The Calling
15. Tech N9ne Lyrics

And I'm back to the drinkin'
I have returned to my habit of drinking alcohol.

Soakin' wet every bottle's open
I am consuming alcohol excessively and without control.

Can't believe it I'm occasionally smokin', again
I am also reverting to smoking, another bad habit I thought I had left behind.

With a deep and cloudy ocean, I'm in
Alcohol is causing me to feel lost and overwhelmed, like I am drowning in a murky sea of emotions.

Have a lot of trouble copin', my friend
I am struggling to deal with my personal issues and turn to alcohol as a way of coping.

I'm surrounded by folks when they lovin' me the most and
Even though I have people who care about me, I still feel lonely and disconnected from them, which drives me to drink.

The goad is really croakin', within
My inner voice is urging me to quit drinking and seek help, but it feels like a daunting task.

Thought I was superman the truth was
I used to believe I was invincible and could handle any challenge, but the reality is quite different.

I used to be clean as a loofah and I used the
I used to be sober and free from addiction, and now I use alcohol to numb my pain.

Cool devoured the booze to hand I lose the
I mistakenly believed that alcohol was a way to 'cool' my nerves and escape my issues, but it only made things worse.

Land if I triple booze the fans
I risk losing my fanbase and livelihood if I continue to drink excessively and ignore the consequences.

I dream of stoppin' but greed is knockin'
I wish to quit drinking, but my addiction is too strong and I crave the feeling of being drunk.

They feelin' me from me from KC to Auckland
My music is reaching people from all over the world, but my addiction is not restricted to any geographical location.

Proceed with caution, heat exhaustion
I am pushing my physical and emotional limits with my alcoholism, and it's taking a toll on my body and mind.

If I keep it goin' I'm gonna need a coffin
If I don't stop drinking, I will eventually die from the harmful effects of alcohol on my body.

Forever takes me away
I am consumed by my addiction and it is taking over my life.

And I've fallen from grace
I have lost touch with my values and beliefs by falling into addiction.

Tell them I've tried to wait
I have attempted to quit drinking and seek help multiple times, but the addiction is too powerful.

But they're too late
Even though people are aware of my struggles, they cannot help me if I do not actively seek help and commit to recovery.

I can see when this pain will fade
I acknowledge that my addiction has caused me pain and suffering, but I can also see that recovery is possible.

Oh god heaven is callin' my name
I am aware that my addiction can lead to death, and I am being called to seek help and save myself.

I feel that pain comin' from inside
The physical and emotional pain caused by my addiction is becoming unbearable.

My people had the same drinkin' and then died
My loved ones have also struggled with alcoholism, and some of them have passed away as a result.

Devil in my brain I'm sinkin' within pride
My addiction is like a demon that is consuming me from the inside, and I am struggling with feelings of shame and guilt.

Drinkin' for lunch and I'm drinkin' for dinner
I am drinking alcohol throughout the day, and it has become a mainstay in my life.

I'm nothin' but lush when I'm pushin' up in her
Even when I engage in romantic or sexual relationships, I am drunk and unable to connect with my partner authentically.

I seldom remember the 8th of November
My drinking is so excessive that I often cannot recall important events or moments in my life.

Cause I be goin' so hard I'm always on a bender
My addictive behavior is extreme, and I am constantly engaging in long periods of excessive drinking.

I got money, I got cash
My wealth and fame cannot protect me from the devastating effects of addiction.

So picture unlimited amounts I got stash
I have access to endless amounts of alcohol, and it is difficult to resist the temptation.

When it got bad I went out and got trashed
Instead of seeking help for my addiction, I continue to engage in harmful behavior and drink even more.

When I hit glad what'chyo think's in my glass
Even when I am happy or celebrating a success, I turn to alcohol to enhance my mood and cope with my emotions.

I gotta catch me, I'm fallin'
I am spiraling out of control, and I need to take action to stop myself from destroying my life completely.

Not a limit to a young brother ballin'
My addiction is not limited to any age or demographic, and it can affect anyone regardless of their status or success.

Gotta let go of the weight I'm haulin'
I need to release the burden of addiction and take steps towards recovery.

When I look in the mirror within my eyes I'm headed for that callin'
I am aware that my addiction could lead to my death, and I need to seek help before it's too late.

Go hard or go home
I have a mindset of toughness and determination, but this attitude is hurting me when it comes to dealing with addiction.

That's the motto I hit the lotto
I often engage in risky behavior and use my wealth as an excuse to justify my addiction.

Mister sorrow can miss tomorrow
Instead of facing my emotions and issues, I use alcohol to escape them, which only makes me more miserable in the long run.

So grip the bottle of this Moscato
I am becoming increasingly dependent on alcohol and rely on it to cope with everything in my life.

My eye whites are not white
My physical health is deteriorating because of my addiction, and my eyes are showing signs of damage.

They hot fire and not nice but in my ice
My eyes are bloodshot and inflamed due to excessive drinking, but I still drink more to numb the pain.

I need a shot twice
I am becoming more and more dependent on alcohol and require higher amounts to feel its effects.

(Drunk, I, might, die)
I am aware that my addiction could lead to my death, particularly if I continue to drink excessively.

(Falling, down, gonna, drown)
My addiction is causing me to lose control and sink deeper into harm and despair.

Make way for the idiot
I am aware that my addiction is causing me to act foolishly and recklessly.

Interior is hideous
My addiction is consuming me from the inside out, and I am becoming a shell of my former self.

Need help like immediate
I am aware that I need to seek help immediately if I am to overcome my addiction.

He actin' like he don't know alcohol is insidious
Even though I know the harm that alcohol is causing me, I continue to act like it is not a serious problem.

While I celebrate life
I desire to live a full and happy life, free from the grip of addiction.

I'mma elevate heights
I am committed to pursuing my goals and achieving greater success, but I know that my addiction is holding me back.

Not known to man cause I chose to ban
I have not yet found a solution to my addiction, and I am trying different methods to see what works best for me.

My clock on the land on a hella great night
I am living a fast-paced and exciting life, but this lifestyle is also exposing me to high levels of stress and temptation.

I'm knowin' this my callin' so I gotta try to miss that call and
I am aware that I need to face my addiction head-on and seek help, but it is easier said than done.

Alcohol and you twist that big sack and hit that
My addiction is affecting my relationships with others, including romantic partners.

Think I better quit that stallin' and stop
I know that I need to take action to overcome my addiction, but I often hesitate and procrastinate instead of taking concrete steps towards recovery.

Feelin' real gotti I'm mixin' my liquors
I am engaging in reckless and dangerous behavior by mixing different types of alcohol and disregarding the risks involved.

You gotta get me at the party
Even though I am aware of the harm my addiction is causing, I still find myself drawn to partying and drinking with others.

Naturally naughty
I have a natural proclivity towards addiction and negative behaviors, but I am also aware that I have the power to change and overcome my issues.

Please help I'm still trapped inside of this psycho's body!
I am struggling to overcome my addiction and feel like I am trapped inside a cycle of negative thoughts and behaviors.