1) Makale Hawkins, known by his stage name YESTERDAY and formerly by LIL COUPE, is a hip-hop artist from Texarkana, Texas, who is currently based in Los Angeles. Hawkins gained initial popularity in mid-2016 with tracks such as JEALOUSY and OK KOOL, creating plugg music early on in the genre’s development. Several projects under the moniker LIL COUPE were released in 2016, 2017, and 2018, such as Mission Impossible, 187 CUTTHROAT DRIVE, Newborn, WOCKHARDT TEXAS RANGER, and FALLEN ANGEL. In 2021, he rebranded himself as YESTERDAY and released an EP titled DAY AFTER TOMORROW. It took about a year to revise his new sound into a rough prototype of what it is today; thus, INTERIOR MONOLOGUE was born. In October 2022, YESTERDAY released DON’T FORGET 2 BREATHE, a 10-track album further encapsulating and refining his new sound. YESTERDAY is signed to BIGBABYGUCCI’s independent record label, Better Temperatures, and released his first album under the label in February 2023, entitled TOMORROW’S TOO LATE. The album shows much improvement over any of his previous sounds and is a testament to YESTERDAY’s insane work ethic. The dark, ambient drawl in Hawkins' music has continued to attract the ear of fans, and, as he and his Better Temperatures labelmates continue to rise, you do not want to wait until tomorrow to get hip to YESTERDAY.
2) New Jersey-born Jerry Kirwin began the yesterday project in mid-to-late 2016. Initially inspired to learn guitar at the age of nine after playing Guitar Hero, he joined and left a number of bands before embarking up this R&B and Hip-Hop centered experimental project. He then became interested in music’s “emo” subculture, the genre he now describes his music as. yesterday can be heard playing the guitar the majority in his music, and while he doesn’t always produce his songs, he outsources to artists with similar interests, including killedmyself and guccihighwaters. He’s released two EPs: 2016’s the love ep and 2017’s dead man walking.
Never Let Go
YESTERDAY Lyrics
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They know how I’m acting on the fucking drugs
Acting different ‘cause they know what they know
Normal question like how are you, how ‘bout you?
Second question “What you're on?” What I'm on?
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
I took two Xans now my mood right
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
What I’m doing is too much for ya
She said stop but I’m still pouring
Numb by the drugs, still numb in the morning
I know what I’m doing, I don’t need no warnings
Thinking of money, but no need to worry
Now these jokes about me these guys acting funny
Never thought I’m wrong but I’m tripping on my past (Past)
You think that I’m fine but that’s just the way I act (Act)
Swear I’ll get along I’m just gonna live it fast (Fast)
She’ll be on my mind but I won’t show no reactions (No reactions)
Clouds in my head & my head in the clouds
If you wanna tell me some then better tell me now
It could be tomorrow that the day I go has come
I don’t wanna die but some day I will be gone
Yeah I’m bad news, you know that I’m bad news
Said I’m past you but I can’t forget you
Yeah I’m bad news, you know that I’m bad news
Said I’m past you but I can’t forget you
They know how I’m acting on the fucking drugs
Acting different ‘cause they know what they know
Normal question like how are you, how ‘bout you?
Second question “What you're on?” What I'm on?
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
I took two Xans now my mood right
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
I let her go now it’s too quiet
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
I took two Xans now my mood right
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
I let her go now it’s too quiet
I feel so down, act like I’m fine
Took two Xans now my mood right
In my head, yeah she was right
Let her go now it’s too quiet
Feel so down, act like I’m fine
Took two Xans now my mood right
In my head, yeah she was right
Let her go now it’s too quiet
Feel so down, I act like I’m fine
Took two Xans now my mood right
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
I took two Xans now my mood right
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
I let her go now it’s too quiet
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
I took two Xans now my mood right
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
I let her go now it’s too quiet
In these lyrics, the artist is describing the effects and consequences of drug use on their behavior and relationships. They start by acknowledging that people around them are aware of their altered state while on drugs, leading to them acting differently than usual. The artist mentions how normal questions are now focused on what drugs they are on, indicating that this has become a significant part of their identity.
The artist confesses to feeling down but pretending to be fine, using Xanax to improve their mood. However, this comes at the cost of feeling trapped in their own thoughts. They reflect on a past relationship, admitting that they made a mistake by letting go of someone, and now the quietness amplifies their regret. The artist acknowledges that their behavior and lifestyle might be excessive and worrisome to others, but they feel the need to chase money and live fast without heeding any warnings.
Amidst the fog of drugs and their conflicted emotions, the artist recognizes that their mental state is clouded, with their thoughts consumed by their past and future. They express a desire for honesty from others, as they are aware that any day could be their last. While they don't want to die, they also acknowledge the inevitability of their eventual demise.
Throughout the song, the artist repeatedly admits to being bad news, but unable to forget someone from the past. They continue to act like everything is fine, even though they feel down, and rely on Xanax to alter their mood. The consequence of their choices is that they are stuck in their own thoughts, regretting letting go of someone and now experiencing an unsettling silence.
In summary, these lyrics delve into the consequences of drug use on the artist's behavior and mental state. They depict the struggle between feeling down and pretending to be fine, all while being trapped in their own thoughts. The lyrics also touch on regret and longing for a past relationship, acknowledging the influence of drugs on the artist's actions and emotions. Ultimately, the song shows the artist grappling with the weight of their choices and the repercussions they bring.
Line by Line Meaning
Yesterday
Reflecting on the past
They know how I’m acting on the fucking drugs
People are aware of my behavior under the influence of drugs
Acting different ‘cause they know what they know
Changing my behavior because others are aware of my actions
Normal question like how are you, how ‘bout you?
Typical polite inquiry about well-being
Second question “What you're on?” What I'm on?
Following up with a more personal question, asking what substances I'm using
I feel so down, I act like I’m fine
Despite feeling low, I pretend to be okay
I took two Xans now my mood right
By consuming two Xanax pills, my mood has improved
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
Feeling mentally stuck, confirming someone's previous assessment
I let her go now it’s too quiet
After letting go of a person, my surroundings have become too silent
What I’m doing is too much for ya
My actions are overwhelming for you
She said stop but I’m still pouring
Despite her request to stop, I continue to indulge
Numb by the drugs, still numb in the morning
The drugs make me emotionally detached, and the numbness remains in the morning
I know what I’m doing, I don’t need no warnings
I am aware of my actions and don't require any cautionary advice
Thinking of money, but no need to worry
Focused on wealth, but there's no need for concern
Now these jokes about me these guys acting funny
People make jokes about me, and these guys are behaving strangely
Never thought I’m wrong but I’m tripping on my past (Past)
Never considered myself at fault, but I'm stumbling over past mistakes
You think that I’m fine but that’s just the way I act (Act)
You believe I'm okay, but it's just a facade
Swear I’ll get along I’m just gonna live it fast (Fast)
I promise to keep moving forward and live life at a rapid pace
She’ll be on my mind but I won’t show no reactions (No reactions)
She'll occupy my thoughts, but I won't display any emotional response
Clouds in my head & my head in the clouds
Confusion and daydreaming consume my thoughts
If you wanna tell me some then better tell me now
If you have something to say, it's best to say it immediately
It could be tomorrow that the day I go has come
The day I depart could arrive as soon as tomorrow
I don’t wanna die but some day I will be gone
I don't desire death, but eventually, I will no longer exist
Yeah I’m bad news, you know that I’m bad news
I'm a negative influence, and you are aware of it
Said I’m past you but I can’t forget you
Claimed to have moved on from you, but I still can't forget you
Feel so down, act like I’m fine
Experiencing sadness but pretending to be okay
Took two Xans now my mood right
My mood has improved after taking two Xanax pills
In my head, yeah she was right
In my thoughts, acknowledging that she was correct
Let her go, now it’s too quiet
After releasing her, the silence becomes overwhelming
I feel so down, act like I’m fine
Despite feeling low, I pretend to be okay
Took two Xans now my mood right
My mood has improved after taking two Xanax pills
In my head, yeah she was right
In my thoughts, affirming that she was right
Let her go, now it’s too quiet
After letting go, the absence becomes too silent
Feel so down, act like I’m fine
Experiencing sadness but pretending to be okay
Took two Xans now my mood right
My mood has improved after taking two Xanax pills
In my head, yeah she was right
In my thoughts, agreeing that she was correct
Let her go, now it’s too quiet
After releasing her, the silence becomes overwhelming
I feel so down, act like I’m fine
Despite feeling low, I pretend to be okay
Took two Xans now my mood right
My mood has improved after taking two Xanax pills
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
Feeling mentally stuck, confirming someone's previous assessment
I let her go now it’s too quiet
After letting go of a person, my surroundings have become too silent
I feel so down, act like I’m fine
Experiencing sadness but pretending to be okay
Took two Xans now my mood right
My mood has improved after taking two Xanax pills
I’m trapped in my head, guess that she was right
Feeling mentally stuck, confirming someone's previous assessment
I let her go now it’s too quiet
After letting go of a person, my surroundings have become too silent
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Noel Derksen
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Brynlee
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Jesus has helped me so much after losing my 16yr son... Depression. Anxiety... He will never let go of me .. I love you Jesus
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The Struggling Musician
This is true living testimony on your life time. I praise God that you never let go on him
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Sorry for your loss
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