The Double Life
Siouxsie and the Banshees Lyrics


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At the top of the stairs is a locked room
My secret chamber that no outsider views
For entry is forbidden prohibited
Behind this door is my other self

Not a picture in a frame nor a fresh disguise
But my other self, immobile inert and sanguine
My narcissus kisses exhale crimson breath
And pump ruby to the lip

I stand before myself not Jekyll nor Hyde
Not sibling nor twin separated at birth
I stand before myself unaccountable

I dreamt that I had feet of clay
I dreamt I crossed the seven seas
And when I woke not knowing
I knew I led the double life

All I ever needed is twice removed
I spit my bile in an airless temper
In this vacuum a vampire reversed
This one who breathes life into me

And even dull mirrors reflect the tarnished twosome
I stand before myself not another me
Not doppelganger nor witless clone
I stand before myself unrepentant

I dreamt of sin and aftermath
I dreamt of centuries laid bare




And when I woke not knowing
I knew I led the double life

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Siouxsie & The Banshees's song Double Life explore the idea of a hidden aspect of oneself, a secret chamber that is off-limits to outsiders. The locked room represents the singer's other self, separate from the persona they present to the world. The song describes the revelation of this other self as a surreal, dream-like experience. The lyrics also suggest a duality or split personality, with the singer standing "before myself unaccountable" and "unrepentant."


The imagery used throughout the song is vivid and unsettling, evoking Gothic and supernatural themes. The reference to vampire, blood, and mirrors add to the eerie atmosphere. The dream sequences where the singer has "feet of clay" and "crosses seven seas" further emphasize the dissociative state of mind.


The song Double Life presents a fascinating insight into the human psyche and questions the idea of what constitutes our true self. It suggests that there may be an alternative self, hidden and locked away. This interpretation is reinforced by the song's unorthodox structure and discordant melody, both of which add to the feeling of unease and disorientation.


Line by Line Meaning

At the top of the stairs is a locked room
There is a room at the highest point of the building that is locked and inaccessible to outsiders.


My secret chamber that no outsider views
It is a private space where nobody is allowed to witness what goes on inside.


For entry is forbidden prohibited
There are strict rules in place that prohibit entry for anyone who is not the owner of the chamber.


Behind this door is my other self
This is a place where the owner's other self resides, separated from their public persona.


Not a picture in a frame nor a fresh disguise
This other self is not represented in the form of a picture or a physical guise.


But my other self, immobile inert and sanguine
Rather, it is a separate entity that is still and unreactive, but with the color of blood flowing within it.


My narcissus kisses exhale crimson breath
The owner's kisses are self-absorbed and passionate, releasing warm breath tinted with the color of love.


And pump ruby to the lip
These kisses fill the heart with a crimson glow that reaches all the way to the lips.


I stand before myself not Jekyll nor Hyde
The owner stands before their other self, not as two separate personalities like the characters in the novel.


Not sibling nor twin separated at birth
They are not even siblings or twins separated from each other before birth.


I stand before myself unaccountable
The owner is not able to account for this hidden side of themselves, but they still stand before it.


I dreamt that I had feet of clay
The owner had a dream where they realized their weakness and vulnerability.


I dreamt I crossed the seven seas
In another dream, the owner roamed across vast bodies of water, experiencing different cultures and perspectives.


And when I woke not knowing
After waking up, the owner felt unsure of what they had just experienced in the dream world.


I knew I led the double life
But they still had an underlying understanding that they were leading a double life.


All I ever needed is twice removed
The owner feels that they are required to remove themselves from their true identity in order to pursue their other self.


I spit my bile in an airless temper
In moments of frustration, the owner expresses their anger in a confined and restricted manner.


In this vacuum a vampire reversed
In this emotional vacuum, the owner feels that they are the ones who are fueling the sustenance of their inner vampire, rather than being the victim.


This one who breathes life into me
Their other self is the one who gives them life and sustains them, even though they are seen as a monster that feeds on their own blood.


And even dull mirrors reflect the tarnished twosome
Even the images in a mirror portray a sense of darkness and damage that is associated with the duality of the owner's identity.


I stand before myself not another me
The owner stands before their other self, not as a separate entity, but as a manifestation of their true identity.


Not doppelganger nor witless clone
This other self is not a doppelganger or a meaningless copy of themselves, but an important part of their identity.


I stand before myself unrepentant
The owner feels no remorse for their other self or their decision to lead a double life, and they stand by this decision with confidence.


I dreamt of sin and aftermath
The owner had a dream where they indulged in sinful and immoral behavior and then experienced the consequences of their actions.


I dreamt of centuries laid bare
In another dream, the owner experienced the passage of time and the effect it had on society and their own identity.


And when I woke not knowing
Once again, after waking up from these dreams, the owner felt unsure of what it all meant and what lessons they could take from it.


I knew I led the double life
But they still had a sense that they were leading separate, distinct lives within themselves.




Lyrics © DOMINO PUBLISHING COMPANY, BMG Rights Management
Written by: BUDGIE, JONATHAN DAVID KLEIN, SIOUXSIE SIOUX, STEVEN SEVERIN

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