What Sarah Did
Death Cab for Cutie Lyrics


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And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time

As I stared at my shoes
In the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths
As I said to myself
That I'd already taken too much today

As each descending peak
On the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines
And year old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye

It sung like a violent wind
That our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds

And I knew that you were truth
I would rather loose
Than to have never lain beside at all

And I looked around
At all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round
And everyone lifts their head
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said

That love is watching someone die





So who's gonna watch you die

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Death Cab for Cutie's song 09. What Sarah Said is a poignant reflection on the fragility of life and the inevitability of death. The song is centered around the experience of being in a hospital waiting room, watching a loved one slowly slip away. The first verse sets the scene, with the singer staring at his shoes in the ICU, a place that "reeked of piss and 409". He's cognizant of the fact that every plan he's ever made is a "tiny prayer to father time", a recognition that time inevitably marches on and that no one can escape its grasp.


The second verse delves deeper into the singer's emotional state. He's rationing his breaths, feeling as though he's already taken too much that day. Meanwhile, the LCD screen with its descending peaks is taking the person he loves farther and farther away from him. The third verse describes the waiting room itself, a place where goodbyes are said and memories linger like a "violent wind". The chorus brings everything together, with the singer realizing that he'd rather have loved and lost than never loved at all, but also grappling with the difficult truth that love means watching someone die. The song ends with a haunting question: "So who's gonna watch you die?"


Overall, the song is a meditation on the transience of life, the inevitability of loss, and the bittersweet beauty of love. Its raw emotional power is underscored by the simplicity of the lyrics and the stripped-down instrumentation, which allows the words to cut straight to the heart.


Line by Line Meaning

And it came to me then
I suddenly realized


That every plan
All our future intentions


Is a tiny prayer to father time
Are but small hopes against the inevitability of death


As I stared at my shoes
Looking down at my footwear


In the ICU
Inside the intensive care unit


That reeked of piss and 409
Filled with the foul smell of urine and cleaning supplies


And I rationed my breaths
Deliberately controlled my breathing


As I said to myself
Thinking to myself


That I'd already taken too much today
Realizing that my emotional capacity had been exhausted


As each descending peak
With the decline of each number


On the LCD
On the electronic display


Took you a little farther away from me
Your vital signs indicated a further separation from me


Away from me
Further apart from my presence


Amongst the vending machines
Surrounded by snack dispensers


And year old magazines
Outdated reading materials


In a place where we only say goodbye
In a location where final farewells are exchanged


It sung like a violent wind
Echoed like a forceful gust of air


That our memories depend
That our recollections rely


On a faulty camera in our minds
On the imperfect recording in our brains


And I knew that you were truth
I understood that you were authentic


I would rather lose
I preferred to suffer a defeat


Than to have never lain beside at all
Than to have never experienced your physical presence


And I looked around
I surveyed the area


At all the eyes on the ground
At the individuals avoiding eye contact


As the TV entertained itself
As the television played for its own enjoyment


Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Because the waiting area provides no solace


Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
Only anxious movements anticipating negative results


And then the nurse comes round
And then the healthcare worker rounds the corner


And everyone lifts their head
And everyone raises their gaze


But I'm thinking of what Sarah said
But I am contemplating the statement Sarah made


That love is watching someone die
That being present for someone's passing is a demonstration of true love


So who's gonna watch you die
Who will be there for you at the end




Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: BENJAMIN GIBBARD, NICHOLAS HARMER

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@same7741

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old​ magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone lifts their head
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who's gonna watch you die?
So who's gonna watch you die?
So who's gonna watch you die?



@redminotecheiraomem2549

For those that can't read French:
1:07 - 1:17 -> Il m'aime = He loves me
1:25 - 1:32 -> un peu? = a little?
2:02 - 2:15 -> beaucoup! = very much!
2:24 - 2:29 -> passionément = with passion
5:23 - 5:26 -> a la folie = madly
5:48 - 5:57 -> Il m'aime pas de tout = He loves me not at all
6:56 - 7:06 -> -> Il m'aime = He loves me
Nice (but intense) video 👏



@eplamoureux

Hey friend.

My mom recently passed. She died on Black Friday of 2021. I'm still processing it, to be honest.

She was diagnosed with aggressive stomach cancer in late September 2021. She was able to muster up the strength for the last weekend in October to see my oldest son's wedding, and watch my two youngest sons celebrate Halloween. She was as animated as she'd always been but couldn't climb the stairs for the guest bed, so she slept on the couch. She took a lot more naps than usual.

She went back to her apartment for the next month. I called her a lot in her last days. She sounded so winded but said things like, "oh I didn't do much today, just made some food and watched some tv"

By the end of November, she asked my little sister (a traveling nurse) if she could stay at her house for a couple weeks, to meet up with the medical specialists.

My sister called the morning of Black Friday. "You might wanna head out here, mom looks pretty bad, it might just be another couple weeks," as she drove to her latest contract gig.

She called an hour later, sobbing. My brother in law went in to check on her and she had passed away, alone.

My sister was a wreck. She was sobbing into the phone, kicking herself for not being there for her. She said, "I told her I didn't need to take this assignment, I told her I could sit with her but she told me to go!"

I'm sitting there trying to wrap my head around the fact that my mom was dead while simultaneously terrified that my sister was going to crash her car rushing home. I struggled to find the right words but every time I opened my mouth, nothing came out but weird sighs.

And that's when I heard calm and clarity from my sister.

"That bitch!", she said. "She KNEW she was going to die, and she sent me out of the house so I couldn't see it!"

I laughed, I sobbed, the sound I made could only be described as a blubber. Of course mom did that. Of course mom did precisely that.

In the coming weeks, as we began cleaning up and clearing out moms apartment, we saw everything organized perfectly. When we walked into her room, her birth certificate, life insurance paperwork and will were neatly laid out in the middle of her bed.

My old photos stacked perfectly in one part of the closet. My sister's in another. Blankets she'd made were separated from blankets she'd bought.

She'd been lying to me. When she said, "oh I didn't do much today," she'd been organizing her life, so it was easier for us to clean it up and put it away.

I don't know you, and I don't know your grandpa. But if he was anything like my mom, maybe he knew he had no control over his mortality, he had no control over his pain and his fatigue, but the one thing he did have control over was when and where he passed.

Maybe he chose to wait until he was alone, so no one could be burdened with watching him take his last breath, and living with that memory.

You're a good kid, to keep him in your heart like this. I'm sure he died loving you very much, and I'm sure that was enough for him.

Be well.



@lauragoldenberg7305

And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes
In the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths
As I said to myself
That I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak
On the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me
Amongst the vending machines
And year old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It sung like a violent wind
That our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were truth
I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around
At all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself
'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round
And everyone lifts their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die
So who's gonna watch you die
So who's gonna watch you die
So who's gonna watch you die



All comments from YouTube:

@sarahcrea3880

In March of this year I was hospitalized for pneumonia, and they discovered an extremely rare, inoperable brain tumor in my head. I’ve loved this song since it was released, but now that I know that I only have a few years left it means a lot more to me. I’m only 39 years old. The worst part about a terminal illness is worrying about those you love suffering when you’re gone. I’m not worried about myself. I’m worried about the people I love being okay.

@josephwood4362

Well fuck, lad. We love you.

@holdencaulfield8429

@@josephwood4362 Seems to be a dudette, but awesome work on Pretend-Caring, that also gets tons of thumbs up ;)

@rahsannfalls1860

You are an inspiration for writing these words...I pray for a full recovery 🙏. Somehow someway always keep that in mind..,❤️😎

@riverraven7

Oh fuck sweetie! I'm so sorry. ❤
Nothing I can say is enough.

@dickiedoberdoo3554

I can't help but feel that this song was written specifically to you. Same name even..weird! I hope you were able to have some good times here before moving on up to the next place. Wherever that may be!

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@Sibot88

I’m a Dr. in palliative care and this song actually make my patients happy knowing they aren’t alone when death comes knocking. I’m not family but there for them to hold their hand when they are scared

@stevewestwpg

Thank you for your service and caring, Dr. Smith. The song takes me back twenty years ago today when my father died in hospital. I find the video bears no resemblance to the song, but the song is still very meaningful in its vivid depiction of the experience of watching someone die. Stay safe and well, sir.

@user-jv8oe9gn1s

This would break my heart in a good way. I can't feel many things anymore but the thought of someone showing me this makes me feel loved.

@alexengland-shinemercy

That's beautiful

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