Dodie started vlogging in 2007 with a friend of theirs and started singing on YouTube in 2011 on a newly created channel, doddleoddle. They have over 210 videos, over 2 million subscribers and over 415 million views on their main channel (as of October 2022). On their side channel (doddlevloggle), they has over 190 videos, over 910k subscribers and over 98 million views.
On 18 November 2016, dodie self-released her first EP, Intertwined - EP. Despite its unsigned status, the EP reached number 35 on the official UK album charts during its first week of release. Her lead single Sick of Losing Soulmates also reached #1 of the Spotify viral 50 charts in the UK.
Dodie's second EP, You - EP, was released on 11 August 2017. In its opening week of release, the EP debuted at number 6 on the official UK Albums Chart—29 places higher than the peak of Intertwined, thereby marking a new personal best for them. It also debuted at number 55 on the US Billboard 200. Dodie embarked on a North American tour to promote the EP in 2018. On 2 November 2017, dodie published their autobiographical book titled Secrets for the Mad: Obsessions, Confessions and Life Lessons.
On 18 January 2019, dodie released her third EP, Human.The EP peaked at number 5 on the UK Official Albums Chart, Clark's highest charting album to date in her home country and her third consecutive entry in the top 40. To promote the album, Clark embarked on the Human Tour across the UK, Europe, and North America throughout 2019. In 2019, she was a part of the MOOMINVALLEY (Official Soundtrack) with a song titled Ready Now.
On 19 October 2020, dodie announced they would be releasing their first full-length studio album Build a Problem on 5 March 2021. On 8 February 2021, it was announced that the album was to be delayed until 26 March 2021 due to complications from the COVID-19 pandemic and Brexit. They later made an announcement on 11 March that it would be further delayed until 7 May 2021. The album received positive reviews from critics upon release, and debuted at number three on the UK Albums Chart, their charting highest position to date. The standard edition of Build a Problem consists of mostly unheard material, except for When, Rainbow, and Cool Girl, all of which were uploaded to their YouTube channel in 2016, 2018, and 2020, respectively. When - Live also appeared on their 2016 EP Intertwined - EP. The deluxe edition of Build a Problem contains bonus tracks composed of song demos that were released on dodie's YouTube channel during the COVID-19 pandemic. These were from two sessions called ALOSIA (A Lot of Songs In April/August). On May 26, 2021, dodie made their American TV debut performing Hate Myself on Late Night with Seth Meyers. In 2022, dodie embarked on the Build A Problem Tour across North America and Europe.
On 29 July 2022, Dodie released Got Weird, her first solo single since Build a Problem. On 2 September 2022, she released the follow-up single Hot Mess, and the Hot Mess EP was released on 30 September 2022.
On November 2022, dodie announced that they will be playing 3 intimate shows in Australia with the Hot Mess, An Intimate Tour Experience in February 2023.
On 7 June 2023, dodie announced that she is starting a band named FIZZ alongside Greta Isaac, Martin Luke Brown and Orla Gartland. Their first single, High In Brighton, was released on 14 June.
Hate Myself
dodie Lyrics
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Oh, do you look angry? Oh, what did I say?
Filling in the gaps, build a problem that
Neither of us need, something wrong with me
I'm getting desperate, losing my mind
How do we get here every time?
One will fold their arms, one will do the dance
Really is no need, something wrong with me
No, I don't think I can help it
Oh so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind
But how can you not hear the whole conversation
I have sitting still with a brain on fire?
I know it's a me thing
Eyes closed, isn't helping
When you go quiet, I hate myself
When you go quiet, I hate myself
Look at you sideways playing a game
What if I laugh now? I think I'm insane
Filling in the gaps, build a problem that
Neither of us need, something wrong with me
Pushing a boundary, something to prove
Strong expectation, you already lose
Oh, one will fold their arms, one will do the dance
Really is no need, something wrong with me
No, I don't think I can help it
Oh so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind (read your mind)
But how can you not hear the whole conversation
I have sitting still with a brain on fire? (Brain on fire)
I know it's a me thing
Eyes closed, isn't helping
When you go quiet, I hate myself
When you go quiet, I hate myself
Give me a mystery
Maybe they'll bloom for me
It's always the quiet ones
Oh, something here must be done
I'm open and ready here
I don't think they get me, dear
I'm only proving how
I'm only worth losing now
Give me a mystery
Maybe they'll bloom for me
It's always the quiet ones
Something here must be done
I'm open and ready here
I don't think they get me, dear
When you go quiet, I hate myself
I don't think they get me, dear
Give me a mystery
Maybe they'll bloom for me
It's always the quiet ones
Something here must be done
I'm open and ready here
I don't think they get me, dear
When you go quiet, I hate myself
I don't think they get me, dear
(No, I don't think I can help it) I don't think they get me, dear
I don't think they get me, dear
(No, I don't think I can help it) I don't think they get me, dear
I don't think they get me, dear
(No, I don't think I can help it) I don't think they get me, dear
I don't think they get me, dear
(I don't think I can help it) I don't think they get me, dear
(When you go quiet I hate myself)
(No, I don't think I can help it)
The lyrics of dodie's song "Hate Myself" delve into the complicated dynamics of a relationship where one person constantly questions their worth and sabotages themselves. The singer feels an overwhelming sense of insecurity and self-doubt, constantly seeking validation from their partner. They are hypersensitive to any signs of anger or disappointment and interpret them as personal failures. In their desperate attempt to fill in the gaps and find faults within themselves, they create unnecessary problems that neither person actually needs.
The singer struggles with their inability to understand their partner's perspective. They feel frustrated by their own lack of magical abilities to read minds and interpret the whole conversation. This highlights their deep fear of misunderstanding and their need for constant reassurance and clarity. Their hyperactive mind, depicted as "a brain on fire," intensifies their anxiety and self-hatred. They feel trapped in their own thoughts and blame themselves for their partner's silence.
The chorus reveals the singer's self-loathing when their partner goes quiet. It is during these moments of silence that their insecurities are exposed, causing them to hate themselves even more. The song implies that the singer's self-worth is contingent upon their partner's attention and response. They are driven to prove their worthiness, but ultimately feel that they are only worth losing.
Overall, "Hate Myself" explores themes of anxiety, self-sabotage, and the detrimental effects of seeking external validation in a relationship. It portrays the anguish of someone who is constantly at war with themselves, struggling to understand their own worth and fearing that they will never be fully understood by others.
Line by Line Meaning
Could it be different? Did I ruin the day?
Is there a possibility for a different outcome? Did my actions spoil the entire day?
Oh, do you look angry? Oh, what did I say?
Your facial expression shows anger. What did I say to cause this?
Filling in the gaps, build a problem that
Creating assumptions and exaggerating, constructing an unnecessary issue
Neither of us need, something wrong with me
None of us require this, there is something flawed within myself
I'm getting desperate, losing my mind
Becoming increasingly anxious and losing control of my thoughts
How do we get here every time?
Why do we always end up in this situation?
One will fold their arms, one will do the dance
One person will react defensively, while the other will try to appease
Really is no need, something wrong with me
There truly isn't a necessity for this, there is something flawed within myself
No, I don't think I can help it
No, I don't believe I have control over it
Oh so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind
It's extremely irrational, I possess no supernatural abilities to understand your thoughts
But how can you not hear the whole conversation
But how is it possible for you to not comprehend the entire discussion?
I have sitting still with a brain on fire?
I am remaining motionless with an overwhelmed mind?
I know it's a me thing
I am aware that it is based on my own issues
Eyes closed, isn't helping
Closing my eyes is not aiding the situation
When you go quiet, I hate myself
When you become silent, I despise myself
Look at you sideways playing a game
Observing you with suspicion, engaging in a deceptive act
What if I laugh now? I think I'm insane
What if I laugh at this moment? I believe I am losing my sanity
Pushing a boundary, something to prove
Testing the limits, attempting to demonstrate something
Strong expectation, you already lose
Having high hopes, you have already failed
Give me a mystery, maybe they'll bloom for me
Provide me with an enigma, perhaps it will bring positive outcomes for me
It's always the quiet ones, something here must be done
It is often the introverted individuals, there is something that needs to be addressed here
I'm open and ready here, I don't think they get me, dear
I am willing and prepared, but I don't think others truly understand me, my love
I'm only proving how, I'm only worth losing now
I am only demonstrating that I am only worthy of being lost at this point
(No, I don't think I can help it) I don't think they get me, dear
(No, I don't believe I have control over it) I don't think others truly understand me, my love
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
Written by: Dorothy Miranda Clark
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