Entrance
Eden Lyrics

Seeing you was so bittersweet I almost died.
Encountering you was a mix of pleasure and pain, emotionally overwhelming me to the point where I felt almost destroyed.

My heart jumped but my head kept screaming: why?
Despite feeling an intense emotional reaction to you, my rational mind was questioning the logic behind pursuing any kind of relationship with you.

And I almost thought that I could change the past.
For a brief moment, I entertained the idea that I could erase or modify past events with the hope of a better outcome.

And I almost, but that never really lasts.
Although I briefly considered changing the past, I knew that was impossible and the feeling of hopefulness quickly dissipated.

Oh And I′m shot.
I feel wounded by the impact of my emotions.

Oh baby I'm shot.
I am deeply affected and hurt by my feelings towards you.

But I′m not.
Despite feeling hurt, I am resilient and not defeated.

Whatever you wanted.
I am willing to give you what you want or need.

Forever just wanting.
Regardless of what you want or need, I will always be wanting something from you.

And I hope you notice.
I desire for you to recognize and acknowledge my feelings towards you.

And could come around.
I wish you could return my feelings and reciprocate my interest in you.

'Cos I always blow it.
I have a history of messing things up or making mistakes in our relationship.

And run it into the ground.
My past mistakes have caused our relationship to fail or end.

And silence keeps me frozen.
I am paralyzed by the silence or lack of response from you.

And you won't make a sound.
You are not communicating with me or responding to my attempts to reach out.

So I hope you notice.
In the absence of communication, I still fervently hope that you are aware of my feelings for you.

Screaming man down.
I am struggling and overwhelmed, feeling as though I am collapsing or falling apart.

And I′ll only say this one time.
I will only express this sentiment to you once.

Your headlines won't get none of my time.
I am not interested in the superficial aspect of our relationship or any media attention that may come from it.

Yeah I'm lying.
I am not being truthful or genuine about my true feelings.

′Cos I still can't find out.
I am still searching for the reason behind my divided feelings towards you.

Why I′m so divided.
I am struggling with conflicting emotions or thoughts towards you.

Replay those few days over.
I wish I could relive the positive moments we shared together.

Somehow I'll find it.
I am determined to discover the reason for my divided emotions towards you, and I will keep searching until I find it.

Somewhere in your words.
I believe the answer lies in something you have said or communicated to me in the past.

When you leant on my shoulder.
One of the moments of positivity that I wish to relive was when you leaned on me for emotional support.

I might act distant but I swear that it′s not over.
Despite my behavior that may suggest otherwise, my feelings for you and our relationship are not completely finished or over.

I don't want to hear it.
I am not willing to listen to negative comments or criticism about our relationship from others.

But I gotta know, yeah I just gotta know.
I am plagued by uncertainty and confusion regarding our relationship, and I feel the urge to gain clarification.

Is there a reason, do you care if I'm still breathing.
I am unsure if you have a reason for the change in our relationship, and I question if you care about my wellbeing.

Or am I insane?
I fear that my mixed emotions and uncertainty surrounding our relationship may be driving me crazy.

For thinking we could've made it.
I am regretful for having hope or optimism about our relationship, as it seems to have lead to disappointment.

Oh baby we could've made it.
I am lamenting the lost opportunity or potential of our relationship.

But you'll never know it.
I will keep my true feelings about our relationship hidden and not communicate them to you.

′Cos I'm just way too proud.
My ego and pride prevent me from being vulnerable and expressing my true feelings to you.

Hide behind my ego.
I use my ego as a shield to protect myself from emotional harm or vulnerability.

Block the whole world out.
I am isolating myself emotionally and not allowing myself to be affected by external factors or social relationships.

And these words they don't come easy.
I find it difficult to articulate my feelings towards you.

And they don't come loud.
I struggle to convey my feelings with conviction or forcefulness.

So you'll never know it.
I will keep my true feelings towards you hidden, and you will never be aware of them.

Screaming man down.
Despite my outward calmness, I am struggling with overwhelming and intense emotions that are difficult to control.

I just saw God.
I experienced a meaningful or spiritual moment that provided clarity or perspective.

Outside the liquor store.
This clarity or perspective came from a surprising or unexpected source, such as a place I did not anticipate.

You told me I was lost.
You provided guidance or insight into my current emotional state.

I... lost.
I am admitting to being lost or misplaced in my emotional journey, and I am acknowledging the need for guidance or direction.