Formed in 2007 the first album was released on 2008-02-01 in Europe and is named Broken Grid.
Solar Fake is a pure Electro-Project with synthesized sounds and vocals by Sven Friedrich.
Not what I wanted
Solar Fake Lyrics
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It's not the time to disappear
It still could get worse, but anyway
I'll take the pills you offer me
I see myself on padded feet
Just take the steps that surely lead me to place where I can fade out all the noise that people make
Don't touch me
What did you say? Where have you gone?
Where are you now? I want some fun!
Let's just go out and bother some strangers who can get mad so easily
This is not what I wanted! My God, what have we become? Why haven't we started?
It's the play I've learnt from my heart, well, this is a nightmare, but it's my life
This is not what I wanted, you're right but could you stop dramatizing what I said?
Got your point but hey, I'm alright, well, this is a nightmare, but it's my life
Still got some pride that's left in me
I know you think I cannot see
You keep myself away from me
At least you try, occasionally
But after all I'm just okay
With everything still in my way
I just don't care enough today
Yet I don't care
The song "Not What I Wanted" by Solar Fake is a deeply introspective and poignant piece that deals with themes of depression, addiction, and self-isolation. The opening lines of "Just help yourself, I'm lying here / It's not the time to disappear / It still could get worse, but anyway / I'll take the pills you offer me" paint a vivid picture of someone in the throes of despair, who has given up any hope of control over their situation and has resigned themselves to a passive acceptance of whatever may come.
In the second verse, the imagery of "padded feet" suggests a kind of detachment from reality, as if the singer is observing themselves from a distance, disconnected from their own experience. The desire to "fade out all the noise that people make" speaks to a longing for peace and quiet, to be free from the constant stimulation and chaos of the outside world. The repeated plea to "just leave me out / Don't touch me" reinforces this desire for isolation and disconnection.
The third verse takes on a more aggressive and confrontational tone, with the singer lashing out against their situation. The lines "What did you say? Where have you gone? / Where are you now? I want some fun! / Let's just go out and bother some strangers who can get mad so easily" suggest a desire for reckless abandon and a willingness to cause chaos and disruption, perhaps as a way to distract themselves from their own pain and despair.
Overall, "Not What I Wanted" is a powerful and deeply personal song that highlights the struggles of living with depression and addiction, and the complex emotions that arise from a sense of detachment from oneself and the world around us.
Line by Line Meaning
Just help yourself, I'm lying here
I am feeling helpless and do not want to be a burden, so please take what you need and leave me alone to my thoughts.
It's not the time to disappear
I am not ready to give up on this situation yet, so please stay with me and help me get through it.
It still could get worse, but anyway
Despite the possibility of things getting worse, I am willing to accept whatever happens and continue moving forward.
I'll take the pills you offer me
I am willing to try anything to make this pain go away, so I am open to the idea of taking medication.
I see myself on padded feet
I feel like I am in a delicate state, walking on eggshells as I navigate this difficult situation.
Just take the steps that surely lead me to place where I can fade out all the noise that people make
I am seeking a place of solitude where I can tune out the world and find peace amidst the chaos.
Just leave me, just leave me out
I do not want to be bothered or interact with anyone right now, so please respect my wishes and give me space.
Don't touch me
I cannot handle physical touch at the moment, it is overwhelming and exacerbates my anxiety.
What did you say? Where have you gone?
I am feeling disconnected from the world around me and struggling to keep up with conversations and social cues.
Where are you now? I want some fun!
I am desperately seeking distraction and a sense of enjoyment to escape the pain and chaos of my current situation.
Let's just go out and bother some strangers who can get mad so easily
I am seeking a sense of power and control by provoking others, even if it is in a negative way.
This is not what I wanted! My God, what have we become? Why haven't we started?
I am feeling overwhelmed by the unexpected turn of events and questioning why things have turned out this way.
It's the play I've learnt from my heart, well, this is a nightmare, but it's my life
I am trying to navigate this difficult situation based on my intuition and past experiences, even though it feels like a living nightmare.
This is not what I wanted, you're right but could you stop dramatizing what I said?
I know that this is not what I wanted, but I do not appreciate when others make a big deal out of it or try to force their perspective on me.
Got your point but hey, I'm alright, well, this is a nightmare, but it's my life
I understand your perspective and concerns, but ultimately I need to make decisions based on what feels right for me, even if it is a difficult and painful situation.
Still got some pride that's left in me
Even though I am struggling and vulnerable, I still have a sense of dignity and self-worth that I am holding onto.
I know you think I cannot see
Others may underestimate my ability to perceive what is going on around me and make decisions for myself.
You keep myself away from me
Others may try to control me or push me away from making decisions that they believe are not in my best interest.
At least you try, occasionally
I understand that others may have good intentions and want to help, even if their approach is not always helpful or wanted.
But after all I'm just okay
Despite the difficulties and challenges, I am managing to get through this situation and ultimately will be okay.
With everything still in my way
There are still obstacles and challenges that I need to navigate, but I am determined to overcome them.
I just don't care enough today, Yet I don't care
I am having a difficult time mustering the energy or motivation to care about anything right now, but at the same time, I have a sense of detachment and apathy towards the situation.
Writer(s): Sven Friedrich
Contributed by Colton K. Suggest a correction in the comments below.