Worth It
Yxl Lyrics

I, I wonder if I did this all right
Reflecting on past decisions and questioning if they were the right ones

Did I give my life purpose
Questioning if their life has meaning and fulfillment

Did I make it all worth it
Questioning if the struggles and sacrifices were worth the outcomes

I'm still not perfect in my eyes
Acknowledging personal flaws and imperfections

Every day thinking bout the next
Constantly preoccupied with the future

Will I ever be free from this stress
Questioning if there will ever be a time without stress or pressure

The pressure I put on myself to
Recognizing that the source of pressure comes from within

Move on to better things
Striving for improvement and success

I'm obsessed
Recognizing an unhealthy fixation on success

My state of mind
Mental state or emotional well-being

Be in a state of grinding
Commitment to hard work and effort

Finding free time is like finding a diamond
Rarity of leisure time due to focus on work

I been going at it like an addict
Recognizing addiction-like behavior towards work and success

It's an automatic habit that I've had
Referring to the need for success as instinctual behavior

Can't be mad about it
Accepting personal choices and limitations

But I do look back and wonder
Reflecting on past decisions and contemplating their impact

Was it all a blunder
Questioning if past decisions were mistakes

My hunger for success
Intense desire for achievement

Left me a recipe for disaster
Desire for success led to negative consequences

And that's the, thing I wanna say
In conclusion, this is the message I want to convey

I traded my youth thinking that one day
Sacrificed youth and time for success

I can sit back, relax but honestly
Life of relaxation and contentment seems unobtainable

Was it worth it? Man it's hard to say
Questioning if the sacrifice and struggle was worth the outcomes

Now look what I've done
Reflecting on current achievements and successes

And how far I've come
Acknowledging personal growth and development

I got the things that I thought I'd want but
Realizing that material possessions do not lead to true happiness

Now that I'm here, I still got problems
Despite achievements, still experiencing personal struggles or conflicts

Uh lemme think
Pause to gather thoughts or organize ideas

I got money in the bank
Financial stability or success

Graduated from a great
Educational achievement and personal success

University with a degree
Completion of higher education and academic success

And now I'm getting paid
Financial success or compensation for hard work

Everybody looking at me and they think my life is made
Perception of personal success by others

But did I make my life
Questioning if personal success was determined by oneself or external factors

What I wanted I
Reflecting on personal desires and aspirations

Can't say that's the truth
Uncertainty or ambiguity in personal desires

Cause I was blinded by my desire
Intense desire or ambition causing distortion of personal perspective

To try to be the best I could
Striving for personal excellence and success

But in that pursuit
Reflecting on the negative consequences of one's ambitions

I got confused
Became uncertain, conflicted or lost during journey for success

Thought if I slowed down I would lose
Fear of decreased success or failure if momentum decreases

I used to think I'd be happy next
Belief that happiness is derived from future accomplishments or success

But success doesn't mean happiness
Acknowledge that happiness cannot be bought or solely achieved through success

I wonder where did everything go wrong
Reflecting on negative aspects of personal journey

Thought I got my goals but I'm feeling lost
Achieving goals but lacking personal direction or clarity

And something about all of this feels off
Intuition or underlying feeling that something is not right

Did I really end up where I belong
Uncertainty or questioning of personal destination or purpose

The relationships I missed
Reflecting on personal sacrifices or missed opportunities for personal relationships

Man it's crazy I just wish
Expressing longing or regret for past personal choices or actions

I would've known it'd be like this
Reflecting on personal uncertainty or lack of insight in past decisions

Would I have done the same things or
Reflecting on how past choices and actions would be different with hindsight

Would I have lived my life some more
Reflecting on missed opportunities or personal regrets

I don't know what I'm fighting for
Uncertainty or confusion in personal goals or ambitions