TheHxliday released his debut EP, Broken Halls, on January 1, 2020.
In My Feelings
TheHxliday Lyrics
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I am TheHxliday
Ooh, yeah, yeah (yeah)
And I been in my feelings off the drugs
'Cause, baby, I don't wanna fall in love
And I don't wanna lose you
And now my heart is so blue, you left me with no clue (yeah)
Oh oh, now my heart is so blue (ooh)
Baby, I don't wanna lose
'Cause I picked up the phone
To hear our love ain't true
I put Patek on your wrist, yeah
I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss ya
I keep trying, 'cause, baby, I wanna get ya
And if you ever need me, I'm the one to hit up, yeah
But I've been in my bag 'cause it don't seem like you want me
And I double up my cup, mix that Sprite in with Codeine
And I'm smoking on this gas, it numb the pain, I ain't no fiend
And I can't forget the past, so she enter all my dreams
And I been in my feelings off the drugs
'Cause, baby, I don't wanna fall in love
And I don't wanna lose you
And now my heart is so blue, you left me with no clue
Oh oh, I don't wanna lose you
Oh oh, now my heart is so blue
She don't want my heart so I took it back
I told her I don't got no more friends
I should've known that she ain't give a damn, like, oh
I took my heart right back and then I ran, uh-huh
I was in love with the bitch, I was in love with the bitch, huh, yeah
.223 all on my hip, 'cause these niggas tryna be slick, huh, yeah
Gucci bag all on my chick, I put Patek on her wrist, huh, yeah
Said that she wanted to quit, baby, I don't want this to end, huh, yeah
Ten, nine, eight, seven, baby, don't be reckless
Countin' down the days 'til I see you send a message
You're gon' fall in love with my melodies, they catchy
And, oh, it broke my heart when my girl said she don't want me
And I been in my feelings off the drugs
'Cause, baby, I don't wanna fall in love
And I don't wanna lose you
And now my heart is so blue, you left me with no clue
Oh oh, I don't wanna lose you
Oh oh, now my heart is so blue
(Oh, it's so motherfuckin' blue)
In TheHxliday's song "In My Feelings," the artist expresses his emotional turmoil and confusion after a break-up. He admits to turning to drugs as a way of coping with his feelings of heartbreak and loss. The lyrics suggest that he is struggling to come to terms with the fact that his former partner left him with no explanation, causing his heart to feel "so blue." The chorus repeats his fear of losing her, even though he doesn't want to fall in love again.
In the verses, TheHxliday shares his conflicting emotions of missing his ex and feeling like he needs to move on. He sings about buying her expensive gifts like a Patek watch, and how he misses her even though he knows that their love wasn't true. He is struggling to let go of the relationship and dreams about her at night. He acknowledges that he should have known she didn't care about him and expresses his hurt and anger through the lines, "I was in love with the bitch / .223 all on my hip, 'cause these niggas tryna be slick, huh." In the end, he counts down the days until he can see her again and hopes that she will fall in love with his music.
Overall, "In My Feelings" is a relatable song that touches on themes of heartbreak, loss, and the emotional struggles of moving on from a relationship.
Line by Line Meaning
Lost again, ooh
Feeling lost and uncertain
I am TheHxliday
Author introduction
Ooh, yeah, yeah (yeah)
Excitement and anticipation
And I been in my feelings off the drugs
Emotionally affected by drug use
'Cause, baby, I don't wanna fall in love
Afraid of love and commitment
And I don't wanna lose you
Fear of losing someone important
And now my heart is so blue, you left me with no clue (yeah)
Feeling confused and heartbroken
Oh oh, I don't wanna lose you
Reiterating fear of losing someone important
Oh oh, now my heart is so blue (ooh)
Emphasizing sadness and heartbreak
Baby, I don't wanna lose
Desperate plea to not lose someone
'Cause I picked up the phone
Recalling a past phone call
To hear our love ain't true
Hearing disappointing news
I put Patek on your wrist, yeah
Showing love with an expensive gift
I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss ya
Admitting to missing someone
I keep trying, 'cause, baby, I wanna get ya
Desire to win someone back
And if you ever need me, I'm the one to hit up, yeah
Offering support and help
But I've been in my bag 'cause it don't seem like you want me
Feeling unimportant and ignored
And I double up my cup, mix that Sprite in with Codeine
Abusing drugs to cope with emotions
And I'm smoking on this gas, it numb the pain, I ain't no fiend
Using marijuana to numb emotional pain
And I can't forget the past, so she enter all my dreams
Haunted by memories of the past
She don't want my heart so I took it back
Reclaiming control of emotions
I told her I don't got no more friends
Feeling alone and isolated
I should've known that she ain't give a damn, like, oh
Regretting trust in someone who didn't care
I took my heart right back and then I ran, uh-huh
Removing oneself from a situation
I was in love with the bitch, I was in love with the bitch, huh, yeah
Admitting to still loving someone
.223 all on my hip, 'cause these niggas tryna be slick, huh, yeah
Carrying a weapon for protection
Gucci bag all on my chick, I put Patek on her wrist, huh, yeah
Still showing love with luxurious gifts
Said that she wanted to quit, baby, I don't want this to end, huh, yeah
Wanting to salvage the relationship
Ten, nine, eight, seven, baby, don't be reckless
Urging caution and care
Countin' down the days 'til I see you send a message
Anticipating communication
You're gon' fall in love with my melodies, they catchy
Confident in musical talent
And, oh, it broke my heart when my girl said she don't want me
Heartbroken by rejection
(Oh, it's so motherfuckin' blue)
Reiterating sadness and heartbreak
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Noah Malik Lee
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