If Only
Times Lyrics

Not today I can't give up
I refuse to give up today

I'll try again and longer
I will make another attempt and persevere for a longer period

Not today I won't give in
Today, I will not surrender

If only, only, only
Expressing a desire for a specific outcome

I could be a little stronger
I wish to possess more strength

Even if it kills me I'll find no relief after I die
Even in death, I will not find solace

I'll be shackled to my killer in the afterlife
In the afterlife, I will be bound to my own flaws

Or will I realize in the light of all those who have died purified
Will I comprehend, among those who have found redemption after death,

That the ropes he used to bind were never truly tied
The limitations imposed upon me were never truly inescapable

Oh what a beautiful connection
How exquisite is the understanding

Though I know I never reached perfection
Even though I am aware I never achieved flawlessness

And while correction never led to flying
Despite the fact that self-improvement never resulted in soaring above

All that mattered was that I died trying
What truly counts is that I perished while striving

I've been sliding, grinding, diving
I have been struggling, toiling, and risking

I'd hold on a little longer
If only I could maintain my perseverance for a bit more time

I'll keep climbing, fighting, rising
I will persist in ascending, battling, and improving

I will never give up on the hope of being made whole
I will always hold onto the aspiration of becoming complete

Even on the bleakest winter day I could find new growth
Even amidst the harshest circumstances, there is still possibility for progress

Inside it's 'do or die' and other ungodly lies
Internally, the belief is that one must either succeed or perish, but this notion is false

Once was worthless now am purchased
From being deemed valueless in the past, I have been redeemed

Of this I can testify
I can affirm this with certainty

The words 'if only' only matter in mortality
The expression 'if only' holds significance only in the realm of the living

Then comes the night where no labor can be performed
Afterward, there arrives a time when no work can be accomplished

So rise
Thus, stand up and elevate oneself