April
Wither Away Lyrics

Do you wanna live, do you wanna live
Are you willing to truly experience life

Do you wanna live your life at fault
Are you willing to accept your mistakes and live with them

Do you wanna live, do you wanna live
Do you want to live with the fullness of life or just exist

Do you wanna live your life at all
Do you truly want to live your life and experience it or just go through the motions

It's another day, a re-arrange, waking up in so much pain,
Each day feels the same and becomes mundane, waking up feeling the pain and sorrow again

I couldn't change, I backtrack to who I once was,
Unable to change, return to the version of oneself that was once happy

backtrack, oh what have I become
Looking back on one's life and realizing the person they have become

When I see the old me and how happy I used to be
Reflecting on the person one used to be and how happy they used to feel

God, I wish I was free, and hell, I wish I was enough
Wanting to be free from the current state of mind and feeling inadequate

For you to see, that I'm a better person now
Wanting others to see that one has changed for the better

I gave my word to keep
Making a promise to oneself to keep moving forward

And I won't let you down
Being accountable to oneself and vowing not to disappoint oneself

My minds at ease when I lose hold of everything
Feeling at peace when letting go of control

I've been taking my time hoping that I'm alright
Moving at a slower pace to make sure everything is okay

Oh, the keeper of time, reminds me that I'm out of my mind
Realizing that time passes too quickly and feeling overwhelmed

I won't find the key to my dread
Unable to find the solution to one's fear

I won't find the pieces that I'm missing
Unable to find the missing pieces to complete oneself

And I don't want to be a ghost in my family's dreams
Not wanting to be forgotten or fade away from one's family's memories

A faint reminder that this life is more than what it seems
Remembering that life is complex and has many layers

I'd build a wall and behind it is my better half
Creating a barrier to protect oneself and reveal one's true self to no one

I'm trapped with what I lack
Feeling trapped because of what one doesn't have or is lacking

I've been searching all night, I'm waiting for the light
Continuing to search for answers and waiting for clarity

So I can go another day
Waiting for the answer to continue living

Do you, do you, do you want to live at fault
Asking if one is willing to live with the consequences of their actions

It's not enough for me
Not wanting to settle for mediocrity or the status quo

Do you, do you, do you want to live at all
Asking if one wants to live life to the fullest or just exist

And I know that it's hard to break down
Acknowledging that it's difficult to face oneself and make changes

And I know that it's hard to stay around
Recognizing how tempting it is to give up and walk away

You struggle to fake that your happy and safe
Struggling to pretend everything is okay when it's not

But know in my heart, we feel the same, and we'll be okay
Realizing that others struggle with similar issues and finding comfort in this fact