Overdose
Trickle Lyrics

I've known from the start that it all would fall apart
I was aware that our relationship would eventually come to an end

Heart-broken after dark
Feeling emotional pain in the darkness of night

I'm such a fool for thinking anything has love for me, hah
I feel foolish for believing in love and thinking that someone could love me

The things I wanna say slip on my tongue
I struggle to express myself and the words I want to say don't come out correctly

Taking shape that fades away, my words aren't enough, yeah
The words I do say don't fully capture what I mean and fade away in their impact

The songs I write, they never seem to find the words
Even my attempts to express myself through music fall short

I try to cry the same thing every single night
I repeat the same emotions and thoughts to myself every night

Running circles like the answer's right behind me, calling
I feel like I'm going in circles to find the answers I need, but they keep eluding me

Drink, forget, the vomit's coming quick
I drink to forget my pain, but it often results in getting sick

Another hit, my heart can't swallow it and spits
I take another hit of a substance, but it doesn't make the pain go away and instead intensifies it

At the mirror's images
I see my reflection in the mirror and am ashamed of what I see

Overdose, hold me close, darling
I turn to substances and fake love to numb my pain

Feeling so low, falling
I feel a deep sense of sadness and am falling into despair

Close my eyes and let me leave my blues behind
I want to escape from my negative emotions and leave them behind

Your lie's hypnotizing
I'm drawn to the fake love and promises that you give me

Don't stop the music, darling
I want to keep numbing my pain with music and other distractions

I said that I knew the end
I thought I knew that our relationship would end, but it still hurt when it actually did

How it all would fall apart, heart-broken yet again
Just like how I predicted, our relationship ended and I'm heartbroken once more

For now, I'll play pretend
I'll pretend like I'm okay and not as heartbroken as I really am

As if it didn't hurt me like it did back then
I'll pretend like the pain of heartbreak isn't affecting me as much as it did in the past

Guess I really never had a clue
In hindsight, I realize that I didn't really understand the truth about our relationship

Heart out on my sleeve, it's no wonder it's blue, yeah
I wear my emotions on my sleeve, so it's not surprising that my heart is hurting

Don't pile on the pain and string it along
Please don't make my heartbreak any worse than it already is

I wanna walk away while I can move on
I want to leave this relationship behind and move on with my life

What we had bloomed into a forbidden fruit
Our relationship turned into something that was taboo and wrong

A rotten taste that burns on my tongue
The memory of our relationship is unpleasant and painful

That's why I dance and sing, then drink 'til I'm asleep
To escape from my pain, I turn to dancing, singing, and drinking until I pass out

Forgot the beat, but I keep on believing every lie
Even though I'm too drunk to keep a rhythm, I still believe the lies that fake love and substances offer me

When you catch me with those eyes
When you look at me, I'm drawn in and believe your lies even more

The truth is cold, calling
The truth of my situation is harsh and hits me hard

Out all the lies we've spent our lives hiding behind
The many lies that we've told ourselves to avoid facing the truth are being exposed

Two step from hell now, darling
Our relationship has become unbearable and it feels like we're close to being in hell

I'll be alright, come let me drink up all your lies
I tell myself that I'll be okay and continue to believe in the fake love that you offer