This Mad
Emm Gryner Lyrics


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It's the start of the month, one of twelve I don't like
I'm too upset to even try to write
But I will, there's nowhere else to go
There's scars too deep to heal alone, you know

Why do you rope my skeleton
Only want me to be happy, if it's with you
And I've never been this mad
I've never been this mad

Funny how it's easy to want the way out
These things you think of when your angel leaves town
He said you can reach me at the number below
And my hands are working to pick up the phone

And why do you think the world has crashed, into mercury at last
Don't you understand?
I've never been this mad
I've never been this mad
No, I've never been this mad
I've never been this mad

Hi-da-dada
Oh yeah, yeah
Hi-da-dada
Oh yeah, yeah
Hi-da-dada
Oh yeah, yeah
Hi-da-dada
Oh yeah, yeah

I've never been this mad
I've never been this mad
No, I've never been this mad
I've never been this mad





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Overall Meaning

The song "This Mad" by Emm Gryner is a melancholy track with introspective lyrics that explore the depths of one's emotions during a difficult situation. The lyrics describe a feeling of being lost at the start of a new month, with painful scars that cannot be healed alone. The singer is roped into a situation where they are expected to be happy, but they've never been this mad before. They consider reaching out to someone for help, but the world feels like it has crashed into chaos. The repeated lyrics "hi-da-dada" add a novelty to the song while conveying a sense of confusion and indecision. Overall, "This Mad" is a poignant piece that delves into the complexities of human emotions.


One possible interpretation of the lyrics is that the singer is dealing with a difficult breakup. The start of the month could represent the beginning of a new chapter without their former partner. The scars too deep to heal alone could refer to the emotional pain that comes from a breakup or other trauma. The person who wants the singer to be happy may be a new love interest or the ex who is trying to reconcile. The repeated phrase "I've never been this mad" could signify the intense anger and frustration that comes from feeling trapped in a difficult situation.


Line by Line Meaning

It's the start of the month, one of twelve I don't like
I don't like the beginning of any month, and right now I feel upset and unmotivated.


I'm too upset to even try to write
I'm feeling so emotional that I can't even bring myself to write.


But I will, there's nowhere else to go
Despite my emotional state, I know I have to write because it's the only outlet I have.


There's scars too deep to heal alone, you know
I have some deep emotional wounds that I can't heal on my own.


Why do you rope my skeleton
Why do you hold onto me so tightly, as if you're trying to control me?


Only want me to be happy, if it's with you
It seems like you only care about my happiness if it's tied to you and our relationship.


And I've never been this mad
I've never felt this angry before.


Funny how it's easy to want the way out
It's interesting how easy it is to want to escape when things get tough.


These things you think of when your angel leaves town
When someone you love leaves, you start to think about all sorts of things you wouldn't normally consider.


He said you can reach me at the number below
My angel left me a phone number to reach them, which gives me some hope.


And my hands are working to pick up the phone
I'm going to try calling my angel because I need them right now.


And why do you think the world has crashed, into mercury at last
Why do you think everything has gone so wrong, as if the world has literally crashed and burned?


Don't you understand?
Why can't you see my pain and understand why I'm so upset?


I've never been this mad
Once again, I've never felt so angry in my life.


No, I've never been this mad
I can't emphasize enough how furious I am right now.


Hi-da-dada
These are nonsensical sounds, possibly meant to convey a sense of frustration or confusion.


Oh yeah, yeah
Again, these are nonsensical sounds and probably don't have a deeper meaning.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Mary Gryner

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