I Want To Be Lonely Again
Christine Lavin Lyrics

I used to be so lonely
The persona was once constantly experiencing isolation and feeling down.

endless nights, empty days
Their loneliness was so severe that it haunted them day and night.

til I met you, my one and only
The persona finally found someone to connect with and cherish.

now I wish you'd go away ...
The persona realizes that their newfound love is causing them more pain than joy and wants to be alone again.

I want to be lonely again
The persona craves the solitude they once had and is willing to accept how it previously made them feel.

lonely's not so bad
The persona has realized that loneliness is better than their current state of affairs.

I never understood
The persona didn't recognize how good their solo life was until they had given it up for love.

what a good life I had
The persona reflects on how fulfilling their past life was as they had to rely on themselves only and kept the drama away.

no one snoring all night long
Without their partner, they can sleep soundly without any bothersome noise.

right in my ear
Having no one to sleep beside them means that they won't be awakened in the ear any more.

no one so consistently
Without their partner, they can have absolute privacy and independence

persistently near
The persona doesn't have to spend too much time with anyone who is constantly around them.

I want to be lonely again
The persona reiterates their desire to return to being alone and sing even more of the praises of their former life

those were the days
The persona reminisces about the memories they had with their previous single life.

a table for one
The persona enjoyed the simplicity of meals for one without having to stress about what to eat and when to eat it.

no debating who pays
Being alone means they avoided any potential disagreements about who pays for the date.

no arguing over
The persona never had to deal with disagreements about what to do in their free time or what movie to watch.

which movie to see
The persona never had to deal with disagreements about what to do in their free time or what movie to watch.

no having to visit
Without a partner, the persona avoided having to visit their partner's family members.

your rude family
Their partner's family members were, according to the persona, unpleasant to interact with.

I want to be lonely again
The persona repeats their desire to return to being by themselves, and is willing to deal with any consequences that come with it

this time I won't complain
The persona has had an eye-opening experience about the value of solitude and won't complain about loneliness any longer.

because I understand love now
The persona has learned what real love is: one that often hurts and is more difficult than how society has romanticized it.

love is a pain
The persona knows that there will inevitably be pain in any loving relationship, and they're willing to give it up to avoid it.

I want to go back to the days when
The persona wants to journey back to a time when they had a relationship without the romantic attachment they have now.

we were 'just friends'
The persona wants to turn back the clock to a point in the relationship when they were just friends and not romantically involved.

I want to be lonely again
The persona repeats their earlier feeling of wanting to return to being alone, definitely preferring it to their current state that is causing them more trouble than it's worth

Why don't I just tell you
The persona is questioning their reasons for not simply asking their partner to leave.

to move out, get your own place
The persona thinks if their partner lives elsewhere, maybe they can restore some sort of peace without giving up the relationship.

but something stops me
Despite their inner conflicts about the relationship, the persona still hesitates when it comes to taking any definitive action.

when I see that
The persona notices a specific expression on their partner's face,

sad look on your face
The persona's partner looks miserable almost, and this doesn't help in the slightest.

I think that look means
The persona starts to formulate a theory that explains the look; one that is not beneficial for them.

you want to be lonely again
The persona has concluded that their partner misses being on their own, but they didn't want to be lonely before meeting with the persona.

don't you know how lucky you are
The persona thinks their partner doesn't realize how fortunate they are being in a relationship as opposed to being single.

if it weren't for me
The persona is aware of the fact that they are the reason their partner is enjoying these benefits of being in a relationship.

you'd probably still be at that bar
The persona speculates that their partner might still be engaged as a single person doing typical single-person things like drinking at a bar.

drinking with all the other restless boys*
The persona imagines a scene of their partner drinking with a group of other single men, all of whom probably share their terror of being alone.

wasting a whole lot of time
The persona views their partner's life before them as a waste of time because they didn't have to share it with someone they enjoyed being with.

making a whole lot of noise
The persona thinks of single life almost like an unending state of nightlife that involves a lot of noise and not much else.

I'd probably be on the phone
The persona imagines that they too would have been on the phone day and night, probably calling up fellow single folk to lament their solitude.

or doing my nails
The persona pictures themselves engaging in a lot of self-care activities to help complement long hours of isolation.

surfing the net all alone
The persona imagines they would have been forever surfing the net for entertainment, with no one to interact with.

composing desperate e-mail
The persona might have become lonely to the extent that they could have resorted to writing desperate emails to old flames or random people online just for a connection.

Maybe I'm being hasty...
The persona is rethinking their earlier decision of wanting to be alone, and wondering if they made the right choice.

I look at you now...
The persona admits to staring at their partner and the way they do stuff, checking for any change in feelings.

and then...
The persona is about to reveal what they truly think about their current relationship.

I wonder do
The persona is uncertain about what they want from their partner, to continue with the relationship or something else?

I want to be lonely again...
Ending song with the sense of longing for a return to an earlier, simpler life without the drama of a committed relationship.