Spit Shining Shit
The Lawrence Arms Lyrics


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I was awake, dreaming about sleeping
And my mistakes and how I keep 'em
So close to me, so that I'll never, never forget
I can't get anywhere

Shedding tears over these bottles
Celebrating my life at the bottom
Of the barrel of a barrel so rotten
And I've forgotten what this like before I started stopping

Fuck this, fuck this, I'm out, I'm out
Of bullshit to cry about
You can pass these fuck you's around
I'll be dead and gone when this shit hits the ground

Tell me why, why, why, why, why
I even tried, tried, tried tonight
I should just let it die
'Cause I'm so tired of waiting for this shit to shine

I was asleep, dreaming about palm trees
Then I woke up to lonely city streets
I heard the voices echoed in the back rooms
And I had to run around the corner to the barstools

Where I was shedding tears over these bottles
Celebrating my life at the bottom
Of the barrel of a barrel so rotten
And I've forgotten

How to light this fire
I've forgotten how to tow this wire
I've forgotten
What this was like before I started stopping

Tell me why, why, why, why, why
Do I even try, try, try tonight?
I should probably let it die
And I'm tired of waiting for this shit to shine

I am tired of waiting
I am tired of waiting
This is my life, this is my time
It's time to take it

This is my life, this is my time
This is my life, this is my time




This is my life, this is my time
Time, time, time, time, time

Overall Meaning

The Lawrence Arms's song "Spit Shining Shit" is a melancholic but powerful representation of the struggles of addiction and self-doubt. The lyrics convey a sense of helplessness and despair as the singer grapples with regret, and the guilt of not being able to overcome their addictions. The lines "I was awake, dreaming about sleeping // And my mistakes and how I keep 'em // so close to me, so that I'll never, never forget // I can't get anywhere" articulately convey the feeling of being stuck in a cycle of addiction and the despair that comes with it.


Throughout the song, we hear the singer oscillating between feeling defeated and wanting to escape the grip of their struggles. The lines "Fuck this, fuck this, I'm out, I'm out // Of bullshit to cry about // You can pass these fuck you's around // I'll be dead and gone when this shit hits the ground" reveal a defiance that is borne out of frustration and exhaustion. The singer is tired of feeling sorry for themselves and is ready to break away from the addiction that has been holding them down.


Towards the end of the song, the lyrics "This is my life, this is my time // It's time to take it" are a powerful anthem of self-empowerment. Although the singer is still struggling, the lines show a determination to take control of their life and move in a different direction. The song ends with the repeated echoes of "time," signifying that there is no time to waste if one wants to achieve change.


Overall, "Spit Shining Shit" is a poignant look at addiction and the journey towards recovery. The lyrics are deeply introspective and honest in their representation of the complexities of addiction and the difficulty of overcoming it.


Line by Line Meaning

I was awake, dreaming about sleeping
I was restless, thinking about the things I'm avoiding


And my mistakes and how I keep 'em
I can't let go of my past errors


So close to me, so that I'll never, never forget
I hold on to my mistakes as a warning for the future


I can't get anywhere
My regrets are holding me back


Shedding tears over these bottles
I'm drinking to avoid my problems


Celebrating my life at the bottom
I'm clinging to the little that I have left


Of the barrel of a barrel so rotten
I'm stuck in a cycle of despair


And I've forgotten what this like before I started stopping
I don't remember what it was like to be happy


Fuck this, fuck this, I'm out, I'm out
I've had enough, I'm done


Of bullshit to cry about
I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself


You can pass these fuck you's around
I don't care about anyone else's opinions anymore


I'll be dead and gone when this shit hits the ground
This pain will follow me even after I'm gone


Tell me why, why, why, why, why
I can't understand why I bother


I even tried, tried, tried tonight
I made an effort and it feels pointless


I should just let it die
It's time to give up


'Cause I'm so tired of waiting for this shit to shine
I'm exhausted from trying to make things better


I was asleep, dreaming about palm trees
I briefly imagined a paradise


Then I woke up to lonely city streets
Reality hit me hard


I heard the voices echoed in the back rooms
I'm reminded of the people I've lost


And I had to run around the corner to the barstools
I went to drink to forget


How to light this fire
I can't find the motivation I need


I've forgotten how to tow this wire
I'm struggling to keep everything together


Do I even try, try, try tonight?
I question whether or not to keep going


I should probably let it die
It's probably best to give up


And I'm tired of waiting for this shit to shine
I'm exhausted from trying to make things better


I am tired of waiting
I've lost the energy to hope


This is my life, this is my time
It's up to me to change my situation


It's time to take it
It's time to make a change


Time, time, time, time, time
I need to act fast




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