One Time
Haystak Lyrics

I believe in you, not because of you
I have faith in you, not because of your own abilities but because of God's presence in you

But because of God, that is in you
My belief in you is because I see that God is working through you

I pray that God will cause you to soar
I wish for God to bless and elevate you to great heights

High above an eagle, high above the thoughts of others
I wish for you to be elevated above all negativity and judgement by others

Higher than high
I wish for you to reach beyond any imaginable level of greatness

Thank you, my brothers and sisters
I express my gratitude towards my fellow brothers and sisters

For what you have done
I am thankful for your contributions and actions

And I know that we are not through yet, for this is just the beginning
I am aware that our journey together is far from over and this is just the start

However, words cannot express my love
No amount of words can convey the depth of my love for you

Check, check
These are my lyrics, pay attention

I caused more strain, pain, and anguish
I have inflicted more stress, suffering, and distress

On my grandmama and my granddaddy
To my grandparents, specifically

Than all nine other children, combined
More than any other grandchildren they had combined

Phone calls from jail, I′m going through hell
I was calling from jail during difficult times

I'm talkin′ to em through glass
Our conversations were through a glass barrier

Please, relax now
I now ask for them to calm down

I'm put em in predicaments, on multiple occasions
I have caused them trouble and difficult situations multiple times

I can still hear em tellin' me, "I be damned, Jason"
I can still remember them saying "Jason, I cannot believe it"

Used to beat me upside the head with a Bible
They once hit me on the head with a Bible

"Boy, boy, boy"
I recall them calling me 'boy' during a period of discipline

I can still hear em prayin′ for me
I can still remember them praying for me

"Lord, Lord, Lord
They prayed to God for me

Please, do somethin′ with this baby we done raised"
They prayed for God to help me and guide me if they had done anything wrong in raising me

It's when I was well beyond, or way past the age of accountability
I was no longer at the age where I could use youth as an excuse for my actions

And what I did was all me, but they felt it was on them
My grandparents felt responsible despite my mistakes being my own

I miss you, Grandpa (Uh)
I think about my grandfather and I miss him

That man didn′t play no games, kept it one hundred
He was a strict man and always honest

He taught me to worship Jesus (Amen)
He taught me to have faith and worship Jesus

Taught me to get money (Haha)
He taught me to work hard and make money

Taught me to keep a straight face, even when I was scared
He taught me to be strong and composed in difficult situations

And it was by his guidance, that I came out prepared
His teachings helped me become prepared for life

We die how we live, we live how we die
The way we live our lives is how we die and what we do in death is a representation of how we lived

If someone were to ask me, tonight
If someone were to ask me at this moment

"Stak, what's yo biggest regret in this life"
"Stak, what is your biggest regret in life?"

It′s that we only get one time, to get it right
My biggest regret is that there is only one opportunity to live life to the fullest

Let me get my ink pen (Huh)
I will write my thoughts and feelings

Ya done got me started, thinkin'
You have initiated my thoughts

Writing down my recollections, recallin' my reflections
I am writing my memories and reflecting upon them

The bodies, of murdered children
The dead bodies of innocent children

Maybe when the death toll reach a million, they′ll do somethin′
People might only act when an enormous amount of deaths has occurred

But until then, these children need real men
Until then, children require honest and responsible male role models

Willin' to stand up for them, as well as they
Role models who will fight for them and support them

Cause we share the common ground, of passing through hell
Our commonality is that we have all had difficult experiences in life

Where nobody, got no Daddy
A place where individuals might not have a father figure

And some people, got no Mama
Some people might not have a maternal figure either

Used to go holla at my partner like
I used to talk to my friend like

"Hey, man I need to borrow yo mama"
"Can I hang out with your mother?"

"Mrs. Thompson, I promise that we only did it once
"Mrs. Thompson, I swear we only had sex once

Now she say she pregnant, excuse my language
Now, she is claiming to be pregnant and excuse my language but this is terrifying

But I′m scared as fuck
I am so scared

I'm seventeen, I′m not cut out to be nobody daddy"
I am only seventeen years old and I am not ready to be a father

Now I wonder what would happen, had lil gal had that baby
Now, I cannot help but think about what would have happened if she had kept the baby

Maybe I'd be preachin′, maybe I'd be killed
Perhaps my life would have taken a completely different path and I would have died or become a preacher

Out there on the spot, tryna get diapers and enfamil
I would have been out on the street trying to get diapers and baby formula

My mistakes are pages, in a book about me
My blunders are like parts of a book written about me

And I'm so amazed, it didn′t end at chapter twenty three
I am surprised and grateful my life did not end at chapter 23

Feel me
Do you understand what I am saying?

It's that we only get one time, to get it right
My biggest regret is that we only have one chance to live our life the right way

I fell so many times, I said what′s the point in gettin' up
I have failed numerous times, making me question the importance of continuing to rise

I made it to a place, where I ain′t even give a (Shhh)
I got to a point where I stopped caring at all

Jason, give it up
I was told to give up and stop trying

Ya dreamin', they told me
People told me that my dreams were unrealistic

Out here, tryna make a demo outta quarter (Shhh)
I was trying to produce a demo using the very little resources I had

God had His hands, His hands on me
My faith in God made me believe that God was guiding me

In time, I learned how to pray for my enemy
Eventually, I learned how to pray for my enemies and seek forgiveness

If you see me fighting a tiger, please come fast
I need help even if I am fighting a seemingly impossible challenge

Before I beat the stripes off his big, dumb ass
Before I defeat the tiger's stripes in battle

I remember back, when I was gone
I recall a time when I was absent and gone from my loved ones' lives

My people, searched the whole house, and I just wasn't at home
My family searched everywhere but sadly I was not at home

They leave a light on, so I can find my way back in
They left a light on for me to show me the way back home

And pray before they go to bed, that I get back again
They prayed every night for me to return to them safely

I came so far, since then
I have come very far since that time

God got me out, when the devil had me fenced in
God saved me when I was stuck and trapped in a difficult situation

But that′s just my opinion
This is my personal belief and view

And it oughta be yours, if you got common sense
If you have common sense, you will share the same belief as me

Cause I rock cross country, from LA to Providence
I travel throughout the country, from Los Angeles to Providence

Praise God
I show appreciation and thankfulness to God

We die
Death is inevitable for all of us

One time
We only have one chance at living our life

You crazy, you think I′ma waste mine
You are crazy if you think I will waste my chance at life

I said, we live
Life is meant to be lived to its fullest

And die, one time
And we only get one time to experience both life and death

Ohhh
Expressing emotion without explicit meaning

One time, one time, one time, one time
Repeating the notion of only having one chance at life