphasizes the intense emotional turmoil the singer is experiencing.
Overall, the song addresses universal themes of love, loss, and the difficulty of communication. The raw emotion in the lyrics is complemented by a driving rock beat and powerful vocal delivery, making "My Heart" a moving and memorable track.
Line by Line Meaning
Pain is all I ever feel when I'm not with you
The absence of you in my life causes me constant emotional agony
Lately I've been noticing this angst just wont go
My distress has persisted and I cannot seem to shake it off
Wasted opportunities to heal our wounds
There were chances to repair our relationship, but they were missed and have since gone to waste
Faking that I am okay with the way I lost you
I pretend to be fine after losing you even though I am not
My hands are reaching I'd give anything to touch your heart to mine
I long for physical and emotional connection with you
(This I know) There's only one thing I can't let you know
I have a secret that I cannot reveal to you
And this is my heart
My secret is that my heart belongs to you
Why can't I tell you what I'm dying to say?
I struggle to express my true feelings to you
I'm killing myself with my only shame
My profound humiliation is causing me immense pain
Try, I try to understand why I feel all alone
I attempt to comprehend why I am so solitary
Pride is all I've ever known and I'm not letting go
My ego has always been my driving force, and I refuse to relinquish it
When I'm with you
Being in your presence is transformative for me
I'm not slowly
I am not gradually improving, but rather experiencing an abrupt change when I am with you
Did I tell you?
Have I conveyed this to you before?
This is my heart (THIS IS FOR YOU)
My heart belongs to you and this knowledge is meant for you alone
This is my heart
My heart is yours and I long for you to know it
Contributed by Jayden G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.