April
Thomston Lyrics

January never got too cold
January, typically a cold month, was relatively mild in temperature

We were picking out the colors for the bathroom walls
We were in the process of renovating our home

February came, it rained until it flooded
The weather in February was poor, to the point of flooding

We slept in different beds but nobody noticed
Our relationship had declined to the point of sleeping in separate beds

By mid-March we were on the run
Our issues had caught up to us and we were trying to escape them

We were escaping from our issues, they were catching up
We were running from our problems but they inevitably caught up with us

Us against the world, till it turned to one another
Initially, it felt like we were together against all problems, but ultimately we turned on each other

And we dragged each other under
Our relationship was detrimental to both of us and pulled us down

I promised more than I should
I made promises to you that were too big for me to keep

Gave you more than I was able
I gave you more than I was capable of giving

But I will love you till the end
Despite my shortcomings, I will always love you

Until the end of April
However, this love has an expiration date and it will only last until the end of April

Feeling sociopathic but in the name of compassion
My behavior may seem lacking in empathy, but I believe I am acting with good intentions

I've been biting my tongue and I've gone and made it a habit
I am choosing not to speak my mind, even if it has become a habit that may not be healthy for our relationship

Confessions are bleeding out
Even though I am not explicitly stating my feelings, they are still affecting our dynamic

I go walking at midnight (midnight)
I wander alone in the middle of the night

Dodging the headlights (headlights)
I am avoiding the light and any potential confrontation

Collecting my thoughts just to keep them on inside
I am keeping my thoughts to myself, rather than sharing them with you

You lie awake, while I'm fast asleep
You are staying up, worrying while I am asleep and unaware

Oh, you're terrified I'm gonna leave
You are fearful that I may leave you, adding to the tension in our relationship

It'll still hurt in July
Even if we move on, the pain of our relationship will still linger

All those seasons fly by
Time passes quickly, and even though it may feel like this season of our lives is never-ending, it too will come to an end

You'll meet someone you can fall for
Eventually, you will find someone who you can love and fall for

They can keep you warmer
This new love will bring you comfort and warmth in ways our relationship could not

I thought I knew you way before I did
I thought I understood you more intimately than I actually did

But baby that's how it is, how it is
This is simply the reality of our relationship, and it may not have been meant to last

I promised more than I should
Once again, I made promises that were unrealistic

Gave you more than I was able
I set expectations for myself that I was unable to meet

But I will love you till the end
Despite all of our issues, I will always have love for you

Until the end of April
But that love has an expiration date and will only last until the end of April