Picking Up Pieces
Blue October Lyrics

I really need to talk with you
The singer desires to have a conversation with someone.

I keep stepping on the vein
The singer is worried about causing harm to the important aspects of their life.

That keeps my lifeline flowing through
The singer is aware that they depend on the important aspects of their life for happiness and purpose.

I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
The artist wants to be someone who can hold everything together for the person they are talking to.

But I don't feel perfect at all
The artist doesn't feel confident in their ability to help someone with their problems.

Sad and insecure flaw
The singer is feeling sad and insecure about themselves.

I find it hard to hold conversations
The singer is struggling with social anxiety and is finding it difficult to engage in conversations.

I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away
The artist experiences physical symptoms of anxiety and wants to escape the situation.

Its not you its strictly me in this situation
The artist wants the other person to know that their anxiety is not a reflection of their feelings towards the other person.

But, I'm wondering will it ever go away just go away, still
The artist is hoping that their anxiety will eventually improve, but they are still uncertain.

Sometimes I feel like weeping
The singer feels overwhelmed and sad.

Awake and when I'm sleeping
The artist's emotions are affecting them whether they are awake or asleep.

Perfecting how to put a game face on
The singer is trying to hide their true emotions from others by putting up a facade.

This puzzle I've been keeping
There are things about the singer that they are keeping hidden.

Has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
The singer is acknowledging that their hidden emotions are slowly starting to reveal themselves.

Spilling out onto the floor
The artist's hidden emotions are becoming too much to contain and are starting to affect their everyday life.

How long will I be picking up pieces?
The artist is wondering how long it will take for them to put themselves back together emotionally.

How long will I be picking up my heart?
The singer is feeling emotionally broken and is wondering how long it will take to heal.

Listen, I'll be as honest as I feel
The singer is expressing that they will try to be as honest as they can about their emotions.

I feel like I'm getting more paranoid and I'm hearing things
The artist is experiencing increased levels of anxiety and is starting to have paranoid thoughts.

And they never turn out real
The artist's paranoid thoughts do not reflect reality.

It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
The artist's emotions are feeling heavy and difficult to move past.

It's just so heavy all the time
The weight of the singer's emotions is constantly affecting them.

I'm scared of death
The artist is experiencing fear and anxiety about death.

And I'm scared of living
The singer is also feeling anxious about living their life.

I gave up on the past cause it's unforgiving
The singer has struggled to move past their past mistakes and regrets.

I misplaced my trust
The singer has experienced betrayal and has lost trust in others.

I watched my word begin to rust
The artist has a sense of decay in their life and relationships.

I'm a balloon about to bust
The artist is feeling overwhelmed and at risk of breaking down.

I need a place for reliving.
The singer desires a place where they can feel safe to process their emotions and experiences.

How long (in another space and time)
The singer is reflecting on the passage of time and how it may affect their healing.

Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
The artist is constantly reflecting on their emotional struggles.

Its getting oh so hard to find
The artist is struggling to find a solution to their emotional struggles.

But I still walk on
Despite their struggles, the artist is still trying to move forward with their life.