2atr El 7ayah
Ahmed Mekky Lyrics

في كل لفة عقرب ساعة عمري بيتسرسب بيعدي
With every tick of the clock, my life slips away

الناس والدنيا بتتغير حتى الحديد بيصدي
People and the world change, even iron rusts

وأنا الوحيد واقف مكاني ثابت في ناس اختارت سكة صابت ناس تانية اختارت سكة خابت
I'm the only one staying in one place, while others chose successful paths or failed ones

احساس قاسي وصعب لما الناس تشوفك فاشل
A difficult and harsh feeling when people see you as a failure

ابوك وامك واخواتك وصحابك شايفينك عاطل
Your father, mother, siblings, and friends see you as jobless

قوم يابني اسعى وحاول
Rise, my son, strive and try

والله غلبت احاول
God, I've tried so hard

ياما حاولت و قبل ما الجول ما ييجي يطلع فاول
I've tried countless times, but before I could succeed, I failed

معنديش مهارة وحتى كوسة وحوستى حوسة ودوست بعد اخر البنزين بدوسة
I lack skill, even my job applications end up in the trash

في كل مقابلة شغلانة يتقالى لف نفسك بشهادتك مدد بجنب اي حيط وخدلك بوسة
In every job interview, they ask you to brag about your qualifications, but they end up rejecting you

رجعت فلاش باك حسبت سنين عمري 30 سنة لقيت
I looked back and thought I wasted 30 years of my life

حسبت تانى وتالت واتخضيت
I recalculated, but still had no hope

ببص في المراية كم شعراية بيضة لقيت
When I look in the mirror, I see how much my hair has turned white

وابويا هو الى لسة بيصرف ع البيت
And my father is still supporting the household

بتعامل من عيلتى على انى عالة وحالتى حالة
My family treats me as a burden and my situation is hopeless

ثقتى بنفسي راحت. النجاح بقى استحالة
I lost confidence in myself. Success became impossible

نفسي اهرب من نفسي ومن حالتى و من عيلتى ومن الدنيا
I want to escape from myself, my situation, my family, and the world

نفسي القى دنيا تانية اهرب ليها ولا حتى ثانية
I wish I could find another world to escape to, even for a second

وفي يوم قالهالى صاحبي والى يدلك عالطريق
One day, my friend told me, and the one who leads you on the path

ميفدش صاحب غير صاحبو اسمع من الصديق
A true friend won't deceive you, listen to your friend

قالى في قعدة ضرب حلوة باليل عاملينها
He told me about a fun gathering they had at night

سالتو هاش ضحك وقالى بيسة قولتله لا ادمنها
I asked him if they laughed and he said, 'No, they were high'

قالى متخافش مش ممكن تدمن من اول شكة
He told me not to worry, it's not possible to get addicted from the first hit

اقنعنى بالليل فعلا شكيت اول شكة
He convinced me, and I hesitated to try my first hit

مفاصلي ساحت وارتاحت وروحى راحت
My joints relaxed, my worries eased, and my soul drifted away

بكلم نفسي من جوة وبرغي من برة ساكت
I talk to myself internally while appearing silent to others

همومي شبه تاهت والرؤية بهات في باهت
My worries have almost disappeared, and my vision is blurry

كل مشكلة كانت عندى في الدنيا ماتت وراحت
Every problem I had in this world has died and gone away

عدت ساعات في ثانية لقيت الصحبة قايمة
In just a few seconds, hours passed, and I found my friends standing

دخلت بيتى وش الفجر عيلتى كانت نايمة
I entered my house, my family was asleep at dawn

دفنت نفسي تحت البطانية جسمى مثلج
I buried myself under the blanket, my body was frozen

نمت في اقل من ثانية نومت واحد متبنج
I fell asleep in less than a second, a deep slumber

وانا زى ما انا من لما كان عندى سنة
As I am, from the time I was just a year old

هيا هيا الحياة هوا هوا انا انا زهقت طهقت من الحياة تقدر تقول مليت انا
Oh, life, I'm fed up and exhausted, you can say I'm tired

صحيت وفقت رجعت تانى للواقع والعكننة
I woke up, realized, and returned to reality and its wretchedness

عدى النهار بطيئ كأنة كام شهر وسنة
The day passed slowly, feeling like months and years

نفسي النهار يعدى بسرعة وأضرب تانى
I wish the day would pass quickly, so I can start over

ارجع ملك زمانى بعيد ع العالم الى رمانى
I long to go back to my old self, far from this forsaken world

خلونى أضرب معاهم كل يوم وبتعزم
Let me join them and get high every day, they invite me

خلاص دخلت السكة والطريق بيترسم
I've gone down this path, and the road is laid out

فجأنى صحبى فى يوم قلهالى فى وشى خف تعوم
My friend suddenly told me to be careful, you might drown

أجيب فلوس منين ليا وليك نضرب كل يوم
Where will I get money? We hit every day

شخشخ جيبك يا أما من قعدتنا دى تكون محروم
Get your wallet out, or you won't get anything from this gathering

من النهار دة مفيش ضرب ببلاش مفهوم
Since this day, hitting without payment is not accepted

روحت وتانى يوم فى معاد الضرب جسمى اتكهرب
I went, and the next day at the agreed time, my body felt electrified

كرابيج فى ظهرى ومنخيرى سايلة وبتسرب
My back was in pain, and my nose was dripping, leaking

منين اجيب فلوس منين اجيب فلوس
Where can I get money? Where can I get money?

بدأت استلف فلوس من كل الى اعرفة وأدوس
I started borrowing money from everyone I knew, and pushed them away

وحتى أخواتى خدت منهم فلوس دروس
Even my siblings, I took money from them without guilt

كلة كرهنى وبيهرب منى زى تقلت على النفوس
Everyone became resentful towards me and avoided me like I had a contagious disease

خمسين جنية فى خمسين فى مية
Fifty pounds at a time, fifty, and then a hundred

بسرق يوماتى فلوس من البيت والكل شك فيا
I stole money from my house, and everyone suspected me

نزلت بعت كل حاجة جاتلى فى يوم هدية
I sold everything I received as gifts in just one day

خلصت فلوسى لحد فى يوم ماجتلى فكرة هيا هيا
I ran out of money until one day an idea hit me, a desperate thought

دهب امى موبايل اختى لاب توب اخويا
My mother's gold, my sister's laptop, my brother's gaming console

سرقتهم نزلت اهرب من البيت وقفنى ابويا
I stole them, ran away from home, but my father confronted me

حاول يمنعنى مسكنى من أيدى جامد زقيتة
He tried to stop me, pulled me with all his strength, but I hit him hard

وأتخبط فى الحيط بصلى ازاى ابنة وأذيتة
I bumped into the wall, wondering how I hurt my own son

خد منى كل حاجة وتربس الباب غضب
He took everything from me and slammed the door in anger

سعتها طلبت اغرب حاجة ممكن تتطلب
At that moment, I asked for the strangest thing imaginable

عاوز فلوس حالا يأما هرتكب جريمة
I wanted money immediately, even if it meant committing a crime

أتهمنى بالجنون وأدانى كام شتيمة
They accused me of madness and cursed me with insults

ببان كل الأوض بتتفتح عيلتى بتتفرج
Everything became clear, my family watched me

لسه بيستوعبوا يمكن دا جد يمكن بنهرج
They're still trying to understand, maybe this is a joke, maybe a prank

سحبت بنت اختى 3 سنين نحيت شباك
I kidnapped my niece for three years, hiding her in a closed room

هاتو الفلوس لرميها فجأة زاد الأرتباك
They gave me the money to release her, but suddenly the confusion increased

أمى بكت بحرقة قدامى فقت لثوانى
My mother cried painfully in front of me, it lasted seconds

رميتلى فلوس وبصوت عالى مشوفش وشك تانى
She threw money at me loudly, without even looking at my face

أمشى ملكش أم يأبغض من شيطانى
I roam aimlessly, no one hates me more than my own demons

خادت الفلوس وجريت عارف مش راجع بيتى تانى
I took the money and ran, knowing I won't return home again

قطر الحياة بيعدى بسرعة.سنة فـ سنة فـ س
Life passes by quickly. Year after year

وانا زى ماانا من لما كان عندى سنة
And I remain the same as I was when I was just a year old

هيا هيا الحياة هوا هوا انا انا زهقت طهقت من الحياة تقدر تقول مليت انا
Oh, life, I'm fed up and exhausted, you can say I'm tired

خسرت كل اهلى وأصحابى بقيت وحيد
I've lost all my family and friends, I became lonely

ومنين هجيب فلوس لازم ألاقى طريق جديد
And where can I get money now? I have to find a new way

فجأة افتكرت جار من سنى ساكن لوحدة طول عمرة
Suddenly, I remembered a neighbor who lived alone his whole life

أبوة فى أعارة برة مصرى وشهرى فلوس يبعتلو
His father works abroad and sends him money monthly

شديته زى ما اتشديت انا لنفس الطريق
I convinced him as I convinced myself to take the same path

لقيت مصدر فلوس جديد وبيت ولقيت صديق
I found a new source of money, a house, and I found a friend

نضرب سوا بفلوسةوفى بيته ملناش ظهور
We hit together with his money, no one knew about his house

شقى سنين أبوةخلص كله فى أربع شهور
He worked for years, but everything was gone in just four months

وفى ليلة بنضرب جاتلة مكالمة مصدقهاش
One night while we were getting high, he received a call, not believing what he heard

أبوة عرف ان ابنة بيسرقه أتنقل انعاش
His father found out he was being robbed, he felt revived

كل عصب فى جسمى اتوتر زودت الجرعة اكتر
Every nerve in my body tensed, I increased the dosage

الجرعة المعتادة خلاص مبقتش تأثر
The usual dosage didn't have an effect anymore

شريط حياتى كله بيتعرض قدامى اغبر فى اغبر
My whole life is replayed before me, darker than ever

ضربت السم فى عروقى وذودته اكتر و اكتر
I injected the poison into my veins, defending it more and more

نفسى افنى وأخلص من الدنيا زى المية اتبخر
I wish to vanish and escape from the world like evaporating water

كمان زودته سنه جسمى لون أصفر
Another year passed, my body turned yellow

صحبى أتفزع قام واتسرع مالك أصفر لية ياجدع
My friend got startled, stood up, and asked why I turned yellow

جسمك عرقان وبتترعش زى الى مل الحيا اتلدع
Your body is sweaty and trembling like someone who has been deeply hurt by life

رغم انى غرقان فى العرق جسمى متلج موجوع وجع
Although soaked in sweat, my body feels icy cold, in pain

من خضتى جيت أصلب طولى جسمى على الأرض اترزع
Since I started this, my body became weak, always trembling on the ground

جسمى رافض لكل أمر منى لقوة اتهدت
My body refuses all commands, weakened by my own strength

والدنيا بتضلم تدريجى واحدة واحدة أسودت
The world turns darker gradually, one after another, it blackens

أخر لقطة فى حياتى شفتها كانت مأساه
The last scene I witnessed in my life was a tragedy

صحبى مرعوب وبيرائب فراقى للحياة
My friend terrified, trembling, bidding farewell to life