Silver Spoon
Haystak Lyrics

Stepped out the back of a black escalade
I arrived in style in the back of a black escalade

With a triple black suit on,
Wearing a dark suit from head to toe

Some thousand dollar shoes on
Wearing expensive shoes

Black shades, cuz we burying a goodfella
Wearing sunglasses for the funeral of a respected person

My wife stepped out, my man popped an umbrella
My wife got out of the car and my friend held an umbrella over her

Holding back tears while I sign the fucking book
Trying not to cry as I sign the guest book

Walking toward the casket, but I don't wanna look
Headed to the casket, but afraid to look inside

Had to see it for myself, I looked up and there he laid
Needed to see it with my own eyes and looked at him lying there

I wasn't overcome with sadness, I was filled full of rage
Wasn't sad but angry about what happened

I thought about the time we'd been riding together
Remembered the good times we spent together

And how long it had been, seemed like forever
Felt like a long time since we bonded

Leaned down to him, told him 'Fuck You'
Cursed him while leaning down close

And just to think, you were someone that I looked up to
Couldn't believe I once admired him

Guess now I know it, really is true
Now understand that it's true

You love them pills more than me
Loved the drugs more than me or anyone else

Like I said, 'Fuck You'
Continuing to be angry and expressing that sentiment

Stood up I was so mad, I could've flipped the fuckin' casket over
Was so furious I felt like overturning the casket

Trying to accept that that part of my life was over
Trying to come to terms with the end of that chapter of my life

Kissed his momma on the forehead, looked into his toddler's eyes
Gave his mother a kiss and looked into his child's eyes

Too young to understand the fact that his father died
The child was too young to comprehend his father's passing

He was eating them, shit, needles made him cringe
He used drugs in a destructive and harmful way

But the way my man went out, fuck, it might as well've been:
My friend's death was so destructive, it felt like he died from heroin

A flame, and a needle, and a silver spoon
The drugs that took his life

My man took off and got high as the moon
My friend got high and was out of control

Looking down at the clouds and he never came down
Was so high he was disconnected from reality and never recovered

Til we put him in the ground, til we put him in the ground
He remained in that state until we buried him

That man got a Ph.D, a medical degree
He had an advanced education and was a doctor

And the son of a bitch ain't no better than me
Despite his education, he was no better than anyone else

He'll kill ya kids quicker than I will
He'll prescribe dangerous drugs that can harm your children

Infecting the streets with them (Pain Pills)
The drugs he prescribes harm the community

So many O.D. off of them O.Z.s
So many people overdose on the pills he prescribes

I mean the little homies as well as O.G.s
Even young people as well as older ones are affected

I've seen what it does cous, I've felt the buzz (huh)
Witnessed its effects and experienced its addictive quality

I know he's a doctor, and I don't give a fuck, bruh
Don't care about his job and social status

Kill my homie, and I'm coming back, ask Deezie
If he's responsible for killing my friend, I'll come after him

About the last f@ggot-@ss bitch I smacked (bitch)
Threatening violence, giving an example of something he's done before

For giving one of my dudes something that he ain't do
Doling out violence for someone getting a undeserved reward

And if he dies don't let it get traced back to you
Suggesting he will go beyond legal boundaries to seek revenge, if necessary

My people laid in the crib three days before someone came to help 'em
A reference to people in his community who suffer and get ignored

And they might still be there if somebody hadn't smelled 'em
Suggesting that some are forgotten until their decaying bodies emit a foul odor

Let me die crossing the mob, or robbing the Mexicans
Would rather die from dangerous activities than from drug abuse

But I ain't trying to die off no mother fuckin medicine
Would rather not die from medicine, despite the danger in which he lives

I've popped the X, yeah
Admitted to using the drug, ecstasy

I've sniffed a line, yeah
Admitted to snorting drugs

I smoke some reefer, and I had to draw a line there
Admitted to using marijuana but wouldn't use harder drugs

The pain pills had me from '01 to '04
Battled addiction to pain pills for three years

I couldn't feel them no more
Developed a tolerance to them

And I wasn't fixin' to die of no
Didn't want to die from drug abuse

It's a heroin type high we chase like a pipe dream
Describing the allure of the drug's effects

Start smokin them and it becomes a pipe dream
Using the drug is like chasing an unattainable fantasy

We lose so many of us, but it's not enough
So many people die from drug addiction, yet it's still not enough to stop it

He nodded off, and he don't got a pulse!
Someone overdosed and died

And when the damage finally gets done
When it's too late and the damage is done

Your friends argue over who's gonna dial 9-1-1
Even close friends hesitate to seek medical help

But them the same dudes that'll be at your funeral, carrying your casket
Ironically, those same friends will end up carrying your casket

I can't stand them dirty bastards
Dislikes those who let drug addiction destroy themselves and others around them

But those were the friends you chose
His friends may not be perfect, but they were the friends he chose

With allies like those, who needs foes
These friends are unreliable and untrustworthy, worse than foes

Yo, you let your man die
Blaming someone for allowing another person to die

You heard your man cry
Knowing someone was in distress but not helping

And you just stood by
Acting passively and not intervening

And it cost him his life
That lack of action led to the person's death

I got a phone call, that he had overdosed
Received news that the person had overdosed

I hit the E.R., where he was comatose
Arriving at the emergency room where the person is in a coma

A breathing machine, without it he'd be gone
The person relies on life support to stay alive

13, 000 milligrams of hydrocodone
The amount of the drug that was ingested

I told him hold on, just breathe, that's my man
Encouraging the person to hold onto life

If you can hear me homeboy, squeeze my hand
Trying to connect with the person and give him reassurance

He ain't squeezed it though, he just let it go
The person didn't (or couldn't) respond to the request

And he died with tracks in between his toes
The person's drug abuse is manifested by the marks between his toes

Who knew
Expressing shock, regret, or frustration over a situation