Everything began in 1988 when Jan L. from Bochum, Germany used his legendar… Read Full Bio ↴Everything began in 1988 when Jan L. from Bochum, Germany used his legendary C64 for combining electronic sounds with organ-sequences and vinyl-elements. Two years later his C64 was detached by Amiga 500, developing to 4 tracks and 8 bit. X-FUSION was born!

1991 his first demo tape called 'Syndromic Noise' was finished. In the following year Jan extended the equipment with his first own synthesizer – the Kawai K4 – and his style of music finally got a designation. During that period the second demo-tape was created and could be defined as Hardtrance. 1993 was a very eventful year for X-FUSION. At several gigs and techno-parties such as the Innovation Rave (Fantasy/Dülmen) Jan showed his abilities live in front of almost 2000 fans. Not at least he extended his equipment again with the second synthesizer Roland JD800. The following year brought up another three demos until 1997 when the Amiga 500 was replaced by a PC. The style of music evolved into techno/acid/house just to the year 2000 when his first tracks including vocals were produced.

Because of the fact that music was always a method for Jan to express his emotions, it was a small wonder that his style got more atmospheric and became more dusky, at least because he always had an inclination for dark sounds in private. Also by using vocals he got the possibility of expressing his deepest feelings lyrically. 2001 and 2002 two EBM-shaped demos 'Evillive' and the 'Blackout'-EP were produced. Because of those Jan signed his first label-deal at the Indie-Label Dark Dimensions/Scanner in the following year and his first official album 'Dial D For Demons' was released. Nearly one year later (2004) the second album came out: 'Beyond The Pale', which immediately entered the alternative charts. After which one can not think of an EBM-world without X-FUSION. But that´s not the end.... his musically enormous spectrum was proved by the album „Antipode“ of the side-project NOISUF-X, coming out 2005, that in opposite to X-FUSION it dedicates itself to the distorted industrial sounds. But “ANTIPODE” should not be seen at any time as a creative break for X-FUSION, because just in the same year the new double-album „DEMONS OF HATE“ had been brought into life and surprised its listeners with further developed and innovative sound-structures.
In the year 2007 another successful album “ROTTEN TO THE CORE“ was released. It came in 3 different versions and reached position 2 in the german DAC-Charts although most of the songs were not produced for the dance floor. With "VAST ABYSM", released in a limited metal box, X-FUSION celebrates in 2008 the 20th birthday of the band. This album also reached position 2 in the DAC-Charts.

And just about one year later "ULTIMA RATIO" came out.. It again reached position 2 in the DAC Charts, Position 3 in the GEWC Charts and position 9 in the DUC Charts.

to be continued...

Haunted
X-Fusion Lyrics

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We may not be in love but I love you
I don't think that you can tell the difference
I get torn apart when you're distant
Just tell me if you think there's something missin
Cuz you don't want me
You dont want me
The way I want you
They way I wanted you

And that's what haunts me
That's what haunts me
When I'm not with you
So Ima hold you tight
At least just for the night
Cuz I don't know what you do at home
So Ima hold you tight
At least just for the night
Cuz I don't know what you do at home
I'm losin my mind
Thoughts in overdrive
My demons come out when I'm alone
So hold me tight
So I don't lose sight
And get carried away by my wrongs
My health bad, I need help bad
Before I turn to
Somethin more destructive
I got monsters I been cursed with
Try to keep in inside, lose them
Will I
Ever be at peace with myself
Maybe in time
I been using people as distractions
Pick and choose a lotta women that find me attractive
They just leave my wheels spinnin, I don't feel the traction
Lately I been feelin like I'm livin life backwards
Think I need a backwoods
I don't even smoke much but you made it a habit
So B about to roll up
It's a roller coaster
Climbed so high just to drop when its over
Things I never told ya
Now I gotta wait
For another day
I pray that I make it out okay
In the end will I be strong alone
I don't wanna depend on someone
I can't stand be strung along
I'm better on my own
I'm losin my mind
Thoughts in overdrive
My demons come out when I'm alone
I'm losin my mind

Thoughts in overdrive
My demons come out when I'm alone

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to X-Fusion's song "Haunted" convey feelings of unrequited love, emotional pain, and internal struggles. The singer acknowledges that they may not be in a romantic relationship with the person they love, but they still feel a strong emotional attachment to them. They express the difficulty they face when that person is distant or unavailable, feeling torn apart by the longing for their presence. However, the singer is aware of the one-sided nature of their affection and the haunting feeling it creates. They fear being haunted by the unrequited love and the pain it brings when they are not with the person they desire. The singer attempts to hold on tight, even if it's just for one night, to keep the feeling of connection alive and to distract themselves from their own demons that come out in moments of solitude. They express their desire for peace with themselves and their struggle to find distractions through relationships with others. Ultimately, they question their ability to find strength and happiness on their own, fearing that they will be forever haunted by their unfulfilled desires.

Line by Line Meaning

We may not be in love but I love you
Even though we may not be in a romantic relationship, I still have strong feelings of love for you

I don't think that you can tell the difference
I doubt that you are able to distinguish between the love I feel for you and being in an actual relationship

I get torn apart when you're distant
It deeply hurts me when you become emotionally distant or when we are physically separated

Just tell me if you think there's something missin
Please communicate with me if you feel like there is something lacking in our connection

Cuz you don't want me
Because you don't desire me or have romantic feelings towards me

You dont want me
You don't feel the same way about me

The way I want you
You don't reciprocate the level of affection and desire I have for you

The way I wanted you
You don't fulfill the desires and expectations I had for our relationship

And that's what haunts me
This disparity between our feelings and desires is what troubles and preoccupies me

When I'm not with you
Especially when we are apart or not spending time together

So Ima hold you tight
So I will embrace you tightly

At least just for the night
Even if it's only for tonight

Cuz I don't know what you do at home
Because I am unsure of your actions or behavior when you are at home

I'm losin my mind
I am experiencing a mental breakdown or feeling mentally unstable

Thoughts in overdrive
My thoughts are racing and overwhelming

My demons come out when I'm alone
My inner struggles and negative emotions become more prominent when I am by myself

So hold me tight
Therefore, please hold me tightly

So I don't lose sight
So I don't lose perspective or direction

And get carried away by my wrongs
And prevent myself from being consumed by my past mistakes or regrets

My health bad, I need help bad
My physical and mental well-being is deteriorating, and I am in desperate need of assistance

Before I turn to
Before I resort to

Somethin more destructive
Engaging in something even more harmful or self-destructive

I got monsters I been cursed with
I have personal demons and struggles that I have been afflicted with

Try to keep in inside, lose them
I attempt to conceal these internal conflicts, but I struggle to overcome them

Will I
I wonder if I will

Ever be at peace with myself
Ever find inner peace or contentment within myself

Maybe in time
Perhaps with the passage of time

I been using people as distractions
I have been using other individuals as a way to divert my attention or avoid facing my own issues

Pick and choose a lotta women that find me attractive
I select and engage with various women who are attracted to me

They just leave my wheels spinnin, I don't feel the traction
However, these encounters only leave me feeling stuck or without a sense of progress or fulfillment

Lately I been feelin like I'm livin life backwards
Recently, I have a sense of living in a way that goes against the natural flow or order of life

Think I need a backwoods
I believe I may require solitude or isolation

I don't even smoke much but you made it a habit
Although I am not a heavy smoker, because of you, it has become a regular practice for me

So B about to roll up
So, I am preparing to smoke a backwoods cigarette

It's a roller coaster
Life feels like a wild ride, filled with ups and downs

Climbed so high just to drop when its over
I have experienced moments of great success or happiness, only to have them abruptly end or collapse

Things I never told ya
There are secrets or thoughts that I have never shared with you

Now I gotta wait
Now I have to be patient

For another day
In anticipation of a future day

I pray that I make it out okay
I hope and fervently pray that I will emerge from this situation or state in a positive manner

In the end will I be strong alone
Ultimately, will I have the strength and resilience to stand on my own, without relying on others

I don't wanna depend on someone
I do not want to rely or be dependent on another person