Growth
Tom MacDonald Lyrics

I've never been the nicest guy
I haven't always been kind or considerate

Especially to the ones I love
Especially towards the people I care about

I guess that I assume they'll always
I assume they'll always

Be there for me just because
Be there for me simply because

I took that shit for granted for too long
I didn't appreciate it enough for a long time

I never meant to trip and do 'em wrong
I didn't intend to hurt or betray them

But I said some things
But I spoke hurtful words

Sometimes I'm so unhappy with myself
Sometimes I'm really dissatisfied with myself

That I'm in hell
To the point where I feel like I'm in a terrible place

And I take it out on everybody else
And I project my unhappiness onto others

I'm like 'Oh well'
I have an indifferent attitude

I'll just fix it all tomorrow
I'll try to make amends in the future

I'm just worryin' 'bout my own shit
I'm only concerned about my own issues

Forget about the problems that I won't fix
Neglecting the problems that I choose not to rectify

I need to change before I pass the way
I need to improve myself before I leave this world

I am on to my own kids
So that I don't pass on my mistakes to my children

Oh shit, I'm thirty-one, got grown quick
Wow, I realized I've become an adult at a rapid pace

I just checked the Apple Music charts
I recently looked at the rankings on Apple Music

I'm right next to Postie and Drake
I'm ranked closely alongside Post Malone and Drake

I did it independently
I achieved this success without a major label's support

Now everybody knows my name
Now everyone is familiar with my name

All the fame is gettin' to my head
The fame is starting to affect my ego

I'm feelin' crowded
I feel overwhelmed by all the attention

Need to tie my shoelace to the floor to keep me grounded
I need something to keep me humble and grounded

I'm astounded how shit changes and
I'm amazed at how things change and

You never even realize
You don't even notice

And don't know that you at the top 'cause
And aren't aware that you're at the top because

You don't know how that feels like
You don't know what it's like to experience that

I took some chances i don't need to wish on
I took risks that I no longer need to rely on luck for

Shootin' stars no more
I don't depend on shooting stars anymore

This didn't just happen
This success wasn't a mere coincidence

It's exactly how I planned it years before
It's exactly how I envisioned it years ago

I blow out the candles
I extinguish the candles on my birthday cake

Fuck a wish, already got what I wished for
Forget making a wish, I already have what I desired

They think I'm an asshole
Some people consider me a jerk

There's a couple things I'm workin' on
There are a few things I'm focusing on improving

I'm so tired of keepin' enemies close
I'm exhausted from maintaining relationships with my enemies

I need to show some love to
I need to express love to

The people who mean the most
The people who are most important to me

Send 'em money on they birthdays
Send them money on their birthdays

Put emojis on they posts
Use emojis on their social media posts

But never care enough to get
But never care enough to actually

em on the phone, shit's fucked up
Call them, this situation is messed up

I swear, I work my hands to the bone
I swear, I work extremely hard

I'm at the crib with my girl
I'm at home with my girlfriend

She says I'm hardly ever home
She says I'm rarely at home

'Cause I concentrate on work so much
Because I focus on work so intensely

I can't switch up the mode
I can't shift my focus

It's either business or relationships
It's either work or personal connections

Can't seem to have 'em both, I want balance
I can't seem to have both, I desire balance

I think I'm probably smart enough to have it
I believe I'm intelligent enough to achieve it

But I'm addicted to workin'
But I'm addicted to working

And success became a habit
And success has become a routine

I want it, I need it, I crave it
I desire it, I require it, I long for it

Believe I'm the greatest
Contemplate that I'm the best

Tryna juggle bein' happy wit' bein'
Trying to balance being happy with being

Way too fuckin' famous shit was unexpected
Extremely famous, unexpected situation

A ton of pressure buildin' all at once
A lot of pressure accumulating simultaneously

They want an autograph and all I
People want an autograph and all I

Want's to call my mom
Want is to call my mom

Don't get me wrong, I'm not complainin'
Don't misunderstand me, I'm not complaining

These days shit is weird
These days things are strange

I'm just thankful that we're here, shit
I'm just grateful that we exist