They started in 1993 by playing covers of Metallica, but once the concept became popular they wrote their own original works, maintaining the thrash metal influences on their albums Inquisition Symphony (mainly covers as well) and Cult. Since Reflections they have added drums to their recordings and live performances.
Members:
Eicca Toppinen - Cello
Perttu Kivilaakso - Cello
Paavo Lötjönen - Cello
Mikko Sirén - Drums
Former members:
Sami Kuoppamäki - Session Drums
Perttu Kivilaakso - Cello (1995)
Antero Manninen – Cello (1996–1999, usually plays live)
Max Lilja – Cello (1996–2002, when he joined Hevein)
Dave Lombardo - Drums [session member] (2003-2004, from the band Slayer. Also contributed drums on the songs Betrayal/Forgiveness, Last Hope and 2010 from 7th Symphony)
I'm Not Jesus featuring Corey Taylor
Apocalyptica Lyrics
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Dirty little lies
Say your prayers and comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aberrations fill your head
And I am
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world's come crashing down
I want to be there
Your god is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there!
You could confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
Your god ain't looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
No I won't
No I won't
I've thought you were a good man
I've thought you talked to God
Your hippocratic messiah and child abusive turned satanic
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your world's come crashing down
I want to be there
Your god is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
When your own world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
I'm not Jesus
You can't run away
And the innocence you spoil
Find a way to live
Your god is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
I won't forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
Do you remember me?
And the kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be
Oh, do you remember me?
No!
When your world's come crashing down
I want to be there
Your god is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You could confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
Your god is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
Oh, I will not forgive, yeah yeah
No, I will not forgive!
The song "I'm Not Jesus" by Apocalyptica is a powerful statement that conveys a sense of betrayal and anger towards a religious figure who is portrayed as hypocritical and abusive. The dirty secrets and lies that this figure tries to hide are exposed and the singer is no longer willing to forgive or forget. The lyrics suggest that this person is someone the singer knew in their youth and looked up to, believing that they were a good and holy person who talked to God. However, as they grew older and understood the world around them better, they realized that this figure was not the saintly person they claimed to be, but someone who was corrupt and abusive.
The singer refuses to forgive this person for their deeds and declares that they are not Jesus. They reject the idea that this religious figure has any divine authority over them and refuse to let them get away with their transgressions. They want to be there for the person when their world comes crashing down, but they won't be the one to offer forgiveness. The song suggests that the act of forgiveness is not so easy when someone has done something truly wrong, and that sometimes it's better to stand up to wrongdoing and refuse to let it be swept under the rug.
Line by Line Meaning
Dirty little secret
There's a hidden truth that you're keeping to yourself
Dirty little lies
You're telling lies to cover up that truth
Say your prayers and comb your hair
You're trying to appear righteous on the outside, but there's no hiding the truth
Save your soul tonight
You're seeking redemption for your actions
Drift among the faithful
You're trying to fit in with the people who appear to be good and righteous
Bury your desires
You're suppressing your true desires that go against what is considered right and moral
Aberrations fill your head
You're consumed by thoughts and desires that are considered abnormal or deviant
You need a place to hide
You want to escape the judgement and scrutiny of others
And I am
The singer feels like he is the one you are hiding from and doesn't want to be associated with you
Do you remember me?
The singer is asking if you remember who he is and how you used to be close
And the kid I used to be?
The singer is referring to his naive and innocent younger self
When your world's come crashing down, I want to be there
The singer is willing to support you when you're at your lowest
Your god is looking down on me
You're being judged by a higher power
I'm not Jesus
The singer is not your savior or redeemer
Jesus wasn't there!
The singer is questioning the effectiveness of religion and Christianity
You could confess it all away, but it's only shit to me
Confessing your sins to the singer means nothing to him
I will not forgive
The singer has no intention of forgiving you for your actions
I've thought you were a good man
The singer used to think highly of you
I've thought you talked to God
The singer thought you were connected with a higher power
Your hippocratic messiah and child abusive turned satanic
The singer is accusing you of being a hypocritical person who was once a religious figure but has since become demonic and abusive
When your own world comes undone, let me be the one to say
The singer wants to be there for you when all fails
You can't run away
You can't escape the consequences of your actions
And the innocence you spoil, find a way to live
The singer believes you have corrupted something pure and innocent and he hopes you can learn to live with it
I won't be whatever you want to
The singer refuses to conform to your expectations or demands
Not the same as I used to be
The singer has changed and is no longer the same person he used to be
No!
The singer is rejecting something demanded of him
No, I will not forgive!
The singer reiterates that he will not forgive you
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: GENO LENARDO, JOHNNY LEE ANDREWS
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@panthera50
Dirty little secret
Dirty little lies
Say your prayers and comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aberrations fill your head
You need a place to hide
And I am
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there!
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive!
No I won't!
No I won't!
I've thought you were a good man
I've thought you talked to God
You hippocratic, messianic, child abusing, turned satanic
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your own world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
(If God is looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus
You can't run away!
And the innocence you spoil
Found a way to live
If God is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive!
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be!
Oh, do you remember me?
No!
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there!
You confess it all away
But it only shit to me!
If God is looking down on me!
I'm not Jesus
I will not
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive!
Oh, I will not forgive, yeah yeah!
No, I will not forgive!
@ScanerSlo
Dirty little secret
Dirty little lies
Say your prayers and comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aberrations fill your head
You need a place to hide
And I am
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
No I won't
No I won't
I've thought you were a good man
I've thought you talked to God
You Hippocratic, messianic, child abusing, turned satanic
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your own world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
(If God is looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus
You can't run away
And the innocence you spoil
Found a way to live
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be
Oh, do you remember me?
No
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
Oh, I will not forgive, yeah yeah
No, I will not forgive
@SassyKaren68
Anyone still listening to this hard hitting song in 2023/2024??
@user-kf5gp8mv2u
Always🤞🏻
@Jacobmoo
Do you remember!!!
@cierra7765
2024
@tomaszdunicz2949
ofc :D
@JessicaCraigBly
I listen to this all of the time. The feeling is just very relatable.
@theperfectbeing
Given Corey's recent coming out about his sexual abuse when he was a child at the hands of someone older he trusted, this really gets an extra punch to it in terms of understanding his passion and rage.
This song has gotten better with time but for all the "wrong" reasons.
@vilmoslente3487
Slipknot XIX
@mmnde12
I just cried reading that and hearing this song after so many years.. it’s such a powerful yet painful song
@melissadyson8515
I echo his feelings. When your own parents believe the abuser and your left alone with your pain, I feel every cord of this song.