Butterflies
demxntia Lyrics

Lets take it back back to the days
Let's go back to a time in the past

Where not a thing would matter
When nothing else was important

Not a care within the world
Without any worries or concerns

Wasn't really thinkin' 'bout her
I wasn't focused on her

But my eyes are feelin' heavy like
But my eyes feel weighed down as if

The weight thats on my chest
There is a heavy burden on my heart

Cuz lately I been feelin' empty but
Because recently I have been feeling a sense of emptiness

You should know that best
You should understand it better than anyone

There's a void within my chest
My chest feels empty inside

But my mind full
But my mind is filled

Next time I wanna get attached
The next time I want to form an emotional connection

I'll be mindful instead of walkin' on a
I will be cautious rather than blindly

Tightrope with a blindfold
Walking on a narrow path without seeing

And expecting not to fall
And not expecting to stumble or fail

Into this everlasting cycle
Into this never-ending pattern

I swear this is Deja Vu
I strongly feel that I have experienced this before

Because I know I wrote at least
Because I remember writing at least

A hundre songs just about you
Hundreds of songs solely about you

I know I probably shouldn't want you
I know it may not be wise to desire you

But you help me take my mind off
Yet, you assist in diverting my thoughts from

All the things that I been through
All the experiences I have gone through

Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times that we had
Unable to move on from recalling the memories we shared

(Thinking about the times that
(Remembering the moments when

I made you laugh)
I brought laughter to your life)

Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times
Unable to move on from recalling the moments

That we shared
That we experienced together

Every time I hear your voice
Each instance I listen to your voice

It gives me butterflies
It creates a fluttering feeling within me

Tryna hide the fact that I get anxious
Attempting to conceal my anxiety

When I look into your eyes
When I gaze into your eyes

And I tell myself these lies
And I deceive myself with these falsehoods

That I hope you never hear
That I wish you never become aware of

The lies that I was writing when
The untruths I was crafting when

I was mising you my dear
I was longing for you, my beloved

Now lying wide awake
Now being awake and unable to sleep

I wonder why I feel this way
I question why I have these emotions

This empty heart gets colder
This heart devoid of warmth becomes colder

Almost every single day
Almost every day without exception

I've been staring at these four white walls
I have been gazing at these plain, colorless walls

Like do I mean a thing to you at all?
As if questioning if I hold any significance to you whatsoever

So take away my ability to feel
Therefore, remove my capacity to sense emotions

Because I'd rather numb my senses than
Because I would prefer to deaden my senses instead of

Feeling something that ain't real
Experiencing emotions that are not genuine

Every night my heart is sinking
Every night my heart feels heavy and descends

Or maybe I'm just overthinking
Or maybe I am overly analyzing

I'm not so sure
I am unsure

Maybe I'm just wasting all my time
Perhaps I am simply squandering my time

Cuz every time we cease communication
Because every time we stop talking

I feel so confined
I feel restricted and limited

And every night I think of you
And every night I contemplate about you

Wonder if you feel the same way that I do?
I wonder if you experience the same emotions as I do?

Every night I think of you
Every night I contemplate about you

Wonder if you feel the same way that I do?
I wonder if you experience the same emotions as I do?