The experience convinced her that she wanted to be in a band and that she wanted the band to control its own destiny. For the past couple of years she has worked and performed with her long-term collaborator and partner in 'Amanda Ghost', Ian Dench, himself a songwriter with an international reputation as writer of the punk standard 'Unbelievable', a worldwide hit for EMF, of which Ian was the guitarist and founder member. Amanda has enjoyed huge success in 2005/6 as co-writer of James Blunt’s worldwide hit “You’re Beautiful” and tracks on his “Back To Bedlam” album and this has raised her profile ahead of the band’s release of its first album, scheduled for Autumn 2006 on their own label, Plan A Records.
“It's no surprise that she is the machination of popular genius behind James Blunt; Amanda is a commanding singer and a very talented song writer” - Antony (and The Johnsons), March 2006
The album release will be preceded by 2 EPs, the first of which is a limited edition 4 tracker entitled 'Blood On The Line', produced by Dave McCracken (Depeche Mode/Ian Brown) and featuring live performance band members Richie Stevens (drums/percussion) and Hide (bass). Amanda-Ghost.com
A Child Believes
Amanda Ghost Lyrics
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It was when he would lay into me
Told that your worthless from five years old
Is it part of your destiny
He's standing next to me
I cannot breath
When will I have the guts to leave?
Runaway from all that is sacred
Escaping the shadow over me
Runaway, you'll never make it
It's all that a child believes
I don't remember when I felt warm
I was never quite good enough
I only wanted the simple things
Like being told you were loved
He's still supporting me
But where's the faith
Looking in his eyes I sense his hate
Runaway from all that is sacred
Escaping the shadow over me
Runaway
(Runaway, runaway, runaway)
Runaway from all that is sacred
Escaping the shadow over me
Runaway, you'll never make it
It's all that a child believes
I never cry for sadness
I cut off from the pain
I won't forget your madness
But I'll forgive you anyway
But I'll forgive you anyway
He's standing next to me
I cannot breathe
When will I have the guts to leave
Runaway from all that is sacred
Escaping the shadow over me
Runaway
(Runaway, runaway, runaway)
You'll never make it
It's all that a child believes
Amanda Ghost's song "A Child Believes" is a powerful ballad that deals with the emotional and psychological trauma experienced by children who have grown up in abusive households. The lyrics describe the singer's experience of being emotionally and verbally abused by someone close to her from a young age, causing her to feel worthless and unloved. The person in question is still a part of her life, but the song hints at her desire to break away from their toxic influence and make a new start for herself.
The song is haunting and emotional, and it captures the feeling of being trapped in a cycle of abuse while desperately wanting to break free. In the first verse, the singer describes the moment she became aware of the coldness that had crept into her life, coinciding with the beginning of the abuse. She then goes on to describe how difficult it is to escape from this situation, how the abuser continues to support them, almost as if they want to keep them trapped.
In the chorus, the singer admits that running away might seem like the only solution, but acknowledges that it's not always possible for a child to do this. The repeated use of the word "runaway" highlights the feeling of desperation and the need to escape, but the repeated phrase "you'll never make it" represents the reality of the situation - that often, it's not easy to escape from an abusive situation, and even if one does, the effects can last a lifetime.
Overall, Amanda Ghost's "A Child Believes" is a poignant and powerful song that explores the lasting impact of childhood trauma. It's a song that resonates with many people who have experienced abuse or neglect, and it highlights the importance of breaking the cycle of abuse and providing support for those who have been affected.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't remember when I got cold
I cannot recall the exact moment when I felt emotionally numb
It was when he would lay into me
This started happening when he began to verbally and emotionally abuse me
Told that your worthless from five years old
Being told that I had no worth since the age of five was a part of my abuser's strategy
Is it part of your destiny
Perhaps, it was meant to be this way in my life
He's standing next to me
Although he is physically nearby, I feel completely alone
I cannot breath
His presence is suffocating me
When will I have the guts to leave?
I wonder when I will find the courage to escape from this toxic environment
Runaway from all that is sacred
I must escape from everything that I once held dear
Escaping the shadow over me
Fleeing from the darkness that constantly looms over me
Runaway, you'll never make it
He said I would never succeed if I leave, but I know I must try
It's all that a child believes
The only reality I know is what I was taught as a child, even if it is wrong
I don't remember when I felt warm
I cannot recall the last time I felt safe and loved
I was never quite good enough
No matter how hard I tried, it was never enough for him
I only wanted the simple things
All I ever desired was to be acknowledged and loved for who I am
Like being told you were loved
Simple words of affection were denied to me
He's still supporting me
He claims to be on my side, but I am not sure if I can trust him
But where's the faith
I am unsure if he truly believes in me and my abilities
Looking in his eyes I sense his hate
I can see the anger and resentment he has towards me in his gaze
I never cry for sadness
I am so used to feeling terrible that I no longer cry out of sadness
I cut off from the pain
I have learned to shut off my emotions to cope with the pain
I won't forget your madness
The scars of your abusive behavior will always be a part of me
But I'll forgive you anyway
Despite everything, I choose to forgive you for your actions
You'll never make it
He tries to discourage me by telling me I will fail, but I know that I have to try
It's all that a child believes
As a child, I did not know any better than to believe in what my abuser told me
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, THE ROYALTY NETWORK INC., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Amanda Ghost, John Themistocleous
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