In 2003, he performed as a singer and dancer with the traditional music ensemble Mystica in İstanbul. In Autumn 2004 he started his education at the Bilkent University Faculty of Music and Performing Arts, at the invitation of Fazil Say. In February 2005 he released his first album, Ben Bu Şarkıyı Sana Yazdım. (Translates to: I wrote this song for you.)
bir melek ölürken
Cem Adrian Lyrics
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Yorgun yüzündeki
Düştü elindeki
Öldü, bir melekti
Sen, sen, sen giderken
Kalbim burda kalırken
Ellerim sessiz soğuk ve suskun öyle dururken
Gözlerimden yaş yerine sessiz harfler damlarken
Sen, sen, sen giderken
Ben, ben, ben kalırken
Ayak seslerinle bütün camlar pencereler inerken
Bir veda saçlarımdan tutup beni yerlerde sürüklerken
Yüzümde ne acı, ne keder, sana son kez bakarken
Sen, sen, sen giderken
Bir kalp burda kalırken
Bir şehri bir tekmeyle benim üstüme yıkarken
Bir dua dudaklarından düşüp paramparça olurken
Sen, sen, sen giderken
Ben, ben, ben kalırken
Sustu içimdeki
Yorgun yüzündeki
Düştü elindeki
Öldü, bir melekti
Yağmur gecenin karanlığını gökten söküp atarken
Rüzgar vurup bulutlarına beyaz şimşekler çakarken
Uykusundan uyanmış çocuklar korkmuşlar ağlarlarken
İçlerinden biri neden tanrı çok mu üzgün ki derken
Göç yollarında kuşlar kaybolmuş ölürlerken
Bir deniz kıyısında bir adam hala onu sayıklarken
Gökyüzüne açılmış eller birer birer kapanırken
Sen, sen, sen giderken
(Bir meleği öldürürken)
Veda etmeden gidilmez çocuk
Bu vedadan sayılmaz çocuk
Bir melek ölürken
Böyle sessiz durulmaz
Çocuk
Sustu içimdeki
Yorgun yüzündeki
Düştü elindeki
Öldü, bir melekti
Sustu içimdeki
Yorgun yüzündeki
Düştü elindeki
Öldü, bir melekti
"Bir Melek Ölürken" is a heartfelt song by Cem Adrian that explores the emotions and aftermath of losing someone dear. The lyrics depict a sense of longing, sadness, and resignation as the singer reflects on the departure of a loved one, metaphorically referred to as an angel. The first verse portrays the singer's internal silence and weariness, as well as the loss of something precious from their grasp.
The chorus repeats the phrases "you go" and "I stay," emphasizing the separation and the singer's struggle to accept the departure. The coldness and silence of their hands symbolize their frozen state of grief. The lyrics further express the loneliness that comes back to the singer when loneliness itself returns from the road that the beloved has taken. Tears give way to silent letters dripping from their eyes, highlighting the singer's inability to express their emotions in a traditional manner.
In the second verse, the emphasis remains on the departure, with the sound of footsteps causing the windows and curtains to slowly close. The farewell drags the singer down, holding onto their hair and dragging them through the dirt, while they face their final moments with pain and sadness. The chorus repeats, emphasizing the contrast between the departure and the singer's enduring presence.
The third verse describes the devastation caused by the beloved's departure. A city collapses onto the singer with a single kick, symbolizing the overwhelming emotional destruction. A prayer uttered by the beloved's lips shatters into pieces, reflecting the brokenness of their relationship. The chorus repeats once more, emphasizing the contrasting positions of departure and remaining.
The bridge introduces vivid imagery, with rain tearing the darkness of the night from the sky and the wind flashing white lightning across the clouds. Awake children cry in fear, wondering why God is so sad. Birds lose their way and perish on migration routes, while a man by the seashore continues to deliriously speak about the departed. The closing lines depict hands opening up to the sky only to slowly close one by one.
Overall, "Bir Melek Ölürken" is a poignant and poetic exploration of the emotions that come after losing someone dear, capturing the sense of longing, grief, and questioning that accompanies such a loss.
Line by Line Meaning
Sustu içimdeki
The silence within me.
Yorgun yüzündeki
On your tired face.
Düştü elindeki
What you held fell.
Öldü, bir melekti
It died, it was an angel.
Sen, sen, sen giderken
You, you, you were leaving.
Kalbim burda kalırken
My heart stays here.
Ellerim sessiz soğuk ve suskun öyle dururken
My hands stay silent, cold, and mute.
Yalnızlık gittiğin yoldan bana geri gelirken
Loneliness returns to me from the path you took.
Gözlerimden yaş yerine sessiz harfler damlarken
Silent letters drip from my eyes instead of tears.
Ben, ben, ben kalırken
I, I, I stay.
Ayak seslerinle bütün camlar pencereler inerken
As your footsteps make all the windows shut and close.
Bir veda saçlarımdan tutup beni yerlerde sürüklerken
A farewell, grabbing onto my hair and dragging me on the ground.
Yüzümde ne acı, ne keder, sana son kez bakarken
On my face, no pain, no sorrow, as I look at you for the last time.
Bir kalp burda kalırken
While a heart stays here.
Bir şehri bir tekmeyle benim üstüme yıkarken
Crushing a city onto me with a kick.
Bir dua dudaklarından düşüp paramparça olurken
A prayer falling from your lips and shattering to pieces.
Yağmur gecenin karanlığını gökten söküp atarken
As rain removes the darkness of the night from the sky.
Rüzgar vurup bulutlarına beyaz şimşekler çakarken
While the wind strikes lightning in the clouds.
Uykusundan uyanmış çocuklar korkmuşlar ağlarlarken
Children awakened from their sleep, scared and crying.
İçlerinden biri neden tanrı çok mu üzgün ki derken
One of them asks, why is God so sad?
Göç yollarında kuşlar kaybolmuş ölürlerken
Birds vanish and die on migration routes.
Bir deniz kıyısında bir adam hala onu sayıklarken
At a seaside, a man still raves about her.
Gökyüzüne açılmış eller birer birer kapanırken
As hands opened towards the sky slowly close one by one.
Veda etmeden gidilmez çocuk
You don't leave without saying goodbye, child.
Bu vedadan sayılmaz çocuk
This doesn't count as a farewell, child.
Bir melek ölürken
While an angel is dying.
Böyle sessiz durulmaz
You can't stay silent like this.
Çocuk
Child.
Sustu içimdeki
The silence within me.
Yorgun yüzündeki
On your tired face.
Düştü elindeki
What you held fell.
Öldü, bir melekti
It died, it was an angel.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Cem Adrian
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