Deficiency of You
Bitter Ruin Lyrics


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Withdrawal symptoms begin to occur
Shaky and vision begin to blur
I find myself wanting to scream out loud
And spurt violent outbursts resulting in fear
The need to cry is so overwhelming
I'm vitally missing vitality here

I can feel my skin is drying
And my heart has slowed the blood that it should be supplying
And I think that I am close to a place where my spirit is dying
Due to deficiency of you

I am electronically blowing a fuse
And if I was a piece of machinery my cogs refuse to move
And Billy has lassoed my horses
Their pins are bowled by thread
And everyone knows that a cure for a horse
With a broken leg is a shot to the head

I can feel my skin is drying
And my heart has slowed the blood that it should be supplying
And I think that I am close to a place where my spirit is dying
Due to deficiency of you

Come home to me
Bring back the world
Take hold of me
Before I am cold

I can feel my skin is drying
And my heart has slowed the blood that it should be supplying




And I think that I am close to a place where my spirit is dying
Due to deficiency of you

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Bitter Ruin's song "Deficiency of You" express intense emotions of withdrawal, pain and desperation that arise due to missing someone deeply. The opening lines talk about the beginning of withdrawal symptoms such as shakiness and blurred vision that make the singer want to scream out loud, leading to violent outbursts that scare them. They also mention the overwhelming need to cry, which shows how much they are affected by the absence of the person they are missing.


The next verse talks about the physical damage caused by emotional pain. The singer's skin feels dry, and their heart has slowed down, affecting the blood supply to the body. This devastation leads to a feeling of spiritual dying caused by the "deficiency of you." The following verse uses a metaphor of being an electronic device that blows a fuse to show how deeply the singer is affected by the absence of the person they need. The metaphorical reference to Billy lassoing the horses, and the cure for a broken leg being a shot to the head, emphasizes the singer's desperation and hopelessness.


The chorus repeats the refrain of feeling the skin drying and the heart slowing down, along with the emotional pain of feeling that their spirit is dying. The plea to "come home to me" and "bring back the world" shows the singer's need for the person they are missing. The last line, "Before I am cold," emphasizes the urgency of their need, revealing the fear of losing themselves entirely.


Line by Line Meaning

Withdrawal symptoms begin to occur
I am experiencing withdrawal symptoms which indicate a physical and emotional dependence on your presence


Shaky and vision begin to blur
The withdrawal is causing physical symptoms like trembling and impaired vision


I find myself wanting to scream out loud
The intensity of my emotions is making me want to release it through loud outbursts


And spurt violent outbursts resulting in fear
But the violent outbursts, though just a release of pent-up emotions, are causing fear in others


The need to cry is so overwhelming
I feel the urge to cry uncontrollably because I miss you so much


I'm vitally missing vitality here
My life feels lacking in vitality and energy without you in it


I can feel my skin is drying
My body feels dry and dehydrated, perhaps due to the lack of emotional support


And my heart has slowed the blood that it should be supplying
My heart is affected too, pumping less blood than it should, which may signify depression or anxiety


And I think that I am close to a place where my spirit is dying
The emotional deficiency is taking a toll on my spirit, making me feel dead or slowly losing the will to live


Due to deficiency of you
Because you're not here, I'm experiencing this emotional and physical deficiency


I am electronically blowing a fuse
Metaphorically, I feel like a machine that's about to break down due to an overload or malfunction


And if I was a piece of machinery my cogs refuse to move
Continuing the metaphor, I feel like the internal parts of me that used to work smoothly together are now jammed and not functioning properly


And Billy has lassoed my horses
Another metaphor, where Billy represents the external factor that's hindering me from moving forward with my life


Their pins are bowled by thread
The horses' legs, or perhaps my own legs, feel weak and unable to support my weight, like they're held together by a flimsy thread


And everyone knows that a cure for a horse with a broken leg is a shot to the head
The metaphor implies that the people around me probably think the 'cure' for my emotional brokenness is a quick fix or avoidance, which is not helpful


Come home to me
I want and need you to come back to me


Bring back the world
Your presence creates a whole new world of possibilities and happiness for me


Take hold of me
Physically and emotionally take me in your arms and hold me tight


Before I am cold
Do it soon, because I feel like I'm slowly losing my warmth, happiness, and spark of life




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