Coil spent the next period of its existence exploring visual media. In late 1984 they recorded a rendition of Tainted Love (originally recorded by Gloria Jones, but made popular by Soft Cell in the 80s), producing a widely banned, hallucinogenic video clip featuring Marc Almond as the Angel of Death; despite considerable controversy at home, the video ultimately found its way to the archives of the Museum of Modern Art. After spending several years working with filmmaker Derek Jarman on the feature The Angelic Conversation, Coil issued a remixed edition of their soundtrack. Following 1986’s Nightmare Culture, a collaboration with Boyd Rice produced as split release with Current 93, Christopherson and Balance invited Stephen Thrower to join the group in a full-time capacity. As a trio, they recorded 1986’s LP Horse Rotorvator, introducing orchestral, jazz, and middle Eastern textures into the mix; this album included The Anal Staircase.
In 1987, Coil issued The Unreleased Themes for Hellraiser, a collection of atmospheric gothic instrumentals commissioned for but ultimately cut from the Clive Barker horror film, followed by compilation album Gold Is the Metal (With the Broadest Shoulders), a remixed history of the group’s first several years of work. Unnatural History, another career overview, effectively ended the first phase of the band’s career in 1990; when Coil resurfaced a year later with Love’s Secret Domain, their music reflected the strong influence of the acid house culture. Another long layoff brought on by financial difficulties ended in 1995, when the group - now consisting of Sleazy, Balance, and Drew McDowell - signed to Nine Inch Nails’ Trent Reznor’s Nothing Records to release Backwards, an album which was never officially released, although it is available in a number of bootleg versions. Additionally, they recorded the LP Worship the Glitch, issued under the name ELpH, and in 1996 cut A Thousand Lights in a Darkened Room as Black Light District.
1998 marked a significant stylistic shift for Coil, as the group moved away from the industrial dance sound they pioneered in the first half of their career towards what Balance referred to as "Moon Musick". This began with the release of four seasonal EPs throughout that year, coinciding with the equinoxes and solstices; this marked the group making further forays into ambient and neoclassical styles. Lyrically, there was a push towards naturalistic, pagan imagery, and an emphasis on free form, improvisatory chants. All four of these releases were later collected and released as Moons Milk (in Four Phases) in 2002. Coil also put out a purely drone based project, Time Machines, under that alias the same year.
In 1999 Coil started to work with Thighpaulsandra, and with him released the chilling Musick to Play in the Dark, a dark, meditative work featuring mostly intoned vocals from Balance, and exploring deeper electronic textures and pitches. A second volume followed in 2000. After years of refusal to do so, Coil started to perform live again in 1999. They released a number of albums containing the various shows they did in the period 2000 - 2004. Coil have released a lot of material in very limited editions, and have distributed certain records only at concerts. In 2003 they started a project to re-issue these tracks. Amidst their sporadic touring, and growing internal tensions within the group, Black Antlers was released in 2004, consisting of many of the songs played in concert at the time. This would prove to be the last studio recording put out in Balance's lifetime.
Jhonn Balance’s long-time struggle with alcoholism led to his death on 13th November, 2004. He fell from the second floor window at his home, while drunk, and died a short time after. Coil’s last live performance took place at Dublin’s City Hall on 23 October 2004 and is expected to appear on the forthcoming DVD box set “Colour Sound Oblivion”. A number of songs that were (as good as) ready were released in autumn 2005 as a last farewell to Jhonn.
Peter Christopherson passed away peacefully in his sleep on November 25, 2010. Instead of sending flowers in memory of Peter Christopherson, people were asked to donate money to help children affected by AIDS in Thailand, the country he loved and died in.
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I Don
Coil Lyrics
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I cannot keep it all long enough
I want to hide myself in something that's bigger than me
That I cannot control
I wanted you to help protect me
To keep me saved in my Saturday
Confronting the evidence to run away from it
I want to say it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
The storm is raging now
'Cause I lost my faith in you
I want to have it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
Avenge what I konw now
'Cause I have no faith in you
I will rise from the ashes again
You can call me up
But I still the same
So don't even try to figure me out
This don't rents
Oh, if I'm to complicated leave now
'Cause I could easily be without you
I bury all the noise
Because I just fell like I'm trusting more
I want to say it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
The storm is raging now
'Cause I lost my faith in you
I want to have it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
Avenge what I know now
'Cause I have no faith in you
I avenge you, I avenge you
I avenge you, I avenge you
I avenge you, I avenge you
I avenge you, I avenge you
I want to say it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
The storm is raging now
'Cause I lost my faith in you
I want to have it now
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
Avenge what I know now
'Cause I have no faith in you
The song "I Don" by Coil talks about the loss of faith and trust in someone. The opening lines suggest that the singer is feeling embarrassed or ashamed, and probably exposed. They wish to hide themselves in something that is beyond their control. The desire to escape is understandable- but the singer realizes that the evidence is right there in front of them, and cannot be confronted without help. The help they were expecting, however, seems to have failed them. The lines "I wanted you to help protect me, to keep me saved in my Saturday" indicate that they were hoping for help from someone whom they trusted.
The chorus, however, is where the true frustration and heartbreak are evident. The singer refuses to believe in tomorrow, as they have lost faith in another person. They want to have what they need now because they cannot rely on the person who was supposed to help them in the future. The repetition of the phrase "I avenge you" suggests that the singer has been wronged and is seeking revenge. They know the truths that this other person tried to hide from them, and they are done trying to hold onto hope.
The final lines, "I want to say it now 'cause I don't believe in tomorrow" reveal the urgency and despair of the singer. They do not trust anyone anymore, and they are unwilling to wait for help or change. The unresolved chord at the end of the song leaves the listener with a feeling of unease and discomfort, indicating that the singer's struggle with trust and faith is ongoing.
Line by Line Meaning
This might long my face is burning
I am experiencing intense emotional pain which is causing physical discomfort, such as a burning sensation in my face.
I cannot keep it all long enough
I am struggling to keep my emotions in check and am at risk of losing control.
I want to hide myself in something that's bigger than me
I desire to find solace and comfort in something greater than my individual self.
That I cannot control
I am overwhelmed by my lack of control over my circumstances and emotions.
I wanted you to help protect me
I had hoped that you would provide support and security for me.
To keep me saved in my Saturday
I wanted you to preserve and maintain the happy times and moments in my life.
Confronting the evidence to run away from it
I am facing unpleasant truths and struggling not to avoid them by escaping or denying them.
Just when I needed you more
You were not present to provide the support and comfort that I needed most.
I want to say it now
I feel compelled to express my feelings and thoughts at this moment in time.
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
I lack faith or hope in the future and am focused on the present moment.
The storm is raging now
I am experiencing a turmoil of emotions and feelings at this moment.
'Cause I lost my faith in you
You have let me down and I no longer have trust or confidence in you.
I want to have it now
I desire immediate resolution or resolution to my situation rather than waiting for the distant future.
Avenge what I konw now
I seek justice or retribution for the wrongs or injustices I have experienced or witnessed.
'Cause I have no faith in you
I am no longer able to rely or trust on you to provide me with the care, support or comfort that I need.
I will rise from the ashes again
I will overcome the trials and hardships that I have gone through and come out even stronger.
You can call me up
I am still here and available for you to turn to and rely on despite the hardships I have gone through.
But I still the same
I am still the same person despite the trials and hardships I have gone through.
So don't even try to figure me out
Do not try and understand or interpret my actions, emotions or reactions because it is difficult and complicated.
This don't rents
I am not looking to anyone to provide me with materialistic or physical things to feel better.
Oh, if I'm to complicated leave now
If you find me too difficult to understand or relate to, then it is better for you to leave now.
'Cause I could easily be without you
I am capable of existing and surviving without you and your support or presence in my life.
I bury all the noise
I suppress and discard all the external stimuli that could cause me additional stress or emotions.
Because I just fell like I'm trusting more
As a result of discarding external stimuli, I have more space to focus on trusting myself and my own intuition.
I avenge you, I avenge you
I seek to rectify the wrong that has been done to you through the same means as myself.
I want to say it now
I feel compelled to express my feelings and thoughts at this moment in time.
'Cause I don't believe in tomorrow
I lack faith or hope in the future and am focused on the present moment.
The storm is raging now
I am experiencing a turmoil of emotions and feelings at this moment.
'Cause I lost my faith in you
You have let me down and I no longer have trust or confidence in you.
I want to have it now
I desire immediate resolution or resolution to my situation rather than waiting for the distant future.
Avenge what I know now
I seek justice or retribution for the wrongs or injustices I have experienced or witnessed.
'Cause I have no faith in you
I am no longer able to rely or trust on you to provide me with the care, support or comfort that I need.
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: MARCO BIAZZI, ZELATI MARCO COTI, ANDREA GAETANO FERRO, CHRISTIANO MIGLIORE, CRISTIANO MOZZATI, CRISTINA SCABBIA, GEORGE DON GILMORE
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@SrtaWoods-fy9eq
coil creates such incredible worlds with their music. everytime i listen to a song i feel i'm listening to a different, far away world i can't really comprehend, something beyond my vision. And it's comforting and unsettling at the same time. Such geniuses
@TheRattlehead13
This is pure fucking terror.
@TheRattlehead13
...And I love it.
@alexissaxon3504
Ikr
@TheRattlehead13
@Alexis Saxon thanks for reminding me that I already had a good taste in music 8 years ago 😎
@PesterFester1966
Unsettling and therapeutic..... Don't know what i would do without Coil.
@RedXmasLights
when i hear this song, i imagine it being the soundtrack to the ongoings in the mind of a frightened, helpless primitive animal in a society that doesn't make any sense to him... hence the "ape of naples". ...but that's just my interpretation.
@UnitedDiscord
Or like aliens coasting through Earth's timelines and watching our history unfold, and looking at each other in confusion about it all.
@oriorb
Good guess, but the name is a lot gayer- it's to do with a friend of Geff's working at a sex shop that sold bootleg gay porn tapes and how they would come up with names for tapes that catered to exotic fetishes as a game- e.g. Black Antlers, the Ape of Naples.
@paolovallejo5500
@me me Orb source?