Indelible
Capstan Lyrics

The pieces came together but at separate times
Events fell into place over time, but not simultaneously.

You were always his but forever mine
You belonged to someone else, but you will always be a part of me.

You left me like an addict craving one more high
You left me wanting more, like an addict yearning for another hit.

The dose that brought peaks to my flatline
The intoxicating presence of you brought excitement to my otherwise stagnant life.

So perfectly chemically designed
You were expertly made to captivate and enthrall me.

Relapsed and realized you were cyanide
After falling back into your grasp, I recognized that you were not good for me.

Southern comfort with midwestern eyes
You have a charming demeanor, but also a subtle hint of something dangerous.

It's hard to feel your burn when I'm numb inside
I am emotionally detached, so it is difficult to fully experience the intensity of our relationship.

You entered my life like a WILDFIRE
Your arrival was sudden and fierce, like a wildfire consuming everything in its path.

Ignited by desire
Our passion for each other was the spark that started the inferno.

So captivated
I was completely enraptured by you and could not look away.

I didn't feel the air in my lungs expire
My focus on you was so intense that I was unaware of my own bodily functions, like breathing.

Beautiful but violent
You possess an alluring charm, but there is an underlying force that can be destructive.

Outspoken yet silent
You are both vocal and expressive, but also retain a sense of mystery and secrecy.

You are the chaos in any environment
Your presence can bring upheaval and disorder to any situation.

So terribly chemically maligned
Our relationship was not meant to be, and we were not compatible on a fundamental level.

Our faults intertwined
Our shortcomings as individuals became intertwined, and ultimately led to our undoing.

And you left the worst of you behind...
In leaving me, you left behind the negative aspects of your personality and behavior.

You know you're in my blood and I can't take it back
You are a part of me, ingrained in my being, and I cannot simply forget or erase you.

So I'll just make the most, grow and live with it
I will accept and make the best of our connection, and continue to grow and live my life.

Go and change what's next, 'cause I can't with our past
You can move on to a new chapter, but I am unable to change what has happened between us.

In fact I'll make them well, what parts of you I AM
I will take the parts of you that I have internalized and use them to heal and better myself.

What parts of you I AM, WHAT PARTS OF YOU I AM
I will embrace and incorporate the parts of you that have become a part of me, and use them to shape my own identity.