Disappear
Twiztid Lyrics

Please don't let me go outside of my bedroom
I feel safe and secure in my bedroom, away from the difficulties of the outside world.

Or I won't live another day
The external world overwhelms me to the point where I feel like I cannot go on.

I promise I'll be dead soon
I believe that my life is reaching its end and I will soon pass away.

You cannot understand the kind of Life that I've gone through
I've experienced a life filled with hardships and struggles that are beyond your comprehension.

Is what I tell myself to feel Better, but it don't really help, rather
I try to convince myself that thinking this way will make me feel better, but in reality, it doesn't.

Place blame, live in shame, it's so inane
I constantly blame myself and live in a state of shame, which is pointless and foolish.

It's my fault and you all you have to say
I take responsibility for my problems, and all you can do is point out that fact.

Is look at everything it cost (True)
You want me to acknowledge the consequences and negative impact of my actions, which is true.

I'm a soul so lost
I feel completely lost and disconnected from my soul.

(True) , addiction knows no cross
It is true that addiction does not discriminate.

I just want to close my eyes and Try my best to sleep it off when I'm high
When I'm under the influence, all I want to do is escape reality by closing my eyes and trying to sleep.

I'm so high that the lows don't exist
When I'm high, I am numb to the lows and negative emotions.

And when I float by The whole time I ain't move an inch
Despite appearing to be fine on the surface, I am stagnant and not making any progress.

I lost control of my left eye
I no longer have control over certain aspects of myself, symbolized by the loss of control over my left eye.

Now I'm stuck with this twitch
As a result, I am stuck with this involuntary twitching.

And all the sores over my Body are contagious as shit
Metaphorical wounds and scars that I carry are contagious and negatively impact those around me.

I need you here 'cause if this don't
I require your presence and support, because if this doesn't work out...

Work and my body's too weak For me to fight through The withdrawals, hold on, let me speak
If the treatment or solution doesn't succeed, and if my body is too weak to endure the withdrawal symptoms, please give me a chance to express myself.

I don't want to be another junkie on a leash
I don't want to be trapped and controlled like a drug addict.

Just blowin' through my life like Garbage in the streets
I don't want to live a meaningless and disposable existence.

So I take my last chance and hope I get to see the sun
I grasp onto this final opportunity and hope to experience hope and brightness again.

But if this don't work out I need you to let everybody come
If this fails, please allow everyone to gather around and support me.

And maybe they won't make the same kind Of mistakes as I have done but if they do At least they get a chance To see the only outcome
Perhaps, by witnessing my struggles, they will avoid making the same mistakes. But if they do, at least they will have the opportunity to face the consequences.

All my problems go (Disappear, disappear)
I long for all my problems to vanish completely.

Close my eyes and then (Disappear, disappear)
I try to escape and find solace by closing my eyes, hoping my problems will disappear.

Holdin' my head, I can't (Disappear, disappear)
However, I can't stop dwelling on my troubles and finding ways to escape them.

Open my eyes, I hope (Disappear, disappear)
When I open my eyes, I hope that everything that burdens me will suddenly disappear.

I can make it disappear)
I have the power to make my problems vanish.

Watch it all disappear)
I envision everything that troubles me fading away.

I hope that it disappear)
I desperately want everything to disappear.

That it all disappear)
I yearn for all my problems to evaporate.

Inkblots like a Rorschach Test
The patterns and images in my mind resemble inkblots used in psychological tests.

Tell me what you see
Interpret my experiences and thoughts and share your perception.

When my thoughts manifest
When my thoughts materialize and take form...

Like a noose on my neck and The bricks on my feet
...it feels suffocating and weighs me down, like a noose around my neck and bricks on my feet.

And a demon on my chest and It listens when I sleep
I am burdened by a demon that resides on my chest and torments me, even in my sleep.

Complicated, life changes once Either mutate with it or you live in disgust
Life is intricate and constantly evolving. One must either adapt and embrace change or live in a state of dissatisfaction.

Overcome by the pressure like a fish belly-up
The overwhelming pressure leaves me feeling helpless and vulnerable, like a fish floating upside down.

Obstacles in life can be different, various To the ones that break the Bread and eat the crust
Challenges in life can vary for different individuals. Some face minor obstacles, while others experience more severe hardships.

Some throw you in the wheel Wells under the bus
Some people subject you to further difficulties and abandon you.

Try to be different, try to love and trust
I strive to be unique and cultivate love and trust in my life.

But the bad taste lingers like a memory of us
However, the negative experiences and memories continue to linger and affect me.

I can't change it back but I can back it up
I cannot alter the past, but I can support my choices and actions.

Now and forth this life as a guideline
I navigate through life using past experiences as lessons and guidance.

With the grains of sand
Like grains of sand, representing the fleeting nature of time and memories...

I'm not a pillar of salt
...I refuse to be paralyzed, like a pillar of salt, by the past.

Who's fault and why we argue all the time
We constantly argue about who is to blame and why.

Disappear into thin air
I wish to vanish without a trace.

Shell of a man, never felt here in the first
I feel like an empty shell of a person, as if I never truly belonged or existed.

Tense, still I feel a purpose
Despite feeling apprehensive and tense, I still have a sense of purpose.

To change the world 'fore I Purge the soul of serpents
My goal is to bring about positive change in the world before cleansing my soul of negative influences.

I can make anything happen
I possess the ability to manifest my desires and make things happen.

You ain't seen nothing but fractions
Compared to what I am capable of, you have only witnessed a fraction of my potential.

Feelings and overreactions
I am often overwhelmed by intense emotions and tend to overreact.

Hate and attraction
My emotions can vary from hatred to attraction.

Givin' my sentiments traction
I allow my emotions and feelings to gain momentum and influence me.

Verbally all-terrain
I possess the ability to navigate and adapt in various verbal situations.

Right off the rails like a runaway train
I am uncontrolled and unpredictable, like a runaway train.

Sayin' that we are the same is insane
Claiming that we are alike is utterly absurd.

And all of this happens inside of my brain
All of these thoughts and emotions take place within my mind.

And everything therein contained
Everything that exists within my mind...

Today and every day I push it Away and make it disappear
...I continually push it away and make it disappear each day.

Your life's a mess
Your life is chaotic and disarrayed.

I'll make it crystal clear
I will bring clarity and understanding to your situation.

Take a listen here, you can change gears
Listen to my words and consider adjusting your perspective and approach.

Fuck fear
I refuse to let fear control me.

All my problems go (Disappear, disappear)
I yearn for all my problems to vanish completely.

Close my eyes and then (Disappear, disappear)
I try to escape and find solace by closing my eyes, hoping my problems will disappear.

Holdin' my head, I can't (Disappear, disappear)
However, I can't stop dwelling on my troubles and finding ways to escape them.

Open my eyes, I hope (Disappear, disappear)
When I open my eyes, I hope that everything that burdens me will suddenly disappear.

I can make it disappear)
I have the power to make my problems vanish.

Watch it all disappear)
I envision everything that troubles me fading away.

I hope that it disappear)
I desperately want everything to disappear.

That it all disappear)
I yearn for all my problems to evaporate.