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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

Andromedan Alien

3y↑3

Thank you for sharing this.. <3 I recognize myself in every single word! I have had this for 7 years now. And yes it affects everything, including my relationships when they get more serious.

We are in this together. The psychologists dont even understand, nor the doctors. So to feel that someone is actuyally living with this 24-7 like I am is such a relief to read.. <3

I wish you the best of luck. And best of luck to us all :)

I want to also add that I completely agree that it is super important to be more social, experience more things, live more, do more REAL things. Not like video games and too much screen time because that takes you further away from the reality.

USE your body! USE your senses. EXPERIENCE even if it's all dull and gray. Just do it. Don't isolate, don't stagnate. that's the worst you can do with DPDR.

Best wishes <3

All comments from YouTube:

Amar

5y↑803

every day question... Am I gonna be like this forever? I look forward to dreams. Dreams feel more real than reality

ROST

Same here.

Yusuf Yusuf

@WhoDat816 ماهو الدوء الذي ساعدك في الخروج من الاضطراب

Made of lego

I love dreams

Etherlite Club

@WhoDat816 you are lucky man , this shit hurts me I want to start taking citalopram if it don't make things better I'm going to take me out of this world

Etherlite Club

@Wayne Oladeji help me out mahn I'm on the verge of giving up

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E

6y↑458

This video is amazing. Anyone who doesn’t suffer really do not understand. From being told “it’s all in your head” or “just don’t think about it”... I’ve been suffering from dpd 4 months now. Constantly checking and hoping I feel real. My surroundings feel real. But they don’t. Having conversations then completely forgetting what it was about 10 minuets later. No longer being able to enjoy life like you use to. It’s all so so real and so so distressing. I hope more awareness is made so people realize it’s not in our heads. I’m 19.. my life shouldn’t be taken away from me at 19.

Update: 1 year later and I’m only seeing most of these replies. Thankfully with some good news. After suffering for what felt like forever my body slowly turned back to itself. I can happily say I am dpdr free! I have my bad days but I’ve thought myself to control over impulsive thoughts when it “heightens”. Thanks for all the lovely replies and I hope you all recover, have hope, it gets better 💕

Andre A

@Sam Maltman hey man, during dpd? I remember clearly that when taking naps, I'd wake up confused (differently than sleepy confused) so I kind of don't that at all, and actual sleep? Honestly try be as consistent as possible, sleep your number of hours your body requires and stick to it. Everything that you can do it to optimise your body and brain, do it!

If you struggle with insomnia I recommend fixing it naturally as opposed to taking sleeping pills, as those can mess with quality of sleep.

Sam Maltman

2y↑1

@Andre A Ay Andre what was your sleeping like.

Nelly Hartland

@muge akbaba same, watch the depersonalisation manual guy on YouTube. he is amazing

melena snider

im 16. it started at 13. i eventually couldnt function in school i dropped out a few days ago and got my mom to put me in homeschool. its been really hard. but your comment encourages me . everyday things have been taken away from me . im a surfer and its hard to surf now because i can barley see or even feel myself in the ocean.

Carina Ramirez

I have flat conversations with my coworkers and it makes me sad. I can’t even have an honest conversation.. I feel non human. It’s the worst feeling ever.

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Princess Rocks

5y↑309

Emotional numbness is very difficult it’s like my mind is blank and empty of thought like I’ve lost my personality and who I am.

mikamighty

@The Termination Dog same as me and my uncle always grills me and says shit like "you have no personality" which just makes me feel even worse even with this disorder then sometimes I try act all bubbly and hyped and I just feel worse it's just not who I am

mikamighty

I don't know if I have this disorder or not but I do feel emotional numbness and I don't feel like myself when I'm with my friends they see me happy laughing making jokes but really and truly deep down I don't feel who I am and not who I was like I'm still trying to find myself again and an improvement, I feel blank and like I've lost me personality just like you and it feels like hell.

Laura Fabregat

3y↑1

I feel numb and it's terrible, can someone please help me?

Rasmus Lassen

3y↑1

@The Termination Dog, I get you. My facial expression is so dead. There is nothing but emptiness in my eyes. I don't like socializing with anyone at this point either. I just go through the day like a zombie and wait until I can go to sleep.

The Termination Dog

4y↑2

It’s gotten so bad my family now gets upset with me because “I always have a blank expression” on my face and claim I don’t like socializing with them. It’s not that I don’t want to but I can’t

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Lara Joy

4y↑207

I’m 18 and I’ve had dpdr for as long as I can remember. That final sentence hit me hard cuz I realized I have absolutely no hope of ever “waking up”. Honestly I hardly even remember what a “normal” perception of reality is like.

ceren 07

Samee

Magnus olesen

@Jesus Bolanos Nope havent heard anything yet :/

Jesus Bolanos

@Magnus olesen did you ever hear back about the group? I am interested as well

Magnus olesen

@Abel Alex Very interested ! because having no one who can relate or understand (because i know DP/DR is hard to explain) i do in fact really feel lonely, what is the group called ?

Abel Alex

@Magnus olesen i also joined a recovery group on snapchat where i got to interact with people who had dp/dr and those who recovered. Incase you're interested, let me know

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Ibrahim Ali

2y↑36

20+ years 24/7 ive been suffering from this

that "wake up" part of the video hit so hard it made me cry

it's a beautiful video man. Hope we all get back to normal someday.

Someday I will wake up!

Mari Molina

Ditto, next year makes my second decade.

Dov

3y↑30

For me is like being drunk 24/7, I can still feel everything from emotions to pain but it feels unreal

Jawn Jawn

6y↑220

8 years for me. We all deserve a medal,a million dollars and a model girlfriend for the amount of suffering we've had to endure. Great video btw.

Richantre Passah

@SHUVO are you cured now? I’ve had it for 8 months now 😔

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18y

Isaiah Garcia

@LaShawn Henderson ?

LaShawn Henderson

3y↑1

Your and my concept of suffering are very different. I hope you get better but there are worse things.

muge akbaba

3y↑1

@Isaiah Garcia Just realized that my comment is from 8 months ago but this shit still hasn’t gone away. you’re welcome contact me on instagram @mugeakb_

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Scarface Beatz

6y↑216

It goes away. Good luck to everyone that still has this.

Explodez

Thanks i wish everyday that it just goes away

grace

@parttime_kpopstan good for u ig lol

parttime_kpopstan

@grace I mean, I literally experienced it but ok lol

William Perez

@Gurrola Gallegos Jocelyn Jolette how is it now?

grace

2y↑1

@parttime_kpopstan you can't distract yourself from it. this comment is literally disrespectful u clearly have no clue what dpdr is like or how it works

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barschben

6y↑53

This is beautifully made bro...pls hang in there. I know the unfathomable pain this disorder creates, but we will see the light one day!

Hunter Axtell

How are you doing now?

Narayan Paschapur

How much days it takes to recover for you

Andromedan Alien

3y↑46

Made me cry... Lived with this for 7 years now.. Every day. Every waking moment... And no one understands. so this really hit my heart. and made me FEEL. <3 thank you. Life is so slow.. But still so fast, time goes so fast.. I feel like I have missed so much... My memories.. It is like they are even less real than DREAMS.. Its inzane..

Saifan Ali 3rd account

I am too nervous to tell anybody I don't know what to do

Allyson Stumpf

3y↑1

@Isaiah Garcia of course! I would be willing to talk

Isaiah Garcia

3y↑1

@Allyson Stumpf hey there I wanted to ask if I could talk to you and ddd I would like to see how others feels had it for 1 year now never was the same since I have to talk to someone

Allyson Stumpf

3y↑4

Hang in there. This is exactly what I go through 24/7 as well. we can do it!

leannelessordinary

4y↑63

I've had depersonalisation for more than half of my life and it's devastating to think of how much I've lost because of it. It's robbed me of my potential in terms of education and work ambition, it's impacted friendships, and I worry that it'll someday take my relationship too. I relate to this video so much, from the way that you experience depersonalisation to the way that others perceive you - people can never quite believe that I have this condition, I'm so bubbly, I'm so happy! But the closer they get, the more apparent my detachment is - I can come across as distant, rude, or like I'm not listening. It's a tremendously difficult condition to live with, and I wouldn't wish it on anybody...that said, there is something unifying in discovering that there are other people out there who, too, suffer with depersonalisation, and it does help me to feel less alone.

I've struggled with this condition for so long: I've fought to understand my own emotions (or lack thereof); I've fought for a diagnosis for years (and have been persistently misdiagnosed/told that I feel 'sad' or 'low' - I wish more doctors would listen when I say I simply feel nothing at all!); I've spent a fortune on private therapy because, for some reason, doctors don't want to let me try any medication other than Sertraline because, if that doesn't work, nothing will. I do feel as if a lack of discussion around depersonalisation is a huge part of the problem, though I am encouraged by other people's stories that they have been able to try various forms of medication or therapy (to varying levels of success). It encourages me to keep trying.

I disagree with a previous comment that somebody left about this being a 'self-pity' disorder - if one thing is for certain, it's that I am determined to beat this thing and I am hellbent on not letting it get in the way of my life. I'm 26 and I feel myself getting older every day; I'm aware of how much I've lost as a result of my depersonalisation, but over the last couple of years I've been trying my best to reignite that light inside of me. To engage in old hobbies. To see the world. To be more social, more connected, more present. It's an uphill battle, and it's certainly difficult to disregard that I have this disorder (how can I stand in the middle of Shibuya, Tokyo, under neon lights, but everything still feels muted..?), but I'm trying my best. I don't pity myself with this disorder; I'm increasingly determined to beat it. But as I said before, the conversation around it needs to improve - whether socially, or in the world of medicine and therapy (one therapist called me an 'anomaly' for feeling this way for so long - not exactly helpful!). This is a very valuable, clear video, Joe - I know I'm a couple of years late to the party, but thanks for sharing.

Dina Salimova

3y↑1

Wow, what a moving comment! I am very interested to know, how you are feeling now. What medications do you take? Have your life become more real in terms of emotions?

Andromedan Alien

3y↑3

Living with Bipolar Disorder - Josh

shadiya milhan i dont understand how though, i’ve had this for 5-6 years and honestly don’t see how this is any different than schizophrenia. i want this to be gone as well even when i don’t think about it i still feel stuffs wrong. i have the mental health disorder not from having been on weed for so long then having these side effects. i remember the first case back in second grade where i would pinch myself. also i’m not saying you’re not correct, but i just don’t see how you can simply forget about it.

K. SM

4y↑2

I'm truly moved by what you had to say. If you feel thats what you have keep checking with more professionals and see. I had this for 16 years and when I was a kid I knew there would be no point in telling my relatives because they would just tell me I didn't get enough sleep or didn't eat well etc so as a kid I was helpless and couldn't get prefessional help because I didn't bother trying to convince my relatives. I got out. How? During a period of depression, I was verbally attacked by someone who I held very dear to me and it opened up horrible memories to the past. I went into smth like PTSD and felt the dam of numbed emotions break down and start raining on me.

Then 2 years with PTSD ish symptoms later (I didnt get any of this diagnosed like you but I didnt get the oppertunity to, its not that the doctors rejected it), I did Melanie Tonia Evans inner child healing (on her website there is this healing method where for free, they make you go into a semi deep sleep and fix up problems in your subconscious). I did that and woke from the sleep free of these dpdr symptoms. I had a spiritual awakening as well and I started to know what it feels to be real again.

I hope and pray you get better too.

Redbob2

4y↑41

I’ve experienced this for over ten years. I can’t begin to explain how scared I was in the beginning, how crazy I felt and no matter what I did made it go away. Years of being confused and feelings alone no matter how many people in my life cared for me. They all saw someone that seemed so normal and would never even guess for a second that i was dealing with this internally. No matter how bad it was to me, everyone else only saw a person that functions the same as them. I’ve learned that this makes us more human and for same then any other that doesn’t suffer with this. Because the emotions they run away from and want to wish away we the sufferers of this chase more then anything else. We want to be what everyone else denies and doesn’t want to feel. The good and the bad because this has taught me how to see the positive in anything. I wouldn’t trade places with anyone for even a second because I know I was lucky to turn out this way. I help people deal with their problems and emotions because I understand them more then I should. But I ask myself everyday how I can understand something that I haven’t felt in over a decade. Depersonalization makes you understand all of people’s feelings because being detached from them makes it where it can’t hurt you no matter how close the danger seems. I want to help people so they can never even come close to feeling what this is like. Something that makes us feel as we aren’t real, we are watching our lives play out as if we are watching it inside our own heads in a movie theater, but at the same time feel as if we are floating above our own bodies, blurred vision and having an autopilot, time never seeming to take as long as it should and waking up to look in a mirror and see a human look back at you that you feel you don’t even know. Accepting all of that was harder then it should have but once I did I learned so much about myself and everything around me. There’s an end to this hallway of confusion, you may not see an end but it’s there. What you also don’t see is others in your life that also deal with this. I’ve met a number of people like us and it helps to know that you aren’t alone. Helping each other can show us the way out of this darkness because someone else might have a spare battery for that flashlight that died without you noticing. You aren’t alone and the more you realize that the better it gets, because the way out isn’t a door just for you but for the people you meet along the way that also deal with this. Just have to look for them, because they might be someone you care about. Hiding this isn’t going to help, it only makes it worse.

Adrian

@Leahflower Since it’s been a longtime since you’ve wrote this question I’m sure you’ve already answered your question; but in case you haven’t I’ve noticed that it doesn’t always have to be from trauma but it can also be caused my anxiety, a bad weed trip and probably others.

Leahflower

same here i went through this since at least sophmore year of high school didn't even know it was a condition i just thought i was crazy or living in a fantasy world because my real life sucks. Is this directly related to trauma?

Sensei_oh_yeah_yeah Duncan

3y↑3

Dude i can tell uve been suffering for a decade the way u were able to describe it was unreal ive had it for i would say 5 to 6 years and i still cant describe how i feel i would say im in the confused state i try to describe wat i feel to myself every day but i gues i dont got enough understanding of wat i feel or enough wisdom but i loved the part where u talked about the blurred vision and watching from the theatre and autopilot and the understanding emotions even though uve been so detached thank u for typing this whole paragraph it rlly helps man but did u ever over come it ? This comment is 11 months old so i was wondering if ur still suffering

Richelle Rains

5y↑20

Thank you! Great job describing the day to day of it. 17+ years now. But mine started as severe PTSD...most of the PTSD symptoms are gone...my body is pretty relaxed and I don’t pay much attention to the DPDR...it’s just an annoyance that it’s still lingering because I’m ready for life. What helped there most with my ptsd symptoms has been Neurofeedback...I’ve recently started back up again focusing on left brain right brain stabilization. Random memories from my past keep popping in everyday which tells me my brain is beginning to connect again. Don’t know how long it will take to fully get there, in reality, but it’s soon enough.
Everyone is different and it takes people different therapies and amounts of time to heal. Good luck to all. 💗

Vrushabh Machchh

How are you doing now ?

Lily Stultz

How are you doing now?

Luka Luka

Any update

Okay Carla

4y↑28

This made me cry. I’ve been feeling like this for a year and a half now and I didn’t know what it was until now.

Mattes Rocket

Have you seen his other channel already https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCLWBz3-L508RX3QtwI7BJZw

Sofia Alonso

3y↑8

this is absolutely amazing, i’m been suffering dpd for 7 months now, such a scary world i’m living in right now. forever wishing life goes back to normality. thank you for this video, it explains it so much

SpedUp AlbAudios

do you ever feel normal like its real but at the same time you dont , its like youre questioning in your head if this is real , but at the same time you know it is and you keep doing example washing the dishes or sum?

Jenneka B

2y↑1

Ivsuffer since 3 month and i can't imagine how o should do it for more

RoxqiaPixeluna

How are you doing now?

Gab Crstn

5y↑23

I have DP for 1 year now and this video definitely nail it. Somehow, it's releasing To know that you're not alone. This trouble is terrible, it's like you're anchored and you have to watch everyone around you keep walking forward.
Thanks for that video it could make my surrounding understand my feeling, i hope that you'll heal. COURAGE

a i f f e e

5y↑12

This video describes really well dp/dr disorder...
I’ve suffered from dp and dr for almost 4 years now (and I still do). It’s really hard, I ask myself everyday, I wonder if I’m gonna feel real again one day, I wonder if everything I did during those 4 years are actually real, if all those people I met during this long period, are real... I wonder if im crazy, if I made up all of this... I feel less and less like an actual person, I feel so fvckin tired of this sensation. I don’t recognize myself anymore, I feel like I’m watching a movie, everyone is just so...weird. Everyone feels alien-like... when I look at my own hands, I don’t even know if they are mine?? Well, logically, they are mine, but it just doesn’t feel like it???
I don’t know how to explain that, you should experience dp/dr to understand...
Sometimes I just think about taking my own life, i think it would be easier like that.
This feeling is so so scary and I hope that someday, I’ll wake up from this nightmare. Not only me, but also you, you are not alone. Don’t ever forget that dp/dr is not your enemy, but only an overprotective friend. Don’t forget that you are not in danger, you are safe. You’re not alone. You’re not crazy. We’re all going through this. So please, don’t give up. I know you can do it. I love you. ❤️

eleanor richards

has anyone tried detoxing metals out of our systems? They contribute to our bodies dysfunctions. There is TRX therapy and also BOO is another miracle. I am going to try these. They are supposed to get rid of parasites which have a merry field day with us if out of balance.

Delia Gherasim

i love you too! :(

Bobby Noodles

4y↑14

Joe, I am fighting back tears right now because my 25 y/o Son suffered for eight (8) long years with DPD. As he battled the severe Depersonalization, he fell into extreme depression which was followed by drug use, three unsuccessful suicide attempts and then on June 15th, 2017 he wrote his Mom and me a "Good-Bye" letter and intentionally Over-dosed, which left him brain-dead and ultimately he donated his heart and liver to some more elderly men here in the NJ / NY area. Your Doc / Film here is simply the BEST thing I've seen or read to help describe the disorder to the people who do NOT understand it. I applaud you for your work. SOmeday I hope the Psychiatric community will research the disorder, because more and more people are getting it from strong weed, MDMA, drugs, trauma, etc. etc.....GREAT JOB MY FRIEND - SO SORRY YOU HAVE TO SUFFER WITH DPD......Please hang in there is all I can say !! May someone or something BLESS YOU!

Pauline Maxwell

2y↑2

Excellent video, thank you. I've had DPDR since I was 7. I'm now 55. I do have brief periods of 'clarity' but always returns. This video is the closest to explaining depersonalisation although I still have extreme derealisation at times which is when I stay home. Little tip, if you feel like people can see there's something wrong with you (although they can't) I find that wearing sunglasses seems to help me with confidence to go outside. Thanks again I'll be showing this video to those who know of my condition to help them try to understand. Best wishes 💜

Laura Fabregat

3y↑5

I'm so happy I found this video! I didn't know what kind of problem I have until I found that word: Depersonalisation. It's terrible not being able to feel anything. I just feel numb and dream of becoming the old me. Back then, before I had this problem, I had emotions and saw the beauty everywhere, but not anymore. I don't have a simple depression, that's what my doctors have been telling me the whole past year.

Leonardo Terán

4y↑7

This is how I exactly feel every single day, brilliant!

kosmicwizard

3y↑3

Jesus, Joe. I had no idea. Your gear reviews are killer. I get overwhelmed when I think about what the other 8 billion people on earth are doing and what I'm missing out on, but from time to time I truly enjoy being in the wonders of nature or deeply connecting with my wife, my 2 year old son or my best friend. Most of the time I'm just going through the motions of the day to day daily grind, but nothing I'm enduring compares to your daily struggles. All I can say is thanks for your bravery in sharing this with us, and I truly hope things get better for you in the future. Cheers! :)

sixbladeknife44

6y↑7

Takes guts and braveness to put this out there, good on you...I suffer from some stuff myself, my days are a struggle in different ways. I feel for you and I think I can empathize...we all have our own crosses to bare, the only choice we have is to push forward and do our best, we can’t be so hard on ourselves. Watching the vid made me think of the Radiohead song How To Disappear Completely. This condition clearly needs more public awareness, you’ve definitely helped in that regard. And you’re a personable/well spoken and talented guy, take comfort in your strengths and the gifts that you possess. In the end, we’re all just trying to get through and do the best we can...kudos to you, you’re not alone.

KMRose

2y↑3

My derealization started around the beginning of the pandemic and has continued to this day :(

Kalinka

4y↑5

I've had it ever since I remember myself and I'm only 15. I have started to deal with severe anxiety and panic disorder the past couple of months and I feel like I'm completely losing my mind. I have become very suicidal and I don't know what to do anymore. I have my mom's and sister's support. I have pills prescribed and go to therapy. But it's there. And I don't know what it's like for it to not be there.

Nettie Faulkner

5y↑8

This video is on point, thank you for doing it and opening the eyes for many many people. Hang in there 😀

Louis Chapman

2y↑1

Wow this video really hit home. Had this for 3 years I wake up every morning with one thought has it gone yet. I honestly don’t know how I function at times. It’s a constant battle, that so far I like to think I’m winning but I honestly can’t put up with this for ever. I look forward to hitting my head on that pillow so I can get be at peace with my mind

Lion heart

6y↑4

Sorry to hear you've had DPD for over a decade. I first began to experince chronic DPD 9.5 months ago and it made me suicidal for the first 4 months. It's a trip man, very wild stuff. Anyways thanks for making this video and sharing it.

Aaron Sutton

Much love Joe… sorry man, I love everything about you and your channel! So blessed to be connected via YouTube!

john

4y↑20

I'm 20 and I've been like this for more than 2 years. And though i've had some good moments, it's mostly been frustration, failure, anger. I can't get my life in order because i can't feel or understand anything. None of it makes sense. But as u said, i also have things i work towards but even those feel meaningless.
Great video.

chaedu

What do you mean none of it doesnt make sense? May I help you?

Shelbey Bateman

3y↑6

Very relatable. I only started experiencing dpd about 2 months ago, and it was very scary in the beginning. Such a crazy feeling that Is so hard to explain. I felt like I was crazy when I was trying to explain it to other people. Grounding techniques help somewhat, but I'm just ready to feel 'normal' again.

the Toyota Supra

Same it sucks

Martín Torres

3y↑3

I'm 25, and I remeber glimpses of reality until 5, I just accepted it and continued with my life.
Two years ago I found out the term DPDR and ever since tried to explained it to my friends and family, most of them wouldn't understand of course.
I recently was told there is a therapy called EMDR which can help with traumas and perhaps make me feel the world again.

A H

I’ve known I had severe disassociation since I briefly looked into the condition last year as I was looking into Borderline after being diagnosed with that (BPD) at the VA. This morning, while reading one of my books on the affects of parent(s) with narsisism, I ran across the different disassociation disorders and was surprised that I was never diagnosed. I’ve known I’m different for a long time now. Ive detailed to clinicians my recounts of staring at my self from above at an angle like I was in a movie. Also, not being in touch with feelings. I mean, I could check every box and not just occasionally. This is everyday. I don’t understand why more clinicians are not trained in detecting this disorder. Well, it’s good to know

Marc S

5y↑5

Glad I found this. I’ve felt like this for 14-15 years

Lily Stultz

How are you doing now?

The Blond Demon

4y↑69

I watch this video every day just to know I’m not alone

The Blond Demon

@Pollyn Lyubenova I suppose that's true yeah

Pollyn Lyubenova

Which is a mistake because that way you are constantly reminding yourself that you have it. The key is to not pay attention to it.

Sensei_oh_yeah_yeah Duncan

@Patrick Campbell i rlly do hope it gets better ive been suffering for so long it good to know that im not alone

Patrick Campbell

3y↑1

to get better, stop watching these videos. don’t obsess over it. i know that is really hard when feeling emotionally numb, but trust me, doing the things you used to love and getting some physical activity will seriously help. I’m starting to recover after just 2 months. it gets better. i promise. you are not alone at all. god bless you.

04 0.0

4y↑1

God bless

David

2y↑1

Dude.. I don’t have a personality disorder but I just found out about that and it seems pretty hard for you guys :/
I hope you will get better soon and eventually find help to let you live in a way that makes you feel more comfortable than rn

Pollyn Lyubenova

2y↑1

I've had it for a few years. I'm much better now because I did something fundamental to get better with this condition...not pay attention to it. When you spend a ton of time in this state you just have to let it become your new normal and stop fighting it. The more you fight it, the more you will notice it.

Subash Paudel

2y↑1

This has been happening to me for around 6 months now ! I had generalized anxiety for some years and suddenly this happened to me ! I have not shared this feeling to anyone cause it's so hard to describe at all ! I have been doing meditation for some months now and with spiritual enlightenment ,which I am trying to pursuit , I hope it will get better oneday ! The feeling out of it is nothing else except numbness and when you feel that way , it's hard to focus on goodness ! I hope no human suffers and in these hard tims we need to be more Loving and telling ourselves we are here not forever ! Absorb the pain that comes out of it and One day We are gonna win over it! Bless you all

rosie knight

6y↑9

ive been like this since i was small there are days when i dont know why to anything, days when i look at myself like a stranger, im an actor in a play that i dont recgonise. One day enough will be enough im glad finally there are other people that have this and maybe it will be a recognised disorder but for me it will all be too late

Psych

I feel u

Elisa E

It is a recognized disorder in the DSM 5 p302. Please don't give up. There are treatments for it and CBT therapy you can do. There are research done on it that says that it is biological, related to brain signals technically neurological, another study talked about the ears playing a role in it so do not beat up yourself. It is not your fault if it happens. Get some mental health therapy. It had disappeared on some people. Look into holistic ways too but please don't give up

K L O DD Y

2y↑1

I feel sorry for everybody who suffering from this and i wish yall going to get better asap🙏🏼.
I had Depersonalization for 5 months i got it after getting high with marijuana and not being abled to smoke again for a long time😭, i was feeling like in a dream, and not pay attention, i became a boring person to most of the people. After a long time i started to feel a little better and promised myself that i won’t smoke marijuana ever again. After a long time someone gave me some and i couldn’t refuse it😭🤣. I got high again for a very long time and the next day i was feeling normal again. This made me confused, but it can also make it worse so don’t smoke to get out of it, time is the cure of it :)

Shibumi the Artist

2y↑1

The last few worlds really hit home for me. This existence is like being on a train that is constantly increasing in speed and travelling forward, yet when I reflect on it all- nothing has happened differently; all is the same... I am still on a train that is constantly increasing in speed and moving forward.

Joe Sharp

2y↑1

I've had this on and off since taking ecstacy when i was 19 (36 now). It seems to rear its head whenever any life event occurs. Only thing I can get pleasure from is weed smoking which I'm pretty sure isn't helping. Its led me to spend my 20s hiding in my childhood bedroom, and losing all my friends and any hope of a relationship/family. It got better but was still there a few years ago when I stopped smoking weed and got into cycling and I managed to at least get myself into stable (relativley well paid) employment and my own place. Since I injured my knee and couldn't ride my bike in 2019 I started smoking again, then covid came and its been constant pretty much ever since. Going to attempt to stop smoking again, buts its the only bit of pleasure I have in my life at the moment, but even that doesn't make me feel better it just stops me caring that I've wasted my youth fighting my own head.

Golden Goodra

4y↑2

I'm grateful to have found this for the sake of a friend of mine who has been going through this. I hadn't heard from them in days, and I was so upset. I knew they had disassociation, but only as I have decided to look it up can I understand it all. I understand why it's become so difficult for them to keep conversation. Why they have done things they regret just to try to nail themselves into reality.

To anybody reading this, what can I do to help them? Even as a friend, I love them so much. I want to know how I can best be there for them. I had no idea how scary this was.

Phil Heesen III

6y↑2

I've had derealization since 2011. It's been an ass kicker but it has also forced me to grow and improve in ways I wouldn't have otherwise. It still sucks, but just have to keep hoping for relief one day. Thanks for this video, man. You're not alone!

Roblox Noob

5y↑3

This was amazing and so accurate.

Omar Evans

It’s crazy that you never know what someone’s going through. I usually go to your channel when I feel like crap as your videos are always high Vibrational for me , keep on Truckin !

R G

2y↑1

Anxiety and panic disorder especially bring it on, it's become my new norm after 20 years dissociative disorders seem to get stronger then weeker then stronger. And yes no one around you will ever understand. I'm about to start microdosing shrooms 🤞.

Buck Trail

2y↑2

Brother Joe, I did not know you were suffering. I'm so sorry. I did not know such a problem existed. Thanks for sharing and educating me on this. Sending good vibes and prayers to you and all who suffer from this.
Please know that you are not disappearing in so many eyes. All the best.
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A to Z

You will only understand this disorder fully if you experience it, I'm having relentless bouts of it as of lately triggered by anxiety/depression and antidepressant withdrawal. Now it's not just derealisation, I get mind confusion along with it which makes it very torturous.

LemonLady

3y↑1

This video was perfectly done! I just float thru life, haven't accomplished anything, always wonder "am I going crazy?" Or "will I be like this forever?"
The last second of the video hit me hard cuz I do this every day as well, "I just hope one day I will wake up!"

21capsules

5y↑7

I'm a nurse and have experienced this for 4 months. I believe its stemed from chronic anxiety and panic disorder. Its horrible. Constant fatigue too. I keep feeling my blood sugar is low..but it isn't. And blood tests normal. But it happens to me at work too and my work is stressful.

Amy Kelley

Same here. I kept eating thinking I needed more food! Our jobs are very stressful so much pressure put on us. Hope you’re doing better.

Coopertrooper81

3y↑1

Very good video and sums up all my thoughts exactly. I've had this twice the second time being 4 years and counting. It's truly awful and wouldn't wish it on anyone.

bs elguapo

Damn I'm VERY glad to have found this video.
An absolutely amazing job clearly defining and demonstrating the feelings, sensations and actions of a person experiencing DP throughout daily life.
My entire life (now 24) have severely struggles to find a way to explain my situation with anyone.
Works like this can SERIOUSLY help out a lot of people trying to free themselves from DP by helping them to find a way to convey their internal madness in a way others can understand.

Johnny Brix

2y↑1

For me, everything feels like one long day. When people do things I just feel as if I'm already in a delighted state, nothing else would make me want to feel fulfilled but that what's makes me more anxious and detached lol.

It's as if I hve come out of an ocean and just come into a different world that is like daydreaming and looking at the world from outside. Everything seems like one forever 2d experience.

Eliana Roberts

3y↑2

This video had me in tears, It put feelings that I've felt for years in actually words, and the imagery explained it beautifully. Thank you for saying what so many have trouble saying.

0

2y↑1

5yrs and counting. Perfectly explained. Glad to know I'm not crazy

Joris Exner

This is amazing. Many people out there, including me, feel your sorrow. Love your informative music videos and finding this completely blew me away. Dont know what else to say really, just thank you. This is well appreciated.

Stopmo Productions

2y↑1

He Put into words something I've struggled to for a long time. And the ending really hit me hard don't skip to the end. Watch the video uninterrupted and feel the thing return that was taken from you. The read more gives the answer.
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Iliana Zzzw......

Joe, I really can relate to your video, I am dealing with severe DDD, it has been a year and half, I feel so trapped in my head, I was diagnosed March last year, I was at the hospital at Stanford for 3 weeks, is like I was never there, don’t remember much, take meds that don’t seem to work at all, I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do to snap out of it. I had an episode like of DDD in 2010 that lasted a year and 3 months and somehow I snapped out of it, don’t remember how I snapped out of it, I believe was gradual then I was back to my happy self. This last episode that started in 2010 is so severe that is super scary because I am not able to keep track what I do one minute to the next. My life was great before this, no mental illness, what it triggered it was the vaccine side effects of extreme fatigue, insomnia and brain fog and the stress of feeling sick from the vaccine side effects and suddenly and totally unexpectedly I still started getting deeper and deeper into DDD with all kinds of weird thoughts and headaches and like you I have it 24/7. Now I feel stuck with no real therapy or cure out there, except I am told that it will eventually go away, meantime I deal with a lot of sufferers feeling powerless of not being able to try something that can work to get better, is there anything that anybody has tried that has helped??

Wilhelm Bittrich

3y↑7

Thanks for this video. My girlfriend is going through this and it's given me a better understanding. I hope that you're able to get through this.

kitkat97

This video was really powerful. I’ve had depersonalization 24/7 for 6 years now. I woke up with it after having too much weed. It hasn’t gone anywhere since. I had depersonalization for a few years in middle/high school and I did recover somehow. However I don’t know if I’ll ever recover this time.

Piglet

2y↑1

You've managed to explain this with words. Very well done

Justine C.

4y↑1

I've been struggling w this for like two years and I've never been able to put it into words as well as you did here,thank you so much for helping those struggling w this feel less alone ❤

Wayne Oladeji

Hey guys! So I have this disorder too and I’ve spent a couple of years researching and studying psychology as well as mental health. Anyways my point is, I know this hell and I’m working on a ‘treatment’ for this. And I’d love to share (for free) And help anyone I can. ❤️

Etherlite Club

Hey man lmk if you have something to help

reckless toboggan

3y↑1

Thank you for sharing. Know that you are helping others, even more than you know....even if it doesn't feel like it.

Henrik Michael

6y↑4

Good job sir, this was accurate!

Stamati Marlon

Never give up guys.
Even if it’s hard and you want to stop everything.
Keep your head up and focus on your dreams even if you have dp

Kira Barsmith

Wow, I was looking through your channel to find your 2019 pedalboard video and came across this. I knew you had a special talent when I watch your guitar related content, but this video is on another level. I wish I had something to offer to help, all I can say is that you've inspired me and many others, and that's a gift to society. Thanks for being so open and real to us, Joe, we appreciate you and wish you nothing but the best life has to offer.

Mike

Brilliant. This video is basically how I feel to a T, people who suffer with this are... strong. So strong. It’s the most mentally alarming and frightening thing I think I may have ever experienced in my life, constantly asking.. am I real? I should not be having to live my life in constant question and fear

Jacksonrjohnson

I’m so happy I stumbled across this beautiful video. I’ve been dealing with it for 2 years now and you explained it all beautifully. Nicely put brother

E. F.

That's a hell of a state to be in, I know it well. A lot of it, in my case is the condition of Benzodiazepines withdrawals, now at 5.5 yrs off, which is quite common. I feel I've lost myself, can't remember who I once. But my life has been one of depression, anxiety, various disorders. So, I have no answers. I'm 63, left handed and guitarist, keyboardist. Wish I could help.

A to Z

Guys, treating and stabilising your anxiety/depression is the key for it to dissipate, anxiety and depression are at the core of this!

Elieza Ocasio

May God Bless Us and help us through this journey, it is terrifying and exhausting. I wish I had the power to heal all mental health issues. I pray we overcome these things and push forward and get our feeling back, out emotion back our life back!!

Makayla Brooks - mental health & religious trauma

I love that you created this! I get this!!! I’ve felt this since I was a little kid and didn’t know why and can’t get people to understand ...

myco_tripss on instagram

I’m sorry❤️ y’all had to go through this pain, I have microdosed golden teachers shrooms and it has helped my Derealization❤️ more than my meds did. Contact the handle on my YouTube title for more guidance.

WarAxe

Jesus Christ is only medicine not drugs don’t lie to people

mk win

Adam Duritz has this as well. Weird to think how “successful” he managed to be despite it. My AvPD kept me from getting anywhere in life.

CoinTrader

I go through this. Anything can help, keeping happy and socialising, avoiding depression can help. Worked for me, still gets me daily but feeling better about myself helps.

Marijan Palić

thank you for this amazing video. i'm glad to hear that i'm not alone with this feeling. i've been fighting this disorder for a couple a years with no positive movement. nothing has changed. i feel disconnected from my body 24/7. i've tried pills, therapy... but nothing works. sometime is really hard to stay normal and positive

Mountain Man

4y↑1

Well, I definitely don‘t have a condition like the one you describe here. Btw that‘s a heck of a pedalboard dude. You are very good at expressing things and putting them into words articulately, I learnt a lot from this video.... thanks, and enjoyed the views too

pauldatspp

Im going on 30 years of this. Keeping the body moving faster than the mind is key. Do your hobbies as best you can, it helps.

Nimsay Wafa

I ve gone through this 4 years ago, it lasted some time, a year maybe, and I still get Dpd and Drd crisis from time to time but I am really better.
Living this disorder is like hell, I still remember that moment, I was in a middle of Dpd episode, I saw something that in ordinary days would make feel really beautiful things inside of me like butterflies, deep connection to life, to the world.. But instead it was like I was watching a movie, didn't feel anything and realized life would never be the same for me.. Never ever.

Disorganized Clutter

5y↑3

Wow, so different from my experience. It helps to hear someone else's experience.

Madelyn

i recently heared of DPD and i always thought feeling like this was completely normal

Elizabeth

3y↑2

I’m really sorry you are going through this I’m going through it right now and had a episode that lasted over 2 weeks I was literally about to kill myself because I couldn’t take it anymore I couldn’t imagine going through it everyday or 24/7 I do have episodes everyday but they usually only last a couple hours your a very strong person and I admire you and all the people in the comment section that is going through dpd love you all stay strong

Maureen1andonly

4y↑2

Thank you so much for this video. It's the closest thing to a true explanation I've heard, although I still say it's completely impossible to know what it feels like unless you've experienced it. I'm 62, and have suffered with it for no less than 35 years, after I had electroconvulsive therapy for post natal depression. I knew something was badly wrong then, and I know something is badly wrong now. I felt detached and my head felt empty, as if my self had disappeared. This feeling will never go now. I will never be normal again. I feel helpless. I just try to get through each day as best I can, and tick another one off when I crawl into bed each night.

Delia Gherasim

you are not alone...i feel the same..

Rosemary Atumeyi

Hi.Am Rosemary from Nigeria. I also suffer from depersonalization disorder.I have had it for 17 yrs now.I will like to b ur friend. Ur experience of having it for over 35 yrs now really touched me.

Dinosaurs - Animal revolt battle simulator

I have the same problem, but i dont live my life as interesting as you do, I kinda envy your lifestyle, like playing some instruments already something that most people cant do, I know that being in nature its great thing, it helps a lot from anxiety and makes you feel alive

Philipito

2y↑1

let me tell u, i’ve recovered from dpdr from having it over 8 months, can it dosent matter you can recover! 100% just forget it and love your life, i know it feels like it’s never gonna end but it’s a process, and it takes 2 weeks of non research about dpdr to heal it

Paul Van Heuklom

I had never heard of this disorder, but I have bipolar 2 and connected with many things you're going through. Mostly wanted you to know I really enjoy your videos.

Jack Gilbert

Hey Joe! Found your channel a few weeks back and think you’re doing a great job! I remember you from when I studied at platform one a long time ago. Keep up the great work man and thanks for sharing this with everyone, very important people understand. Cheers and I look forward to any new videos! 🌞🙏

Faydo

Something that helped me a lot was to focus really really hard on my individual senses and to slowly bring them all together as they got stronger

Andrea Bazoli

I had it for over a year, the trigger for me was weed, I woke up the day after and I thought I was in a video game/dream, I also thought that life was a dream and that everyone accept for me was fake.
I’ve got through it now, I’m so happy and after you cure from this I guranteee you guys you will be 100 times stronger than before.
I didn’t take any medicine or nothing, I just went to psychologist to help me out.
When I had it, it was mainly because I was anxious about something, even if I didn’t realise I was.
All I can say to you is that I’m so happy that I got rid of it and it is possible, it is going to be very hard but it will be worth it guys trust me on this.
Life is too short for this, we already have so many problems in our lives we don’t need extra stress, don’t overthink it, try to make it your friend and I promise you guys you can get rid of it. Do not try to shake it off, it will just make things worse for you, try live with it and it will go away.
Love my brothers, take care of yourselves.

vishal

5y↑8

every day I dream in my sleep ..in days also(when I sleep in day time) ...they seem to be so real ... I hope one day i will beat this shitty situation ..and regularly taking medicines since 2015 ..hope for the better tomorrow....i know its curable ...so make yourself busy doing you like without thinking about dpdr..just make yourself busy..dont think too much about this definatly you will beat this ....

Curt Ahnlund

You make amazing videos, God Bless you Joe!

Justen Stoodley

Thank you for being so transparent as you peel back the layers, giving us insight into your ‘inner world’......
you bring forth a lot of legitimate ‘food for thought’. Cheers.

Peter Dwyer

2y↑1

had this for 27 years. back in the early 90s no one knew what I had neither did the doctors. I wandered for a decade not knowing and lonely af. I wasn't properly diagnosed until over a decade ago. iv just made peace with it. nothing works or fixes it. I'd love to feel real again just for one hour. it's all I ask.

Robert Mac

2y↑1

Hi Peter, It has been the same for me. I have literally had this not feeling real feeling 24/7 for 27 years as well. Still trying to strategize against this thing but we can't give up. It seems like very little helps but I am trying new strategies and will definitely let my newly found brothers in sisters know of any success. Thanks for sharing your comment.

Mari Molina

In my 19th year of this & I’ve just heard of it this week.

Michael

Joe this is a lovely video. I suffer and it's absolutely terrifyingly. How are you at present?

Hope

2y↑1

Hello people, I think that it will soon be about 3 years with DPDR. The biggest problem for me is that I still can not find the cause of the condition. I have never tried any drugs, I do not remember ever experiencing big stressful experiences, traumas, etc. Some things i could say about myself are that by nature I am shy, I have a more excitable nervous system and a deep thinkerst brain with flying crazy and stupid thoughts.

Does anyone have an idea how to find the reason for the triggering, because by path of logic there must be some reason, why else does it still continuing ?

Is there someone like me out there with whom we could be mutually beneficial ?

Zephyr Haven Möieser

5y↑27

It FEELS SO STRANGE.. But.. i tell myself its ok bc ill make it through.. Ugh. Greyscale life. But I'LL BE STRONG!

Sensei_oh_yeah_yeah Duncan

Did u ever make it through?

DR ZABER

4y↑40

Hi have had this condition for a year now. It is a severe disability. My life has completely changed. But with the help of Allah I stay strong and continue with life as best as possible.