She has released a collection of EPs ("Lice", "Patched Up", "Loveworm", "Space Cadet"), her debut full-length album "Fake It Flowers" in 2020, her sophomore album "Beatopia" in 2022, and her hit singles "Glue Song" and "the way things go" in 2023. Along with her EPs, albums, and singles, she's released songs featuring popular artists like Laufey, Clairo, Cavetown, PinkPantheress, and Luna Li. Her sound has evolved over the years, drawing influence from 90s alternative rock and space rock.
Eighteen
beabadoobee Lyrics
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Sometimes I get scared of growing up
Entering a world with broken dreams
Sometimes I get scared and throw it all up
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen when I can't ride a bike
Still hang onto my sheets during storms
In my bed I'm ten but I can't shut my eyes
I still wish I wore a school uniform
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen with a messy room
Still wonder what lingers under my bed at night
Kinda wish I stayed at my mother's home
Are we gonna know what it's like to be blind?
'Cause June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
In this song, beabadoobee expresses her fear of growing up and taking on adult responsibilities. She starts by saying that she doesn't want to be eighteen if it means having responsibilities. She feels scared of growing up and entering a world full of broken dreams. She also mentions that sometimes she gets scared and throws it all up, indicating a sense of overwhelm and perhaps coping mechanisms that she is still figuring out.
The second verse continues with her fears and desires. She mentions that she doesn't want to be eighteen if it means she still can't ride a bike or let go of her sheets during storms. She feels like she is still ten years old in her bed and wishes she still wore a school uniform. This could represent a desire to hold onto the simplicity and comfort of childhood, rather than dealing with the complexities of adulthood.
In the final verse, beabadoobee talks about other aspects of growing up that scare her. She doesn't want to be eighteen with a messy room, and still wonders what lingers under her bed at night. She kind of wishes she could stay at her mother's home, indicating a sense of longing for the safety and security of home. The last line, "Are we gonna know what it's like to be blind?" suggests a fear of the unknown and what the future holds.
Overall, this song captures the common anxiety and fears that come with growing up and taking on adult responsibilities. The artist uses her personal experiences and emotions to create a relatable track for her audience.
Line by Line Meaning
Don't wanna be eighteen with responsibilities
I don't want to be eighteen and have to deal with adult responsibilities.
Sometimes I get scared of growing up
Sometimes I am afraid of the idea of growing up and becoming an adult.
Entering a world with broken dreams
I am entering the world where dreams do not always come true.
Sometimes I get scared and throw it all up
At times, I get so scared that I feel like giving up and throwing everything away.
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
The date June the third is approaching, and I am still not ready to face it.
Don't wanna be eighteen when I can't ride a bike
I don't want to be eighteen years old and still don't know how to ride a bicycle.
Still hang onto my sheets during storms
I still hold onto my sheets tightly during thunderstorms.
In my bed I'm ten but I can't shut my eyes
When I'm in bed, I sometimes feel like I'm only ten years old, but I can't seem to fall asleep.
I still wish I wore a school uniform
I still long for the comfort and familiarity of wearing a school uniform.
Don't wanna be eighteen with a messy room
I don't want to be eighteen years old and still have a messy room.
Still wonder what lingers under my bed at night
I still have moments of wondering what scary things might be hiding under my bed at night.
Kinda wish I stayed at my mother's home
At times, I miss the comfort and safety of being at my mother's home.
Are we gonna know what it's like to be blind?
I wonder if we will ever really understand what it feels like to be completely in the dark or blind.
Writer(s): beatrice laus
Contributed by Mackenzie O. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@llinhir
Don't wanna be eighteen with responsibilities
Sometimes I get scared of growing up
Entering a world with broken dreams
Sometimes I get scared and throw it all up
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen when I can't ride a bike
Still hide under my sheets during storms
In my bed I'm ten, but I can't shut my eyes
I still wish I wore a school uniform
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen with a messy room
Still wonder what lingers under my bed at night
Kinda wish I stayed in my mother's womb
Only then, I'll know what it's like to be blind
'Cause June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
@elisesimone613
~Lyrics~
Don't wanna be eighteen with responsibilities
Sometimes I get scared of growing up
Entering a world with broken dreams
Sometimes I get scared and throw it all up
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen when I can't ride a bike
Still hang onto my sheets during storms
In my bed I'm ten but I can't shut my eyes
I still wish I wore a school uniform
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen with a messy room
Still wonder what lingers under my bed at night
Kinda wish I stayed at my mother's home
Are we gonna know what it's like to be blind?
'Cause June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
❤️
@llinhir
Don't wanna be eighteen with responsibilities
Sometimes I get scared of growing up
Entering a world with broken dreams
Sometimes I get scared and throw it all up
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen when I can't ride a bike
Still hide under my sheets during storms
In my bed I'm ten, but I can't shut my eyes
I still wish I wore a school uniform
And June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
Don't wanna be eighteen with a messy room
Still wonder what lingers under my bed at night
Kinda wish I stayed in my mother's womb
Only then, I'll know what it's like to be blind
'Cause June the third is
Coming closer and I'm
Nowhere near closure
@bzuku9554
in my mother's womb
@llinhir
@@bzuku9554 Thanks, fixed it.
@lovelaced922
she's a gift from God
@lunna1301
Yes, she is :') <3
@llar44
She is amazing ❤️
@indahyatmikawati9644
yessss
@bernardsherry5642
Yeah ❤️
@crsfls8317
YASSS
@reinforcementpandas5502
I just turned 18 yesterday (June 6th)... boy does this hit. All My adolescence feels wasted. Like I could've done more, learned more, been more.
I never really got to be a kid, nor a teenager. It feels empty, and I know I only get older from here.