Happiness
Token Lyrics

Ripped jacket with the stains on the surface
The boy is dressed poorly, with a dirty jacket

He was the kid that everyone was happy they weren't
Other kids are happy they aren't like him, probably because he faces many difficulties.

Sitting alone invisible to every passing person
He is lonely and seems invisible to others.

Wondering what it would feel like to have a purpose
He has no purpose and wonders what it would be like to have one.

He never had a childhood
He never experienced childhood like other children did.

Forced to parent his own parents like no child should
He has to take care of his own parents.

His father is a veteran drowning his memories with liquor
His father is a veteran who copes with his traumatic memories by drinking alcohol.

And his mother's taking pills that doctors give her but they only make her sicker
His mother takes medication, but it only worsens her condition.

With no sibling to walk through this stuff
He has no sibling to go through these struggles with him.

No ends, no money, no friends, no buddies, he ain't talking enough
He has no money, no friends, and nobody to talk to.

He don't put himself out there, he's awkward too much
He is shy and awkward.

Well, who in his life would he learn confidence from?
He does not have a role model to learn confidence from.

And he sits behind me in class
The singer sits in front of the boy in class.

One day I heard crying from the back
The singer hears the boy crying in class.

Finally I turned around and I asked
The singer turns around and asks the boy what's wrong.

What was wrong
The artist asks what's wrong with the boy.

And the first time I heard his voice
The artist hears the boy's voice for the first time.

He said "all I know is pain, if this is life, what's the point?
The boy says he only knows pain, and wonders what the point of life is.

Show me what happinesses is
The boy asks the singer to show him what happiness is.

His voice gloomy he looked through me he said
The boy's voice is sad, and he looks through the artist as they talk.

Desperateness on his face
The boy looks desperate and unhappy.

I didn't know what to say
The artist doesn't know how to respond to the boy's request.

He put his head down
The boy puts his head down after making the request.

And he didn't make a sound
The boy doesn't say anything after putting his head down.

Perfect makeup even though she don't need the extra touch
The girl wears make-up even though she does not need it.

She was the girl that every other girl was jealous of
Other girls are jealous of her for her appearance.

Silky hair, blue eyes, thin body with
The girl has beautiful silky hair, blue eyes, and a thin body.

Curves, but her new clothes only cover parts of it
She has curves, but her new clothes do not cover them all.

She's almost looked at like a goddess to all
People treat the girl as if she is a goddess.

Attracts every pair of eyes when she walks through the hall
Everyone's eyes are on her when she walks through the hall.

But she's likable too, she's not the one to gossip
She is likable and does not gossip.

Evident when you talk to her, she ain't ever pompous
She is not arrogant, as evident when talking to her.

Wealthy home filled with knowledge and newness
She comes from a wealthy home with access to knowledge and new things.

She was the youngest out of 3 book smart students
She is the youngest of three book smart students.

And her parents were so proud, pride was all around her
Her parents are proud of her, and their pride is evident.

But I always noticed something was a little off about her
The artist always noticed that there is something wrong with her.

One day I noticed heavy make up on her wrist when she passed papers back
The singer notices heavy makeup on her wrist when she passed papers back.

After class, I approached her and I asked about it
The singer approaches the girl after class and asks about the makeup.

She said it don't mean I have it if I'm around it
She says that having heavy makeup does not mean she has whatever issue it represents.

I looked into her eyes
The artist looks into the girl's eyes.

I saw her for the first time
The artist sees the girl for who she truly is for the first time.

Show me where happiness is
The girl asks the singer to show her where happiness is.

I saw regret
The singer sees regret in the girl's eyes.

She walked away in a sec
The girl walks away quickly after asking the question.

Her voice rang through my head
The girl's voice echoes through the artist's head.

I watched her walk away
The artist watches the girl walk away.

She became another face
The girl becomes just another face in the crowd.

How come some appreciate the sun after the rain
Why do some people appreciate good things only after bad things happen?

While others just see the puddles as if nothing has changed?
Why do some people not see any change when bad things happen?

And as I watch people living the life I couldn't take, I wonder if they see a way out to mentally
The singer wonders if people who live a life they cannot take see a way to escape mentally.

And as I watch people who live the life I idolize, I wonder what they feel and what isn't seen
The singer wonders what those who live a life they idolize feel and what is hidden from them.

As I watch my whole family take pills for depression I wonder what true happiness really means
The artist questions what true happiness is, while their family takes pills for depression.

I wonder if because I'm genetically predisposed to it, that is the reason I find myself feeling weak
The artist wonders if their genetic predisposition is affecting their feelings of weakness.

Only sometimes, in and out
The singer only feels weak sometimes and inconsistently.

I guess it's scarier when you don't have a reason to be feeling down
It is scarier to feel down without knowing the reason behind it.

Sometimes I just am
Sometimes the artist just feels down for no apparent reason.

Sometimes I just feel no one will understand
Sometimes the artist feels like no one will understand their feelings.

Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes the artist wants to cry.

Sometimes I want to crush my family's so-called medication look in their eyes
Sometimes the singer wants to crush the medication their family takes and confront them about it.

And tell them they don't need it as long we just have each other
The artist wants to tell their family that they do not need medication as long as they have each other.

But then sometimes I watch them suffer
Sometimes the singer watches their family suffer and feels helpless.

I just wonder where happiness is
The singer wonders where happiness truly is.

Show me where happiness is
The singer asks to be shown where happiness is.