1) Makale Hawkins, known by his stage name YESTERDAY and formerly by LIL COUPE, is a hip-hop artist from Texarkana, Texas, who is currently based in Los Angeles. Hawkins gained initial popularity in mid-2016 with tracks such as JEALOUSY and OK KOOL, creating plugg music early on in the genre’s development. Several projects under the moniker LIL COUPE were released in 2016, 2017, and 2018, such as Mission Impossible, 187 CUTTHROAT DRIVE, Newborn, WOCKHARDT TEXAS RANGER, and FALLEN ANGEL. In 2021, he rebranded himself as YESTERDAY and released an EP titled DAY AFTER TOMORROW. It took about a year to revise his new sound into a rough prototype of what it is today; thus, INTERIOR MONOLOGUE was born. In October 2022, YESTERDAY released DON’T FORGET 2 BREATHE, a 10-track album further encapsulating and refining his new sound. YESTERDAY is signed to BIGBABYGUCCI’s independent record label, Better Temperatures, and released his first album under the label in February 2023, entitled TOMORROW’S TOO LATE. The album shows much improvement over any of his previous sounds and is a testament to YESTERDAY’s insane work ethic. The dark, ambient drawl in Hawkins' music has continued to attract the ear of fans, and, as he and his Better Temperatures labelmates continue to rise, you do not want to wait until tomorrow to get hip to YESTERDAY.
2) New Jersey-born Jerry Kirwin began the yesterday project in mid-to-late 2016. Initially inspired to learn guitar at the age of nine after playing Guitar Hero, he joined and left a number of bands before embarking up this R&B and Hip-Hop centered experimental project. He then became interested in music’s “emo” subculture, the genre he now describes his music as. yesterday can be heard playing the guitar the majority in his music, and while he doesn’t always produce his songs, he outsources to artists with similar interests, including killedmyself and guccihighwaters. He’s released two EPs: 2016’s the love ep and 2017’s dead man walking.
before the storm
YESTERDAY Lyrics
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No matter how hard you try
You always seem to disappoint people
I don't want to be this anymore
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to fucking live
But I have to convince myself
That this life is worth living
Are something to live for
I've been saving this for the weekend
An eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions
My hair is split, I'm cutting the lose ends
My brain is shit, I'm tired of trying
I'm sick of this patience
Logic comes to dying
I knew you were lying but I didn't care
You were something to stop my self hatred
I didn't dare ask a question
You're always on my mind
Intervention for loving too many times
Did I mention this pain is a way of life?
You learn to live with it
Or you let it eat you alive
I'd kill myself just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden i'd kill myself
Just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden i'd kill myself
Just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden
Who the fuck am I
Just another psychopathic little
Prick you decide
It's much better here without me
Cause you're feeling alive
All I ever did was love
You but everything dies
There's a monster in my head
That's rippin' me apart
Vacant spaces in the places where
We both would start
To separate and every day I
Blow my candles out
I sit inside but that's not
Something you could care about
My heartbeat has grown tired of the wind
If you don't love me anymore than
Please don't bother to attend
I'm a waste of energy I'll never
See the point in this
Arms length, this love is tragic
I'm not something you would miss
I'm not something you would miss
I'm not something you would miss, no
I'd kill myself just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden i'd kill myself
Just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden i'd kill myself
Just to be myself
Don't even ask the question
All I'll be is a burden
I'm so fucking lost without you
They don't really care about you
They don't really care about you
They asked me if I've okay
I tell them I'm fine i don't
I don't think I've been okay for a while
The lyrics of "Before the Storm" by YESTERDAY depict the struggles and internal battles of someone who is feeling overwhelmed and burdened by their own existence. The first paragraph highlights the constant feeling of disappointing others and the desire to escape from this state of being. They express a longing to find meaning in life and believe that the people and places around them should provide a reason to keep going.
In the second paragraph, the lyrics showcase a person using substances, in this case marijuana, to numb their emotions. They describe feeling mentally exhausted and tired of trying to make things better. The mention of self-hatred suggests a deep-rooted pain within themselves. They admit that even though they knew someone was lying to them, they still held on to that person as a distraction from their self-loathing.
The chorus repeats the desperate desire to be themselves, even if it means taking extreme measures such as killing themselves. This expresses a sense of self-deprecation and feeling like a burden to others. The repetition emphasizes their deep longing to escape their current state and find a sense of identity.
The final paragraph delves into a feeling of worthlessness and a distorted sense of self. They see themselves as just another psychopathic person and believe that others would be better off without them. The mention of a monster in their head tearing them apart suggests inner turmoil and mental anguish. They express a sense of isolation and a lack of concern from others, feeling like a waste of energy and unimportant.
Overall, these lyrics portray a person who is struggling with their own self-worth and seeking a way out of their pain. The repeated refrain of killing themselves to be themselves highlights the desperation and hopelessness they feel, while also emphasizing the need for self-acceptance and understanding. The lyrics paint a dark and raw picture of internal struggles and the longing for relief from the burdens of life.
Line by Line Meaning
And the funny thing is
It's ironic that no matter what you do
No matter how hard you try
No matter how much effort you put in
You always seem to disappoint people
You constantly end up letting others down
I don't want to be this anymore
I no longer want to be in this state
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to exist in this place anymore
I don't want to fucking live
I don't want to continue living my life
But I have to convince myself
However, I need to persuade myself
That this life is worth living
That there is value in continuing to live this life
That these people and places
That the individuals and locations around me
Are something to live for
Are reasons to continue living
I've been saving this for the weekend
I've been reserving this for the weekend
An eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions
A portion of rolled cigarettes to numb my feelings
My hair is split, I'm cutting the lose ends
My life is falling apart, I'm attempting to fix the broken parts
My brain is shit, I'm tired of trying
My mind is a mess, I'm exhausted from attempting
I'm sick of this patience
I'm tired of being patient
Logic comes to dying
Rational thinking leads to thoughts of death
I knew you were lying but I didn't care
I was aware of your dishonesty but it didn't matter to me
You were something to stop my self hatred
You were someone who prevented my self-loathing
I didn't dare ask a question
I didn't have the courage to inquire
You're always on my mind
You are constantly in my thoughts
Intervention for loving too many times
An intervention to address my tendency to love excessively
Did I mention this pain is a way of life?
Have I already indicated that this pain is a permanent state of being?
You learn to live with it
You become accustomed to living with it
Or you let it eat you alive
Or you allow it to consume you completely
I'd kill myself just to be myself
I would end my life in order to truly exist
Don't even ask the question
Don't even bother asking
All I'll be is a burden
All I would amount to is a weight on others
Who the fuck am I
Who am I supposed to be
Just another psychopathic little prick you decide
Simply another mentally disturbed individual, you can judge
It's much better here without me
It's significantly improved when I'm not around
Cause you're feeling alive
Because you are experiencing vitality
All I ever did was love
All I ever did was express affection
You but everything dies
You, but everything eventually comes to an end
There's a monster in my head
There's a terrifying presence in my mind
That's rippin' me apart
That is tearing me apart
Vacant spaces in the places where
Empty voids in the locations where
We both would start
We both used to begin
To separate and every day I
To drift apart and every day I
Blow my candles out
Extinguish my hopes and dreams
I sit inside but that's not
I stay isolated but that isn't
Something you could care about
Something you would concern yourself with
My heartbeat has grown tired of the wind
My heart is exhausted from the constant turmoil
If you don't love me anymore than
If you no longer have feelings for me
Please don't bother to attend
Please don't bother to show up
I'm a waste of energy I'll never
I'm not worth the effort, I'll never
See the point in this
See the purpose in all of this
Arms length, this love is tragic
At a distance, this love is sorrowful
I'm not something you would miss
I'm not someone you would long for
I'm so fucking lost without you
I feel incredibly lost and empty without you
They don't really care about you
They don't truly care about you
They asked me if I've okay
They inquired if I'm fine
I tell them I'm fine i don't
I tell them I'm fine, even though I'm not
I don't think I've been okay for a while
I believe I haven't been okay for quite some time
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
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yesterday
man this support has been crazy lately. tysm <333
homebody
Can me and you do a collaboration my music is similar to yours and I think we'd sound amazing on a track 🙏🏽 dm @zaaysings keep it up your amazing bro
Zachary K
I love your music man
Nuno Deodato
yesterday U r on point brother.
That line "I killed myself, just to be myself" was stucked in my head for a while...
9tails kyle
that's cause your crispy
SwiftSidious
just heard of you with i love it when you walk away , which I had downloaded. Can't wait for more of your stuff :)
Alone 单独
'i'm so fucking lost without you' Love it <3
Kaladin
"All I ever did was love you, but everything dies" Hate how true this is 💔
Yeetmiester 07
My only friend died in a car crash yesterday my cat died last week
rea
Another song, another medicine for my depression