Outrageous
Bitter Ruin Lyrics

I wanted to put myself in your position to figure you out
I desired to comprehend you better by placing myself in your place

So I took a chainsaw to my scull and extracted my brain out
I chose to remove my brain to attain your perspective, causing physical damage

Something I found out in this exercise is you are alone
I discovered that loneliness is a significant aspect in comprehending you better.

I wanted to think like you thought to answer some of the whys
I yearned to anticipate how you think to understand the reasoning behind some of your actions.

So I took a blindfold of denial and bolted it to my eyes
I intentionally blinded myself to the truths that I did not want to acknowledge to share in your perspective.

And what I saw was something I'd not known before that you are alone
My new-found conclusion after blindfolding myself was recognizing that you encounter a deep sense of loneliness.

See those pretty eyes
The singer is drawing attention to their eyes.

Can be pretty green
The eyes can exhibit envy, jealousy, disgust or illness.

And see that pretty mouth
The attention changes from the eyes and extends to the mouth.

Can be pretty mean
The mouth can articulate harmful, scornful or unpleasant comments.

This boy is, this boy is
The boy in question is being pointed out (the one with the pretty green eyes and pretty mean mouth)

Outrageous
The boy's characteristics have exceeded the limit of normal and are now considered scandalous.

I tiptoed around you like a ballerina because I was na've
I treated the individual delicately because I was innocent in my approach

But you made me murderous, viciousness showed itself in me
The individual forced the singer to be violent and violent tendencies manifested as a result

Yeah it drew out a venom I'd not known about because he was alone
Due to the lonliness element, a toxic quality that the singer was not aware they held was exposed.

He took it out on me and I took it readily
The boy inflicted harm on the artist, and they accepted it as if it was personally deserved.

While surviving this attack I soon learned how to battle back
Despite the artist's journey to survive the incident, they now possess the ability to protect themselves.

And I can't say that I know myself anymore
Due to the traumatic incident, the singer doesn't feel like they recognize themselves internally anymore.

And I won't say that I can be repaired
The singer knows that they can't be fixed, and they reject the notion.

But I know I've learn from the trails that I was made to endure
Despite the harm caused, the artist was able to learn from their traumatic experience.

And now he won't cross me I'm angry and he's the one that needs to be
The individual who once brought agony to the artist can't hurt them anymore, but the anger remains, and the fault is attributable to the individual.

Scared
The individual should now feel threatened.

This girl is, this girl is
Attention is being drawn to the girl who is talking.

Outrageous
As with the boy mentioned before, the girl's attributes are now surpassing the realm of normalcy in a negative way.