They rehearsed in Stefan's garage and performed Metallica, ZAO and Focal Point covers, then original music in local clubs. '"The musical connection that we have is amazing; everything is really positive,"' says bassist Ben Souza, added in 1999 when the band moved to Chico, California.
In March 2001, the band crossed the country on the All Under Heaven Tour with Shun, then in July played 18 shows in 22 days on the Are We There Yet Tour, including Emerson Theatre in Indianapolis, Emerald Theatre near Detroit, Pyramid Club in New York City, 5 Points South in Birmingham, Masquerade in Atlanta, Bash on Ash in Tempe and Chain Reaction in Anaheim with, in part: Haste, [minus], Not Waving But Drowning and ZAO.
Spiritfall's musical style development is probably best described as metal and hardcore roots, evolving as the band was influenced by the music of Far and Deftones into their own sound, variously described by others as hard rock, pop, alternative metal, and emo.
Spiritfall combines melody and harmonies with aggressive instrumentals, but emotion is the foundation of Spiritfall's music. '"Our goal is to completely "expose" ourselves emotionally and musically,'" admits vocalist Anthony Stone, while guitarist Christian Spencer reveals, '"There really are no boundaries in music, and that is what makes it so powerful."'
"Intoxicatingly beautiful and yet completely intense friendly yet emotionally drenched blend of emocore and new metal" - wookubus, Pimp Rock Palace (theprp.com)
Spiritfall completed a 10-song CD in December 1999, but their music was developing so rapidly with their ambitious performance schedule that they decided to release an initial 6-song concept CD in 2000, "My Reason," which first release sold out at spiritfallband.com and on tour.
Unfortunately, they are disbanded in 2001 after a fight with the band members and the record dealer and quit the band.
Spiritfall has played with: Papa Roach, Taproot, Alien Ant Farm, Pressure 4-5, dredg, Onelinedrawing, The Revolution Smile, Fenix TX, 8 Stop 7, Zebrahead, The Juliana Theory, Ethynol, Trans-Lux, Paradox 44, Darkest Hour, The Systematics, Insolence, ZAO, Spike 1000 and Will Haven!
Going Nowhere
Spiritfall Lyrics
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force down your blame deep inside me
the worse that i get the more i regret
you in my life right now
you said was wrong but i know i was right
it's just too bad you can't see
a silence so deep get out of my sight
i'm trying so hard to be stronger than you
but i'm going nowhere and i'm getting there fast
it's a game to you its plain to see
a plain on emotion from you to me
a stab in the dark that went through my heart
and it's turning me inside out now
it happened again it hurts even more
why do you do this to me
how can i show you it hurts much more
you got to close to me
In the song "Going Nowhere" by Spiritfall, we see a person struggling with a toxic relationship that is taking a toll on their emotional wellbeing. The lyrics are emotive, and the symbolism of pain and hurt is evident in every sentence. The song begins with the singer's fear of facing their partner, and the regret that follows thereafter. The singer is acknowledging that the relationship is not working, and that they are suffocating under the weight of the blame and regrets, as the more intense the relationship gets, the harder it gets for them to hold themselves together.
The subsequent lines of the song go on to explain how the singer and their partner are not on the same page, with the partner seeing the game as just an emotional roller coaster, while the singer is getting hurt every step of the way. The singer is attempting to display strength amidst the chaos, but as the chorus repeats, they are going nowhere fast, and their will is flagging, and they can’t stay in it anymore.
The bridge of the song leads to the realization that the singer is repeatedly getting hurt by their partner, and while they try to express the hurt, the partner can’t or won’t acknowledge it, resulting in a cycle of despair, hurt, and regret. The song paints a vivid picture of the detrimental effects that toxic relationships have on an individual's mental wellbeing, and the rising crescendo of the music suggests that the singer is at their tipping point.
Line by Line Meaning
i have nothing to say when i see your face
When I see you, I find myself speechless, unable to articulate the feelings that arise in me.
force down your blame deep inside me
When you blame me for things that are not my fault, I swallow that pain and disappointment, burying it deep within my soul.
the worse that i get the more i regret
As I continue to feel worse about myself, I begin to regret ever letting you into my life.
you in my life right now
I cannot escape the fact that you are currently a part of my life and causing me immense pain.
you said was wrong but i know i was right
Although you claim that I was in the wrong, I know beyond doubt that I was right.
it's just too bad you can't see
It's unfortunate that you are unable or unwilling to see the truth of the situation.
a silence so deep get out of my sight
Your deep silence towards me is so deafening that I would prefer you to leave my sight entirely.
you got to close to me
The proximity with which you approach me is suffocating and unbearable.
i'm trying so hard to be stronger than you
I am exerting all my effort to surpass you in strength and willpower.
but i'm going nowhere and i'm getting there fast
Despite my efforts, I feel like I'm making no progress and quickly spiraling downwards.
it's a game to you its plain to see
Your behavior towards me is nothing more than a game, and it is evident to me.
a plain on emotion from you to me
Your emotional responses to me are flat and devoid of any real feeling.
a stab in the dark that went through my heart
Your actions towards me were sudden and unexpected, causing me immense emotional pain.
and it's turning me inside out now
The pain I feel is so excruciating that I feel like I'm being turned inside out.
it happened again it hurts even more
Once again, you have caused me pain, and it hurts even worse than before.
why do you do this to me
I am at a loss as to why you continue to treat me with such cruelty.
how can i show you it hurts much more
I'm struggling to make you understand just how much pain your actions are causing me.
you got to close to me
Your proximity to me is too much to bear, and I need you to keep your distance.
Contributed by Adrian G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.