Goto Mariko (後藤まりこ) is a singer from Osaka, Japan signed to DefSTAR Records… Read Full Bio ↴Goto Mariko (後藤まりこ) is a singer from Osaka, Japan signed to DefSTAR Records. She is best known for being the former singer and guitarist of the jazz fusion group ミドリ (Midori).

Goto entered the public eye during the success of her band ミドリ. The members of Midori first met when they were members of two different bands. Goto was a member of the band うさぎ (Usagi) along with Kuwano Yoshifumi. The two were friends with a fellow band in Osaka known as Teromeya. The two expressed in interest in wanting to play in band with Teromeya's drummer Kozen Yoshitaka. Soon enough, the three got their wishes when the two bands broke up. In July 2003, Midori first formed, at the time as a cover band playing songs in Kayokyoku musical style. At the height of the band's success, they sadly announced their breakup on December 25, 2010, with their last show "Sayonara, Goto-San" being played on December 28, 2010. In 2011 she decided to start a solo career which will have a more pop feel from her previous works in Midori. Her first solo album 299792458 was released July 25th, 2012. In August 2012, she starred in the rock musical Hedwig and the Angry Inch as Moriyama Mirai’s partner. Her second album, m@u, was released on December 4, 2013. Her third and final album, こわれた箱にりなっくす, was released on November 12, 2014.

In 2016, Goto announced her retirement from the music industry, citing disillusionment with her career trajectory and the state of the industry. She returned at the end of 2018 with a demo EP, following it with a full-length album in 2019, both under the alias DJ510Mariko.

あたしの衝動
後藤まりこ Lyrics

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色あせないあたしの衝動
好きと愛の匂い
あやういものなのかなあ
「大丈夫あたし、変わらない」
どこにいっても音楽なのです
フラミンゴ色のあなたを探してる
あたしになって今すぐなって
こころのすみで泣いてみて

あたしになって今すぐなって
すべての罪を抱いてみて
深い海広がる
心はとてもキレイです
すきとおるとうめい
キレイな欲望
なんにも言わない
強くありたいのです
急ぎ足たったった
駄目だなあ壊れたなあ
育っていってもかわらない
attention please with me
しばらくね
はねるテンションの波、泳いでね
それが現実の音楽なのです
今すぐなってあたしになって
こころのすみで泣いてみて
あたしになって今すぐなって
無理だと知ってる
でもひとつになろう
how low ?くらい地下室
ひかりがとてもキレイです
とびこえるとうめい
キレイな衝動

あたしになって今すぐなって
こころのすみで泣いてみて
あたしになって今すぐなって
無理だと知っているでも、でも...
ごめんねあたしもういかなきゃ
今しかないのくるしくないよ

あたしになって今すぐなって
すべての罪を抱いていこうよお

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to "あたしの衝動" (Atashi no Shoudou) by Goto Mariko speak of a vivid and enduring impulsiveness. The singer acknowledges the fragility of love and longing, questioning if it is a dangerous thing. However, she affirms that she will remain unchanged, reassuring herself that she is fine. She is in search of the person who embodies the color of a flamingo, symbolizing uniqueness and vibrancy. The lyrics express a desire to become that person, to fully embrace their own emotions and cry from the depths of their heart. The singer is willing to bear all sins and longings, illustrating a complex mix of vulnerability and determination.

The song explores the contrast between the deep sea and the expansive heart, emphasizing the purity of the singer's desires and the magnetic pull of her emotions. Despite the temptation to stay strong and remain unchanged, the song portrays a sense of urgency and restlessness, with hints of a rebel's mindset. The singer aspires to be resolute and independent, pushing forward despite setbacks and acknowledging her own limitations. The lyrics express a longing for attention and connection, a desire to be seen and acknowledged for her unique perspective.

Line by Line Meaning

色あせないあたしの衝動
My unwavering impulse that never fades

好きと愛の匂い
The scent of liking and love

あやういものなのかなあ
I wonder if it's something precarious

「大丈夫あたし、変わらない」
"It's alright, I won't change"

どこにいっても音楽なのです
No matter where I go, it's always music

フラミンゴ色のあなたを探してる
I'm searching for you in flamingo color

あたしになって今すぐなって
Become me, right now

こころのすみで泣いてみて
Try crying from the depths of your heart

あたしになって今すぐなって
Become me, right now

すべての罪を抱いてみて
Try embracing all the sins

深い海広がる
A deep sea expands