"We never even considered doing a side project," says Statik. "We were so busy doing all things Collide. However, when the opportunity came up to work with Dean, we couldn't resist."
One day kaRIN happened to be surfing around in cyberspace and came across Dean's solo work. She emailed him to see if he might like a guest vocal. I was just throwing it out there when I asked him," says kaRIN. "I was ultra excited when I heard back from Dean that he thought that it would be a cool idea. We then asked Statik if he would also want to be part of it. Thankfully he did, so we all continued to work on tracks until it turned into a whole album."
Says kaRIN, "Dean has been so great to work with. He is so chill and easy going. He would send music and I would lose myself inside the sounds, finding words and melodies, and then Statik would put the whole thing together and add his special touches. The only instructions that Dean ever really gave us was... have fun, so I think our approach was slightly more playful on this collaboration. I am still chasing my demons, but maybe I am having a little more fun with them on this release. To me the whole thing feels sort of dreamy and surreal."
Dean states, "Music has a very big place in my life, I became immersed at a very young age and have never looked back."
Says kaRIN, "I have always been obsessed about creating, it's just who I am."
Statik adds, "I just want to make music that doesn't suck... that's all."
Am I Here?
The Secret Meeting Lyrics
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Just some connecting soul
Am I here to remind myself of my philosophy
Try to rearrange things
Eternity and strange things
Written in another life
Trying to escape things
I don't know where my head is
So sacred might need saving
Some comfort never wanting
Try to rearrange things
I can see a strange place
Because a picture tells a thousand words
Picture tells a thousand words
Am I here in my arrangement
Your soul connecting mine
Am I here to remind myself of my philosophy
Try to rearrange things
Eternity and strange things
Written in below the line
Trying to escape things
Eternity and strange things
I don't know where my head is
So sacred might need saving
Some comfort never wanting
Try to rearrange things
Eternity and strange things
Trying to arrange things
Living in a strange way
Trying to connect it
I could try
How can . . . how can how can . . . how can
Turning combination
Written in below the line
Turning combination
Written in this deep
I don't know where my head is
So sacred might need saving
Some comfort never wanting
Cause I told you once and I said to myself
Don't doubt it
I couldn't fool myself
Try to connect it
The song Am I Here? by The Secret Meeting is a contemplative piece about the purpose of existence and the struggle to understand that purpose. The first verse poses the question of whether the singer's being is simply a product of chance or if there is a deeper reason for their existence. The second verse suggests that the singer is trying to make sense of the world around them, including eternal and mysterious things that seem to have been written in a previous life. The refrain "Try to rearrange things" resonates with the idea that the singer is attempting to make sense of their life and purpose, despite feeling confused and unsure of what direction to take.
The bridge section of the song pivots from questioning to searching. The line "Because a picture tells a thousand words" suggests that the singer is looking for something visual or tangible that will help them understand their purpose. The second half of the bridge reiterates the themes of the song, emphasizing the singer's desire to connect with the world in some meaningful way.
Line by Line Meaning
Am I here in my arrangement
Am I truly present in this moment or just going through the motions?
Just some connecting soul
Maybe my purpose is to connect with others and find meaning through them.
Am I here to remind myself of my philosophy
Perhaps I'm searching for something to hold onto, a guiding principle in life.
Try to rearrange things
Attempting to make sense of the chaos around me.
Eternity and strange things
Contemplating the vastness of the universe and the inexplicable mysteries of life.
Written in another life
Perhaps these questions have been asked before, by someone else in a different time and place.
Trying to escape things
Running away from something, either physical or emotional.
I don't know where my head is
Feeling disoriented and confused about my own thoughts and feelings.
So sacred might need saving
Something meaningful to me is in danger of being lost, and I need to act to preserve it.
Some comfort never wanting
Perhaps I'm afraid of getting too comfortable, of losing the spark that motivates me to keep searching.
I can see a strange place
There's something unfamiliar or unsettling about my current situation.
Because a picture tells a thousand words
Trying to find meaning in the details and nuances of my surroundings.
Your soul connecting mine
A recognition of the importance of others in shaping my worldview and sense of self.
Written in below the line
Scrutinizing the details that might be overlooked by others, searching for meaning in the mundane.
Trying to connect it
Attempting to find patterns and connections between seemingly unrelated events or ideas.
Turning combination
Trying to find the right formula or recipe for a fulfilling life.
Written in this deep
There's something hidden or buried deep within me that needs to be uncovered.
Cause I told you once and I said to myself
There's an inner voice urging me to take action, to believe in myself and my own abilities.
Don't doubt it
Even if it's frightening or uncertain, I need to trust my instincts and keep moving forward.
I couldn't fool myself
I am aware of my own illusions and limitations, and cannot deceive myself into complacency.
Contributed by Violet V. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Z Blackerby
I absolutely love this album. KArin and Dean Garcia did an awesome combining the 2 sounds, Dean's bass is adds a super heavy bounce to their darkwave. MORE MORE MORE
Acnologia
I had such an epiphany on my one and only mushroom trip. Suddenly getting the feeling of ceasing existance. Am I here? Do I even exist? It was surreal.
Ayamegirl001
Can you also post Soulcreeper? It's one of my fave songs. :)
Z Blackerby
Some secret meeting. I dont know where my head is.....
the420xtc
Mmmm so good. Reminds me a lil of Curve.
Joe -
God, do I miss them
the420xtc
@Joe - same
tepracreh
@brokenmonty thank you :-)
tepracreh
can You post "beautiful noise machine"?
brokenmonty
@tepracreh sure :) i'll post it too