That's where they are today. But how did they get there?
As so many times before, the story kicks off against a small town setting, where two young men get together in school and decide to form a band to rebel against some popular opinion or other. In this case simply to piss off all the hard rocking youths that dominated their particular school. "Every chance we had we'd go on stage, and do all we could to make the music totally incomprehensible to others than fans of the genre. Usually that included ourselves, and maybe one or two other persons," reminisces lead vocalist Marten Kellerman.
So far, neither Marten nor Rikard Lindell (the other founding member of the band) took their musical collaboration very seriously. They both graduated and Marten wound up working as a producer and engineer for major label Stockholm Records - something he has described as "educational as hell," but often tough on his general well being.
One day Marten and Rikard had booked a studio for some work with Marten's previous band Hello In TV Land, but the band before them (Army of Lovers) were using up more studio time than they were supposed to. So Marten and Rikard wound up in a small pre-production studio nearby, to kill some time while waiting for Army of Lovers to finish. They ended up writing the first official Statemachine song and were so excited about it that, within a few days time, they managed to write a third of what was to become their debut album Avalanche Breakdown.
Marten's father encouraged them to record more material, and sent some songs to Swedish national radio show Musikjournalen who praised the recordings on the air. They were signed to small independent label October shortly after that, and started recording the rest of the material for their debut. "We had close to zero budget, and had to do most of the recording at home. We recorded the vocals in a closet, and borrowed and rented some equipment from people we knew. We mixed the entire album in my kid brother's bedroom, because it had the best ambience we could find. The poor kid had nowhere to sleep for fourteen days," says Marten.
Then things happened a bit faster than both the band and their record label had expected. The records received rave reviews in nearly all synth and alternative magazines in Sweden and Germany. Another single (Happy Endings) was recorded, showing a completely new side of the band, and receiving even more positive reviews. The female keyboardist and backing vocalist, Anna Jansson, left the band right before a 30-gig tour spanning Germany, Austria, Switzerland, and Sweden, complete with a limited edition remix album (Legerdemain) made especially for that tour. Rickard Gunnarsson, Anna's replacement during the tour, was announced new official member. A third single (Negative Feedback) from the debut album placed the band among the absolute foremost within their genre, showing a greater maturity than ever before. And then Rikard Lindell decided being a pop star was not for him, and left the band as well.
"Things were just happening too god damn fast. None of us were prepared for the attention and pressure, and evidently Lindell and Anna weren't too happy with what it was doing to their lives. Having success with a band may look great on paper, but in real life it's just damn hard work. And it sure has taken its toll. It's not easy maintaining any kind of social life while spending six days a week working with the band," Marten explains. "It's very nice to be appointed best electronic pop band of the nineties, or named as one of the most prominent hopes for the future of alternative hi-tech pop, but if your not happy with what it's doing to your life, it won't make you feel any better about yourself. Touring, screaming fans, rave reviews, fan mail from countries where your music isn't supposed to exist at all, seeing yourself on TV - it doesn't matter how independent you think you are, shit like that does things to your head."
Statemachine was put on hold. Marten and Rickard needed a break from it all - a chance to catch their breath and think about what was going on, and where to go next. Statemachine had reached every goal they'd had when they started out, and that was a very confusing place to be.
After contemplating their situation and catching their breath, Statemachine started working with the so-called US version of "Avalanche Breakdown". However, only one track from the original album is left unchanged on the new album "Breakdown" - the rest has been changed. Statemachine refused to just throw something slightly different together, and insisted on spending four months in the studio working only with this new release and it's accompanying single "Thermal Noise". They also start recording their follow-up album this winter, with a release planned sometime early 1999, followed by an international tour during spring and early summer. After their short break earlier this year, they seem more energetic than ever before. I asked Marten for a comment:
"We're very satisfied with the newly recorded album Breakdown, and the single Thermal Noise, and we're even more excited to start working on the new material. We have loads of songs, and have just recently decided which ones to feature on this next album. And we're very anxious to see what they turn out like. And, well... we feel really good about the band and what we're doing right now, and have a lot of hope for the future. A couple of days ago it struck me how much we've accomplished so far. Usually I tend to feel that I haven't really accomplished anything at all just yet, and that there's so much more I want to do. But then it suddenly dawned on me that, hey, I've released more than ten records and contributed music on at least twice as many, I've been on two international tours, had the chance to work with a few of Sweden's biggest artists, and was recently contracted by Warner/Chappell, the world's biggest Music Publishers. And that's not too bad, considering I was once thrown out of music school due to total incompetence," Marten says with a smile.
Having heard the new recordings on Breakdown and Thermal Noise, I have to agree. Statemachine have come a very long way since their debut album, and I'm dying to see where they'll go next and can't wait to find out how the story ends
by Tom Larsson
Heal
Statemachine Lyrics
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But all that came out was one lousy line
Couldn't make up the story in time
It was twenty years ago today
The paper's still there in the typewriter
And I can still remember that very first line
Maybe all that I grow is a hole in myself
All I accomplish is lost on myself
Maybe all I can grow is this hole in myself
But then maybe I don't mind losing myself
When all I feel is the way I heal
I'm the dot at the end of the trail of debris
Been filling my void with semantic debris
Now all I feel is the way I heal
In "Heal," Statemachine explores themes of writer's block, loss of creativity, and the ways in which emotional pain can be a source of inspiration. The singer laments their inability to write more than one line of a book, suggesting that they have been stuck in this creative rut for the past twenty years. They recall the moment of beginning, the first line they wrote, which still stands in their typewriter. The singer questions the value of their productivity - is all they grow just a hole in themselves, with nothing to show for it? They seem to find some solace in the way that they feel, however. Even if their output is lacking, they can still find some semblance of healing in their emotional experience.
The line "I'm the dot at the end of the trail of debris" is a poignant and powerful metaphor, suggesting that the singer is just a small bit of punctuation amongst a vast and messy life. They have been trying to fill the void of their existence with "semantic debris" - in other words, meaningless language and nonsense - but they now realize that all that really matters is the way they heal. The song seems to argue that despite the difficulties and frustrations of finding artistic inspiration, it is ultimately our emotional journeys that matter most.
Overall, "Heal" is a reflective and introspective song that speaks to the universal struggle of finding meaning and purpose in life.
Line by Line Meaning
Sat down to write a book
I attempted to write a full story, but instead, something else manifested.
But all that came out was one lousy line
My creativity was limited to just one unsatisfying and inadequate sentence.
Couldn't make up the story in time
My ideas and imagination were not enough to create a story in the allotted timeframe.
It was twenty years ago today
This memory of creative difficulty is a recollection from two decades ago.
The paper's still there in the typewriter
The failed attempt at writing that single line remains physically present in the typewriter.
And I can still remember that very first line
The memory of that one lousy line remains detailed in my mind.
Maybe all that I grow is a hole in myself
Perhaps all that I produce is a void within me, reflecting my lack of creativity.
All I accomplish is lost on myself
Any success or achievement I attain is insignificant in comparison to my sense of inadequacy.
Yet all I feel is the way I heal
Despite my creative struggles and personal shortcomings, my ability to express myself through writing is therapeutic.
Maybe all I can grow is this hole in myself
Perhaps my limited ability to create represents a deeper emotional emptiness within me.
But then maybe I don't mind losing myself
However, perhaps losing myself in writing and creativity is not a bad thing for me.
When all I feel is the way I heal
As long as I can use writing as a form of therapeutic release, it does not matter if my creative output is limited.
I'm the dot at the end of the trail of debris
I am the small, insignificant endpoint of a larger, chaotic and broken creative process.
Been filling my void with semantic debris
I have been attempting to satisfy my creative emptiness by consuming and internalizing various ideas and experiences.
Now all I feel is the way I heal
Despite the difficulties and struggles of the creative process, writing is a therapeutic outlet for me.
Contributed by Molly J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
ambientwind
Wouldn't want to stir things up just because i'm dead....aww I love this song so much,!
Boerlady
Toppenlåt!!
Boerlady
super!