End Of The Affair
Howard Ben Lyrics


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The end of the affair
The weight of the world
The kindness gone to bed
The way of your laughter
Alive in the halls
Did he hear, did he hear
The fumbled words you said
Living without her
Living at all
Seems to slow me down
Living forever
Hell, I don't know
Do I care, do I care
The thunder's rumbled sound

Now I watch her
Running 'round in love again
Now I talk about you
When I'm with our mutual friends

The end of the affair
The weight of the world
The kindness gone to bed
It's free of your laughter
Alive after all
Did he hear, did he hear
The fumbled words he said

Living without her
Living at all
Seems to slow me down
Living forever
Hell, I don't know
Do I care, do I care
The thunder's rumbled sound

Now I watch her
Running 'round in love again
Now I talk about you
When I'm with our mutual friends

Now I watch her
Running 'round in love again
Now I talk about you
When I'm with our mutual friends

This is it
This is just it
Go to him
What the hell, love?
What the hell?

This is it
This is just it
Go to him
What the hell, love?
What the hell?

This is it




What the hell, love?
What the hell?

Overall Meaning

The lyrics in "End Of The Affair" by Howard Ben depict the aftermath and emotional weight that comes with the end of a romantic relationship. The opening lines express a sense of heaviness and burden, symbolized by the weight of the world and the kindness that has ceased to exist between the two individuals involved. The references to laughter and fumbled words suggest moments of vulnerability and intimacy that have now been lost.


The first verse also explores the impact of this breakup on the singer's life. Living without the other person, or even living at all, feels like a slow and dragging process. There is a sense of uncertainty and apathy towards the idea of living forever, as the singer questions whether they even care anymore amidst the rumble of thunder, which can be seen as a metaphor for the tumultuous emotions they are experiencing.


In the second verse, the singer observes their former partner's actions from a distance. They watch as their ex-lover finds love again and it stirs mixed emotions within them. It becomes clear that the singer still finds it necessary to talk about their past relationship when in the presence of mutual friends, indicating that they are still processing the breakup and seeking solace in shared experiences.


As the song progresses, the repetition of the chorus emphasizes the finality of the end of the affair. The phrase "This is it, what the hell, love?" represents a moment of resignation and acceptance. The singer seems to be encouraging their ex-partner to move on and go to the new love interest, expressing a mix of sadness, frustration, and perhaps a hint of bitterness. They question the validity of their own emotions and what they truly feel about this chapter coming to a close.


Ultimately, "End Of The Affair" captures the emotional aftermath of a breakup, including the weight of loss, the struggle to move on, and the complicated mix of emotions that arise when encountering the ex-lover in new romantic relationships. The lyrics suggest a profound and introspective exploration of the range of feelings that accompany the end of a significant relationship.


Line by Line Meaning

The end of the affair
The relationship has come to an end


The weight of the world
Feeling burdened and overwhelmed


The kindness gone to bed
The care and tenderness in the relationship have disappeared


The way of your laughter
The joy and happiness that your laughter used to bring


Alive in the halls
Still present in the memories and surroundings


Did he hear, did he hear
Did he listen and understand


The fumbled words you said
The incoherent or clumsy words you uttered in the relationship


Living without her
Existing without her presence


Living at all
Even just existing is a struggle


Seems to slow me down
It feels like life is moving in slow motion


Living forever
Enduring an eternity without her


Hell, I don't know
I'm unsure and confused about


Do I care, do I care
Do I still have any feelings or emotions


The thunder's rumbled sound
The loud and unsettling noise of thunder


Now I watch her
Now I observe her


Running 'round in love again
Engaging in new romantic relationships


Now I talk about you
Now I discuss you


When I'm with our mutual friends
When I'm in the company of our shared acquaintances


This is it
This is the end


This is just it
This is all there is to it


Go to him
Choose him over me


What the hell, love?
Expressing frustration and confusion about love


What the hell?
What is happening?


What the hell, love?
Expressing frustration and confusion about love


What the hell?
What is happening?




Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: BENJAMIN JOHN HOWARD

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@resilientoverthinkervm4343

Lyrics

The end of the after
The weight of a war
The kindness, gone to bed

The weight of your laughter
Alive in the hall
Did he hear, did he hear the fumbled words you said?

Living without her
Living at all, seems to slow me down
Living forever
Hell I don't know
Do I care do I care? the thunders rumbled sound

And now I watch her
Running round in love again
Now I talk about you
When I'm with our mutual friends

The end of the after
The weight of a war
The kindness gone to bed

The treat of your laughter
Alive after all
Did he hear, did he hear the fumbled words you said

Living without her
Living at all, seems to slow me down
Living forever
Pale light on all

Do I care, do I care
The thunders rumbled sound

Now I watch her running round in love again
Now I talk about you when I'm with our mutual friends

Could you be, could you be alone?
My hatred, my hate will bring me closer

So this is hell
This is desert
And what the hell?
What the hell love
What the hell

So this is hell
This is desert
What the hell

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@anillamichhane2180

The end of the affair
The weight of a war
The kindness gone to bed
The weight of your laughter
Alive in the hall
Did he hear, did he hear the fumbled words you said
Living without her
Living at all
Seems to slow me down
Living forever
Hell I don't know
Do I care do I care the thunders rumbled sound
And now I watch her
Running round in love again
Now I talk about you
When I'm with our mutual friends
The end of the affair
The weight of a war
The kindness gone to bed
The threat of your laughter
Alive after all
Did he hear, did he hear the fumbled words you said
Living without her
Living at all
Seems to slow me down
Living forever
Pale light on all
Do I care, do I care the thunders rumbled sound
[x2:]
Now I watch her running round in love again
Now I talk about you when I'm with our mutual friends
Could you be, could you be alone?
My hatred, my hate will bring me closer
[x2:]
This is it?
Well this is desert
And what of him?
What the hell love
What the...



All comments from YouTube:

@haidengeary8277

This song breaks my heart. Memories are great, but being reminded of what you lost, how you messed up, and ultimately, being reminded you're alone. Nothing is worse than having none to share your thoughts with. All I want, is someone to confide in.

How pathetic.

@2malachi

being gas-lighted by a fucked up girl with a vivid imiagination is way worse than being alone. Get a cat.

@SeanLives

Gotta love yourself

@2malachi

@@SeanLives Says who?

@mariachennell7856

Not pathetic at all. Nearly all of us feel like this. We are just not brave enough to share it—like you. Thank you.

@2malachi

There is something worse than having no one to share your thoughts with, and that's having the thoughts of others forced upon you, in whatever way. Being alone is absolutely fine, being left alone is essential to live any sort of pleasant life. One day perhaps all of us will just be left alone.

@gavink1948

Most underrated musician in the past 10 years. Seems great music gets overlooked these days. But this man is pure class.

@beaneyboi4855

Couldn't agree with you more mate hoping to see a little bit more Ben Howard soon...I think he's been hiding in the Wood for a while with that blaze of a feather band.

@mdgsk824

Not enough swearwords and autotune

@bfaceb5149

Singers and musicians like Ben Howard, their work never gets it's accolades until they have passed away... ♥️

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