Helpless
ZEI Lyrics

I've been down for a while now
I've been feeling low for quite some time

I'm just tryna pick myself up off the ground
I'm trying to recover and get back on my feet

Got some brothers down to lend a hand and help me out
I have some friends who are willing to help me through this tough time

I just need to get myself out
I just need to find a way to overcome this situation myself

Swear I don't need anybody's help
I promise that I can handle this on my own

I am a little bit helpless
I feel a bit lost and unsure of what to do

I do not know how to cope with
I don't know how to deal with

All this anxiety tryna be
The anxiety I feel while trying to become

Something I'm not, Something I'm not
Someone I'm not, Someone I'm not

I am just finding me, Finding me yeah
I'm trying to discover who I truly am

I am just tryna be, Tryna be better
I'm striving to become a better version of myself

I'm just tryna get, Tryna get stronger
I'm doing my best to become stronger

But I'm a regretter, Yeah I'm a regretter
But I tend to regret my past actions

Why can't I get better, Why can't I get better
I'm wondering why I'm not improving

I need someone to hold, I need someone to know
I need someone to support me and understand my struggles

That I need help to grow, Someone to give me some hope
I acknowledge that I require assistance to overcome my difficulties, and I need someone to inspire me

Depression and anxiety, They've taken out the fight in me
Depression and anxiety have drained me of my strength

I wanna go and take control, And do this shit all on my own
I want to take charge and handle this situation myself

I don't want nobody else around
I don't want anyone else to be involved

This feeling of pain that it gives, I'm
The pain it causes me, I'm

Done takings dives inside of my mind, cause I don't wanna take a swim, my
I'm tired of exploring my thoughts because it's like diving into murky waters

Eyes to the sky, my feet on the ground
I'm staying positive while keeping my feet planted firmly in reality

But I just wanna hear the sound of
But what I truly want to hear is the sound of

My family proud, the crowds getting loud
My family being proud of me and receiving recognition from audiences

So all these thoughts are getting drowned
Therefore, I'm trying to drown out all these thoughts

I was surrounded by so many, but still felt alone
Even when I was among many people, I still felt lonely

I never called for help when anyone would hit my phone
I never asked for help when someone tried to reach out to me

I'm selfish, you see that I'm restless
I'm aware that I'm acting selfish and can't sit still

And my mind is reckless, I'm feeling so helpless
My thoughts are all over the place, and I'm feeling powerless

When I'm really just jealous of the ones that are tryna be better
I'm envious of people who are trying to improve themselves

I've been so cold, like I'm under the weather
I've been unresponsive to others as if I'm ill

I'm tryna remember the happiness that I once felt, now I'm alone I got no one else
I'm trying to recollect the joy I used to experience, but now I'm by myself with nobody else

Like a dirty record, put me on the fucking shelf
I feel like a worthless object that should be discarded

I'm so done with this world
I'm extremely fed up with everything around me

And I'm falling through a hole, Gonna take this fall I'm all alone
And I'm falling into a bottomless pit, and I'm going to bear the consequences alone

Drowning in my own depression, Feels like it's a lesson
I'm struggling with my own despair, and it seems like there's a moral to it

But I don't wanna be sad and lonely, Taking this fall, Taking it pretty slowly
However, I don't want to remain sad and lonely, and I'm taking this all slowly

When will I hit the ground, When will I hit the ground
When will I finally hit rock bottom?

But I'm so sober someone please help me
However, I'm sober, and I need someone to give me a hand

I feel cold most of these days, When will it end when will I change
I feel cold and isolated most of the time, and I'm wondering when it will change

It feels like eternity, feels like a race, That's never ending in its place
It seems never-ending and torturous, like a never-ending and unwinnable race

I don't understand how I can keep it off on my own pace
I don't know how to cope with this on my own