Amanda Merdzan began playing solo in 2008 and has since supported acts such as; Eskimo Joe, Oh Mercy, Holly Throsby and Split Seconds. In 2010 she played at the WAMi (Western Australia Music Industry) Saturday Spectacular Closing Party at Amplifier Bar alongside Jebediah. 2010 also saw her play as part of the One Movement Fringe Festival.
Over the years, Merdzan has performed alongside acts such as The Tallest Man On Earth and Abbe May at The Wave Rock Weekender. She has also showcased at Canada’s largest music festival; Canadian Music Week, in 2013 alongside Emma Louise and The Falls. Her Canadian showcase was followed by two shows in New York City and a national Australian tour in April.
Merdzan released a five track EP titled ‘The Map Has Been Redrawn’ in March 2013, which has received reviews from multiple Triple J presenters along with national airplay on the station.
Merdzan's first single 'Matter' from latest EP 'Commands' was a step in a new direction for this artist, taking her sound into the electronic realm. 'Matter' received national airplay on Australian radio and reviews from various blogs.
'Commands' was released on July 25th and has since received multiple reviews and radio airplay across Australia, Ireland and the UK, including airplay on BBC Radio 6 Music as part of the BBC Introducing Mixtape.
'Commands' is available through all major online retailers and streaming services.
The Last Song
Amanda Merdzan Lyrics
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I'm forgetting how your tongue turns and twists.
And the contours of your face, with which my hands I had traced.
From memory, you, I couldn't paint.
I'm forgetting how you looked in the French sun.
I'm forgetting how our voices sound as one.
As we translate on the train another little phrase.
And I don't think you know why I really let you go.
No I don't think you could ever understand
What I sacrificed so you could get yourself right.
I don't think you could ever understand.
I'm forgetting how your eyes looked from the start.
I'm forgetting where they turned dark and harsh.
And at our bitter end you didn't want me as a friend.
And oh my God I loved you more than life.
I'm forgetting how my hands felt on your chest.
I'm forgetting that there's not much of you left.
And this engraved guitar strap, that's hanging from my back.
Only the name I won't forget.
And you said; You're the love of my life, can I please still make you my wife?
After our worst worst fight.
And I hope you carry on, baby go, go get strong.
And I hope that my love stays in your heart once I depart.
In Amanda Merdzan's song "The Last Song," the singer reflects on the memories of a past relationship that she's slowly forgetting. She starts by saying how she's forgetting how her lover's lips felt to kiss and how their tongues turned and twisted. She's also forgetting the contours of their face, which at one time she had traced with her hands. The singer then laments that from memory, she couldn't paint her lover. She's forgetting how they looked in the French sun and how their voices melded together as they translated another little phrase on the train. As she reminisces about their relationship, in her head, she notices that her lover's voice is growing faint.
The singer then goes on to express that she doesn't think her former lover knows why she let him go. She sacrificed a lot so that he could get himself right, and she doesn't believe he could ever understand. As the song continues, the singer reveals how she's forgetting how her lover's eyes looked from the start and where they turned dark and harsh. She recalls bitterly that at the end of their relationship, he didn't even want her as a friend. The memory of a previous fight crops up as her lover tells her that she's the love of his life, and he still wants to make her his wife. The song concludes with the singer hoping that her former lover will go on and get strong, and that her love will stay in his heart once she's departed.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm forgetting how your lips felt to kiss.
I can't recall the sensation of kissing you.
I'm forgetting how your tongue turns and twists.
I can't remember how your tongue moved against mine.
And the contours of your face, with which my hands I had traced.
I can't remember the details of your face that I had memorized.
From memory, you, I couldn't paint.
I can't create a visual image of you from my memory.
I'm forgetting how you looked in the French sun.
I can't imagine how you appeared in the sunlight of France.
I'm forgetting how our voices sound as one.
I can't recall how our voices harmonized together.
As we translate on the train another little phrase.
As we struggled to translate a phrase on the train.
In my head your voice is growing faint.
In my mind, your voice is becoming quieter.
And I don't think you know why I really let you go.
I don't believe you comprehend why I had to leave you.
No I don't think you could ever understand
I don't think you possess the ability to comprehend.
What I sacrificed so you could get yourself right.
I gave up something so you could work on yourself.
I don't think you could ever understand.
I doubt you can really comprehend.
I'm forgetting how your eyes looked from the start.
I can't remember the look of your eyes from the beginning.
I'm forgetting where they turned dark and harsh.
I can't recall when your eyes became severe and stern.
And at our bitter end you didn't want me as a friend.
At our painful end, you didn't want to stay friends.
And oh my God I loved you more than life.
I loved you more than anything else in this world.
I'm forgetting how my hands felt on your chest.
I can't remember how it felt to touch your chest.
I'm forgetting that there's not much of you left.
I'm forgetting that you're no longer the same person you used to be.
And this engraved guitar strap, that's hanging from my back.
I still carry with me this guitar strap that bears your name.
Only the name I won't forget.
I won't ever forget your name.
And you said; You're the love of my life, can I please still make you my wife?
You once said to me, 'You are the love of my life, can I still make you my wife?'
After our worst worst fight.
After the most terrible fight we've had.
And I hope you carry on, baby go, go get strong.
I wish for you to keep moving forward, baby, get stronger.
And I hope that my love stays in your heart once I depart.
I hope that my love remains in your heart even after I'm gone.
Contributed by Ethan J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Amanda Merdzan
Thank you so much everyone x
BootsandUtes
I really hope Amanda never stops making music; indie artists like her are a gift to the world
TheKrystaleigh
I still can't believe I discovered your incredible talent in a local laundrymat. You are amazing hun! :) loving local talent right now! :)
RSD
Just discovered your music & its so beautiful ❤❤❤
horseasaurus
Still loving this song years later from when I first saw you at the Ellington Songwriters night. Bravo!
Amanda Merdzan
Hey! Well..... thank you so much for coming out to that show! And for finding me online too. It means a lot. Really happy to hear you like what I do :)
Mark Capanas
keep on doing music like this..and don't forget your fans here in the philippines....
Michelle Filler
Wow...this song is amazing!! And it describes how I am feeling PERFECTLY. I searched around google to find the lyrics, but I couldn't find them. :/ Is it maybe possible for you to post the lyrics? And maybe the chords? I would LOVE to cover this for my open mic competition, with your permission of course :)
manuel camuñez
beautiful song!
alfo. salvo
This song makes me cry. Because being afraid is being alive.
This song makes me smile. Because smiling is being alive.