I Was There
Hamilton Joe Frank & Reynolds Lyrics

I remember days when I was down
There were times in the past when I felt low and unhappy.

Lift my head up to the sky
I tried to find hope and look towards a better future.

Swear I Gave you everything
I sincerely and wholeheartedly gave you all that I had.

Now you with another guy
But now you have moved on and found someone else.

Swear you never gonna change
You promise that you will never change your ways.

Got this pain up in my eyes
I feel hurt and sadness, it's reflected in my eyes.

Poppin all these pills really want it to be over
I resort to taking pills to try and escape from my pain and make it all go away.

Chasing all these mills everyday I'm gettin closer
I work hard every day, chasing success and getting closer to achieving my goals.

Got me in my feels everyday I'm gettin older
These emotions consume me every day, and with each passing day, I feel like I'm growing older.

I'm the one to blame not the other guy
I take responsibility for the situation, not the person you're with now.

Standin in the rain hoodie up gotta fuckin cry
I find myself standing alone in the rain, wearing a hoodie, and feeling overwhelmed with sadness.

Going through this pain mask up gotta fuckin die
I hide my pain behind a mask, but deep inside, it feels like a part of me is dying.

Fuckin up my brain go insane every time you lie
Your constant lies and deception drive me crazy and mess with my mental state.

Keep on playin games won't you tell me why
You continue to play mind games with me, and I ask you to give me a reason for your actions.

You just stay the same never even try
You remain unchanged, never making an effort to improve or make things right.

Smokin all this weed to the face gotta get high
To cope with my emotions, I turn to smoking weed excessively to numb myself and find temporary relief.

Tokin I can't breathe that's How I get by
But by doing so, I feel suffocated and trapped, yet it becomes my way of surviving.

Musics what I need when your no where to be found
When you're not around, music becomes my solace and the source of comfort I rely on.

You can tell it's me when you listen to the sound
My unique voice and emotions are evident when you listen closely to my music.

If you fuck with me gang will put you in the ground
If you mess with me or disrespect me, my loyal friends and associates will take care of you violently.

Singin in these streets yeah I do this for my town
I express myself through singing in public places, doing it for the love and pride I have for my hometown.

Singin on these beats anytime im feeling down
I sing and perform over instrumentals whenever I feel down, using music as a form of catharsis.

Keep on makin hits till I'm known all around
I will continue to create successful music until I gain recognition and become well-known everywhere.

Keep on rollin spliffs till I'm higher than a cloud
I will keep rolling and smoking marijuana joints until I reach a state of extreme euphoria and detachment.

Up on this stage blowin smoke to the crowd
When I perform on stage, I metaphorically blow smoke, symbolizing my ability to captivate and entertain the crowd.

How you gonna go around pretending that we neva happened
How can you act as if our relationship never existed?

Acting like you ain't the reason that I'm rapping
You pretend that you have no influence on my decision to pursue a career in rap.

Laughing with your friends in the back of another dudes Benz
You're enjoying yourself, laughing and having a good time with your friends in the backseat of another man's luxury car.

I don't want you back cuz you don't mean shit
I have no desire to have you back in my life because you are worthless to me now.

So many nights of it not making since
I have spent countless nights trying to make sense of our situation, but it seems impossible.

I just wanna rap when I'm ready to quit
At times, I turn to rap as an outlet and escape when I feel like giving up on everything.

How many times have you thought of me since
I wonder how often you think about me since our breakup.

Do you think of me when your layin with him
Do I cross your mind when you are intimate with the person you are currently involved with?

I feel like I'm drowning and I can't even swim
I feel overwhelmed and trapped in my emotions, unable to find a way out or cope.

Got me in my thoughts so I'm pounding this gin
To distract myself from overthinking, I turn to drinking heavily and numbing my thoughts with gin.

Really left me broken when you walked out my life
Your departure from my life has caused me significant emotional pain and left me feeling shattered.

I guess you were lyin when you said you'd be my wife
I realize now that you were dishonest when you promised to be my wife, and it hurts.

Pain stabbin me in the chest like a knife
The pain I feel is like a sharp knife that stabs me directly in the chest, causing immense agony.

Can't stop loving you everything's not alright
Despite everything, I can't help but still love you, even though everything is not okay.