In 2005, the band was signed to Victory Records. After their debut was reissued in January 2006, they entered Audiohammer Studios with Jason Suecof (God Forbid, Trivium) to begin work on Embrace The Gutter, which was released on May 16, 2006.
The band began work on a new album in late 2007 with new vocalist Matt McChesney (formerly of Hell Within) and new drummer Allen Royal. The new album, entitled Fear Will Cast No Shadow, was released on October 30, 2007.
The band is currently set to release their new full length self-titled album on August 31st via Victory Records.
Decay
The Autumn Offering Lyrics
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This life is all I know
Hide in myself
I'm condemned by myself
I'll decay before my time
Choking upon this guilty deed of mine
Home on the floor, you can hit me once more
Confined
This guilty deed of mine
My life, I'll decay before my time
Confined
Just sit back and watch it all
I can't be what you want from me
Regret has set
And sank its teeth in me
Into the skin, not knowing when I will win
Bruised body is all I hold
It's not my choice, I have no grip on this
Blinded by light, always losing my fight
Just crumble and lose it all
Confined
This guilty deed of mine
My life, I'll decay before my time
Confined
The Autumn Offering's song "Decay" is a raw and powerful portrayal of a person's struggle with guilt, regret, and self-destructive tendencies. The lyrics "...Hide in myself, I'm condemned by myself..." and "Regret has set and sank its teeth in me..." reveal the self-imposed isolation and internal condemnation that the singer is experiencing. Similarly, the line "I'll decay before my time, choking upon this guilty deed of mine" indicates that the singer feels like they are slowly deteriorating, being eaten alive by their own guilt.
Throughout the song, the singer seems resigned to their fate, as shown in the line "It's not my choice, I have no grip on this, blinded by light, always losing my fight, just crumble and lose it all." The use of the word "confined" is repeated several times in the chorus and symbolizes the trapped feeling that the singer is experiencing. They feel confined both physically and emotionally, trapped by their own guilt and unable to break free from the cycle that is consuming them.
Overall, "Decay" is a powerful and emotional song that portrays the struggles of those who battle with guilt and self-destructive tendencies. The lyrics are honest and raw, highlighting the darkness and hopelessness that can result from such struggles, and the haunting melody and instrumentation intensify the feeling of despair.
Line by Line Meaning
Just one more high
I need one last time to be high, to escape from reality and the pain I feel inside.
This life is all I know
I have limited experiences and knowledge, and my life is mainly comprised of addiction and despair.
Hide in myself
I isolate myself from others and conceal my emotions, because I fear rejection and judgment.
I'm condemned by myself
I suffer from self-doubt, self-blame, and self-punishment, which make me feel trapped and powerless.
I'll decay before my time
My addiction and self-destructive behavior will shorten my life expectancy and rob me of my potential.
Choking upon this guilty deed of mine
I feel suffocated and overwhelmed by the consequences of my actions, which hurt myself and others.
Home on the floor, you can hit me once more
I accept my fate and my punishment, and I feel so powerless and worthless that I let others abuse me.
Will power is dead and gone
I have lost my ability to resist temptation, to make better choices, and to change my life for the better.
Confined
I feel trapped, stuck, and helpless, unable to break free from my addiction and my negative thoughts.
Just sit back and watch it all
I am resigned to my fate and I feel no agency or control over my life, so I let others observe my decline.
I can't be what you want from me
I feel inadequate and incapable of meeting other people's expectations, which only reinforces my negative self-image.
Regret has set
I realize the mistakes I have made, but it is too late to undo them, and they haunt me endlessly.
And sank its teeth in me
The regret and the guilt I feel are consuming me, and I can't escape their grip on my mind and my heart.
Into the skin, not knowing when I will win
I harm myself physically and emotionally, not realizing the damage I inflict on myself, and I do not know how to overcome my addiction.
Bruised body is all I hold
My body bears the scars and the wounds of my addiction and my suffering, and I have nothing else to show or be proud of.
It's not my choice, I have no grip on this
I feel like my addiction controls me, not the other way around, and I do not know how to break the cycle.
Blinded by light, always losing my fight
I see glimpses of hope or happiness, but they quickly fade away, leaving me in darkness and despair, and I struggle to overcome my addiction.
Just crumble and lose it all
I feel so overwhelmed and hopeless that I give up on myself, my dreams, and my life, and I let my addiction consume me.
Lyrics © DistroKid, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: Dennis Mathew Miller, Matthew Alan Johnson, Nicholas Dominic Gelyon, Sean Robbins, Tomas Eughene Church
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