Hugging My Grudge
The Boy Least Likely To Lyrics

I have weapons and battle plans
I feel prepared to protect you, but I know deep down that there are things I cannot shield you from.

But in my heart I know
Even though I have the desire to protect you, I am limited by my own understanding and ability.

I can't ever protect you from
There are certain things that are beyond my control or comprehension that I cannot shield you from.

Things I don't understand
Despite my weapons and battle plans, there are still things that I lack the knowledge or power to protect you from.

And when I hold you in my arms
Being close to you makes me realize how vulnerable and fragile our happiness and safety can be.

It scares me just to
The thought of losing something so precious and beautiful is terrifying to me.

Think that something so beautiful
Referring to the love and connection between the singer and the person they are addressing.

Could just come apart in my hands
The fear of losing something so precious and fragile is so great that the artist feels like they might unintentionally break it.

I've always been chasing rainbows
I've always been chasing a dream or ideal that seems unattainable or impossible.

Staring out of classroom windows
A symbol of wanting to escape the mundane or average, and yearning for something that feels greater than everyday life.

I don't think I'll ever be happy
The singer believes that their pursuit of the unattainable dream is preventing them from experiencing true happiness because they are always striving for something that is out of reach.

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge
The artist feels like they need to hold onto their negative feelings or grudges because it feeds their desire for something greater than what they currently have.

I was too dumb to settle down
I believe that I was foolish or naive in thinking that settling down and pursuing a stable life was the right choice for me.

So, I packed up and I left town
I decided to leave my stable life and embrace the unknown because I felt like I was meant for something greater.

On a sunshine bus
A symbol of hope and optimism, representing the singer's belief that they were embarking on a journey to something greater.

Wondering where it all went wrong
Despite their hope and optimism, the artist is unsure if they made the right decision and worries that they may have made a mistake by leaving their stable life behind.

On a flimsy wing and a prayer
The artist embarked on their journey with very little planning or preparation, hoping that their faith and optimism would lead them to something greater.

I followed my heart everywhere
The singer made decisions based on their intuition and emotions rather than logic or reason.

'Til I ended up
Despite their optimism and intuition, the singer's decisions ultimately led them to disappointment or failure.

Right back where I started from
The artist's journey led them full circle back to their starting point, feeling like they had made no progress in their pursuit of something greater.

I don't know when I've been beaten
The artist has a refusal to give up or admit defeat, even in the face of failure or disappointment.

I don't think I'll ever be happy
The artist believes that happiness is unattainable because they are unable to let go of their pursuit of something greater.

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge
The singer believes that holding onto negative feelings or grudges fuels their desire for something greater, and that happiness or contentment would require giving that up.