Pain
T.O.M Lyrics

I've been goin through so much pain (yea)
I have been experiencing a lot of pain lately.

Can't no motherfucker feel my pain (dedicate this one to my nigga P Long)
No one can truly understand or feel my pain, dedicated to my friend P Long.

My life is real nigga, I'm gon' ride (my nigga Uni, the whole MOP)
My life is authentic, and I am going to keep moving forward, for my friends Uni, the whole MOP.

For my homies on the block that died even my baby momma nigga)
This is dedicated to all my friends who passed away, even my baby's mother.

It's dedicated to my niggas that's locked
This is dedicated to my friends who are currently incarcerated.

Who's OT on the run from the cops
Also to those who are on the run from the cops.

We straight G's and we never gon' stop
We are true gangsters, and we will never give up.

For my street niggas gotta keep your head up
To my fellow street guys, keep your head up.

Gotta keep your head up
Always try to remain optimistic and positive.

Where the fuck is your love, y'all in the club poppin bub
You all are partying in the club and not showing any love.

Somebody told me that the block need a hug
Someone mentioned that our neighborhood needs some love and support.

Ain't nobody tell y'all that Slap need a hug
No one mentioned that I also need a hug.

That's the reason I'm out here huggin the block
That is why I am out here trying to give love and support to our community.

Same reason I'm out here thuggin the block
I am out here causing chaos and violence because I want to protect and defend my neighborhood.

But niggas won't notice until a motherfucker get shot
People won't understand or care until someone gets injured or killed.

And stretched out on the block, and the shit won't hit 'em
Even if someone is killed, people might not even care or acknowledge it.

'til they like "God damn, I was just now with him"
Until they are personally affected and realize how serious the situation is.

Now you missin a man that you used to call your man
You are now missing someone that was once your friend.

Cause you didn't notice your man was fucked up in a jam
You did not notice that your friend was struggling and needed help.

And your plan that you had for your man, you shoulda brought it to him sooner
You had a plan to help your friend, but you should have acted on it sooner.

Now he fucked up with his back all chewed up
Now your friend is injured and in a difficult situation.

21 gun salute up, to all the G's feelin pain
This is a message of respect to all the gangsters who are experiencing pain.

Like Fame; niggas fucked up in the game
This is similar to what happened to Fame, who was injured in our gang.

Niggas try to maintain, even if nobody showed you
We are all trying to keep it together, even if no one else is there to support us.

That they noticin what a nigga been goin through nigga
That people are finally starting to notice the struggles I've been going through.

Yeah, every day what we deal, we tend to blame it on the realness
We attribute our daily struggles to the harshness of reality.

Haters never cater to a 'Ville nigga feeling
People who despise our neighborhood never acknowledge or empathize with how we feel.

Mixed up in the past and the present
We are always grappling with our past as we continue to live in the present.

A lot of shit, went down in the town am I destined, to win or not
Our neighborhood has experienced a lot of drama, and it is unclear if I will ultimately succeed or fail.

That's the question, you can always count on Bill
The question about my fate remains, but you can always rely on me to tell the truth.

To reveal the message, when givin a confession
To share the truth when I am given the opportunity to speak.

In other words there's a blessing in the lesson
In other words, there is something to be gained from our struggles and lessons learned.

You ain't gotta stick to the script to catch it (catch it)
You don't have to follow a predetermined plan to learn something from life's lessons.

We had a whole platoon of goons to rep
We used to have a large group of gangsters to represent our neighborhood.

Then it was like... BOOM, there's 7 of us left
But now, after a violent event, there are only seven of us left.

Some got knocked and locked inside cages
Some of our friends were arrested and are now in jail.

A few got popped and stopped at young ages
Some of our friends died tragically at a young age.

Enables me to rock hip-hop with these rages
These struggles give me the energy to make angry hip-hop music.

And boomerang pain through Fame when on stages
This pain boomerangs back around to my friend Fame when I perform on stage.

It's dark and it's bold
These struggles are heavy and intense.

I keep a heater cause I'm smart and it's cold
I carry a gun for protection because I am street-savvy and understand how harsh life can be.

I'm holdin on to thin air! (Look around homey)
I am holding onto nothing tangible or real, but I am still fighting and trying to survive. Look around and see what I am facing.

Nobody there! (Look around homey)
No one is present to help or support me. Look around and see that I am alone in this struggle.

Nobody care! (I bet you know now homey)
No one cares about me or my struggles. You should recognize how difficult this situation is for me.

But life is still beautiful, that's what you do it for
Despite the struggles, life is still beautiful, and that is what motivates us to keep going.

Couldn't feel my pain; God forbid you had
No one can truly understand or feel my pain unless they experienced it themselves.

To feel my pain I wouldn't wish that on nobody
I wouldn't want anyone to experience the same pain and struggles that I am going through.

Never ask why me? That's a stupid-ass question
Asking why I am experiencing struggles is pointless and unproductive.

Cause if not me, nigga then who?
If I am not the one going through struggles, then who would it be?

We all deal with pain, and mine ain't no harder than yours
Everyone experiences struggles, and mine are not any harder or easier than anyone else's.

It's really all about how you deal with it
What matters most is how we handle the struggles and pain we encounter in life.

So a nigga can't judge me; I can't tell you how
No one can judge me or my struggles, and I cannot give advice on how to handle your own struggles.

To deal with yours, but don't kill me {*words fade* only makes me strong}
I cannot tell you how to deal with your struggles, but don't harm me in the process. These struggles only make me stronger.

(We're amongst these O.G.'s and rebels) the coppertops will (never)
We are in the company of experienced and rebellious gangsters. The police will never be able to fully control us.

If money war (we steppin in) please (understand it)
If there is a dispute over money, we will get involved. Please understand our position.

For always we (reppin it) and y'all ain't (touchin it)
We will always represent our neighborhood, and you will not be able to stop us or take it away from us.

The ghetto steel (blessin 'em) man
Living in the ghetto has its challenges, but it also builds character and strength in us.