Блондинка Ксю (Xu Blonde) was born on August 21, 1982 in Gorky Town. Her re… Read Full Bio ↴Блондинка Ксю (Xu Blonde) was born on August 21, 1982 in Gorky Town. Her real name is Ксения Сидорина (Xenia Sidorina). She began her musical career with the female punk-band Alter agO – a Nirvana covers band – in 1997. Then in 2000 she joined LADY-F (ex-Lady-Freddy), who released a split with Лампасы (Lampasy) in 2004.
Meanwhile Ксю had also joined another band, famous ska-punk collective Элизиум (Elysium). Her vocal performance features in three of their albums. Then in 2005 she left them to begin a solo-career.
She has released 2 albums under the name «Блондинка КсЮ»:
Я - Блондинка! (I'm a Blonde!) in 2005 and Время Все Разрушает (Time Destroys Everything) in December of 2006.
Official site: http://www.blondinkaksu.ru

Там нет меня
Блондинка Ксю Lyrics

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Я в первый раз прочла глубину этих глаз.
День ото дня я ищу в них себя,
Но закрыты окна, твоей души окна, и назад пути мне нет.
Я в них зайду, я найду!
Я уже не боюсь, что:

Там нет меня,
Пустота в твоем окне.

Там нет меня -
И пустота во мне...

Дай мне вдохнуть,
Поверить, что я - часть тебя.
Жаль не вернуть, но сильней стану я,
И закрою окна, твоей души окна.
Я уже не боюсь, что:

Там нет меня,
Пустота в твоем окне.
Там нет меня -
И пустота во мне...

Но закрыты окна, твоей души окна и назад пути мне нет.

Я в них зайду, я найду!
Я уже не боюсь...

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Блондинка Ксю's song "Там нет меня" (There's No Me There) express a sense of longing and searching for self-identity within another person's eyes. The singer describes how they read the depth of these eyes for the first time and day by day, they try to find themselves in them. However, they discover that the windows to this person's soul are closed, and there seems to be no way back. Despite this, the singer resolves to enter and find themselves in these eyes. They state that they are no longer afraid of the fact that "there's no me" in these windows, leading to emptiness in both the person and themselves.

The second verse continues with a plea for the person to give them a chance to believe that they are a part of them. The singer expresses regret that they cannot turn back time but vows to become stronger and close the windows to the person's soul. They declare that they are no longer afraid of the emptiness they find, repeating the chorus again.

Overall, the lyrics of "Там нет меня" capture a feeling of longing, self-discovery, and acceptance of an absence within a relationship. It explores the desire to find oneself in someone else and the courage to confront the emptiness that exists within both parties.

Line by Line Meaning

Я в первый раз прочла глубину этих глаз.
For the first time, I read the depth of those eyes.

День ото дня я ищу в них себя,
Day after day, I search for myself in them.

Но закрыты окна, твоей души окна, и назад пути мне нет.
But the windows of your soul are closed, and there is no way back for me.

Я в них зайду, я найду!
I will enter them, I will find!

Я уже не боюсь, что:
I am no longer afraid that:

Там нет меня,
There is no me,

Пустота в твоем окне.
Emptiness in your window.

Там нет меня -
There is no me -

И пустота во мне...
And emptiness inside me...

Дай мне вдохнуть,
Let me breathe,

Поверить, что я - часть тебя.
Believe that I am a part of you.